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you call me the traitor-

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but who did i betray when all i did was look out for myself?

man if youre not mature enough to be an adult running a server where theres minors in it... maybe you shouldnt be running a server at all because if you get annoyed at every single thing a minor does (ESPECIALLY if theyre expressing discomfort w something) i can hardly believe you'd be able to run a server with just adults in it too.

but that was obvious enough when the owner refuses to have moderators in the server because they're "picky with permissions" and "don't want moderators" but theyre hardly online at all and despite the server being PG13 there's so many rampant NSFW jokes (mommy/daddy jokes and ABO jokes being the biggest offenders that the owner parttakes in VERY actively). it was also obvious enough when in convos away from the minors you say "sometimes i wish i could kick out all the minors" yikes.

The instant you involve other people in a story it is no longer solely yours. It is a collaborative work.

If you get to the point where you say you don’t want to be the one retraumatizing someone it’s too late. You’ve already done it. Congratulations. 🎉🎊🎈

I really don’t like the “if they care they will make time” but honestly…yeah. If someone really did care enough about you when you’ve expressed you feel ignored by them then they would make more of an effort to make time to talk to you. They’d make more of an effort to fucking communicate.

If they didn’t care. Then they’d just do nothing to change.

It’s very telling.

imagine people telling you “you have a problem this is what it is and how you can fix it” and then you turn around and do nothing to fix ur problem and go “WHY MY FRIENDS ALL HATE ME WAAAHHHH” when they confront you again about the problem you have that you know how to fix but don’t fix

We only talk when it’s in your terms and it infuriates me. I try my best to reply immediately but you can just be gone for hours without a word. I feel like the time we have is precious but one sided. You call me a highly valued friend yet you never make an effort to talk to me during times when I’m available. You only talk to me when you want to. I’m just. Here.

I’ve been fucking transparent as all hell about my availability. Our schedules barely line up because you’ve got a weird sleep schedule. I work.

Apparently YOU do chores all day long every day. Apparently. I don’t believe it. I really don’t. You’re a liar and I hate being so attached to you.