I don't know who needs to hear this but:
-"it only hurts a little" is still pain
-"I can ignore it" is still pain
-"I can cope with/manage it" is still pain
-"it's bearable" is still pain
-"I can push through it" is still pain
-"it doesn't hurt that much" is still pain
-"it doesn't stop me from doing x" is still pain
You don't need to be in agonizing pain to be in pain.
The fact that you fear not being enough, not being able to get what you want, not feeling able to get where you want, that you feel so insecure about yourself is probably not just related with your childhood but also with past friendships or any other type of relationship that didn't end well or in which you weren't treated correctly. You were probably left out from group activities and jokes or not invited to places; you were made to believe you were very important but at the same time you were kept hidden and later you were left alone and forgotten as something of not great value; you were probably easily judged as uninterested because of your decisions or behaviours without asking for further reasons...
I know all these experiences (and many more than these ofc) hit you deep and now are rooted inside of you as a confirmation of your unworthiness and unlovability but it was not your fault. Or at least not just because of your decisions or behaviour (of which not everyone has the empathy to understand or even guess/imagine the reasons, if you don't talk about it): in relationships there are always at least two people involved. And when one of them moves away or leaves you out of their life without asking for or giving an explanation, it's a relationship that is already crumbling (and it's best if it ended this way, even if it pains you because you felt guilty about it). When there's not communication nor interest in the other and in their feelings, despite how strong and indipendent they may look, despite how far they may have moved, a relationship is already ended.
It's not about your worth or lovability, which you possess just because you're alive. It's just about people's decisions, it's about lives taking different turns, it's about the fact that some relationships just need to end or evolve into something different that is not a deep friendship anymore (if you both agree ofc). It's about people growing and changing, and following their own path. Keep going on onto yours so to find new friends and even lovers if you want (cause you will anyway: life is made of cycles, as you had friends in the past, you'll have friends in the future; as you didn't have good friends in the past you will have good friends in the future. It's all about you, you can change your life at any given minute. Take your time to understand your emotions and process them but then let the past go, heal and move on to something new -and even better, seen how you were treated).
Not me retroactively writing Otto into my Delancey fic despite not mentioning him at all during Morris's half of the backstory, and also making Otto the most pathetic wet cat of a man imagineable
Otto Wiesel in my head:
Do you like Superman for just his body or is his personality a factor?
his personality is actually the most important factor. its a plus hes gorgeous
BOOTSTRAP: Tell him -- don't come! Tell him -stay away! Can you tell him? It's too late. I'm part of the ship. The crew.
He's here...
Happy 1st birthday George.....
#never show me anything#this is why#I get accused of having seen it before even on the first airing#I have writer brain I am sorry#daddy likey puzzle
It's worse when you guess the twist and you're wrong but YOUR TWIST WAS BETTER
not sure how many soccer/football fans i have here but i want to take a moment of silence for this sequence of events:
france bans hijabs in sports -> france is outraged there is one, singular woman on the moroccan team in hijab playing in this world cup -> france calls the entire country and team “regressive” and “backwards” -> firestorm of racist, islamophobic takes in french media -> france says they won’t broadcast any moroccan matches where nouhaila benzina is playing in hijab -> moroccan team does great and qualifies -> morocco is then scheduled to play france, who now has eat their own words and broadcast the match
chimney swifts are so weirddd theyre like if birds decided to be bats.
thats bats. those are bats. to me
just like what a strange little creature. theyre related to hummingbirds. they cant actually sit and perch like most birds, the best they can do is cling to vertical surfaces. almost everything they do is done in mid-air. they have to drink by swooping at the surface of water with their mouth open. they build nests out of twigs they break off of branches as they fly by. they eat 5000-6000 bugs a day. And theyre the next president, of the united states of america
Hello this musical fucked up my brain therefore i draw silly billies
At the risk of loosing some mystery, I think I should add some context:
There’s this website-I mean, scientific organization called the Holotypic Occlupanid Reasurch Group.
They are a group of abiologists who study and classify Bread clips.
I found a species that has not yet been described:
wtf?
Apparently HORG is widely appreciated by pediatricians since knowing exactly what kind of Occlupanid a child may have swallowed makes removing it safely much easier
IIRC this is actually part of the reason HORG was started. A man swallowed a breadclip and the clip closed around part of his tissue linings (in his intestines I think?). The specific shape and flexibility of the clip were significant determining factors in the removal process, as some bread clips have spikes and prongs that would have made extraction more complicated. They started the taxonomy so they could work out extraction techniques for each type.
are you fucking kidding me occlu like oculus or close and panid like bread. its a fancy word for breadcloser
happy very specific archive thursday, everyone
