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@toothsheeran

ed sheeratanist | she/her | ed/sheeran | bi | 21 | infj-t | tw: ed and ptsd content. i don’t promote ed sheeran behaviour. this is a vent account. pedophiles/MAPS supporters and people from edtwt do not interact with my blog. the only thing i do here is post memes, vent about my mental health struggles and worship our lord and saviour edward christopher sheeran. if you find that triggering, please just block me, but don’t take my safe space away from me.

dear person who has stumbled upon my blog,

please do not report. this is a religious blog. we are part of a cult that is dedicated to doing white magic rituals in the name of our lord and saviour edward christopher sheeran to help people. we are also dedicated to spreading his word so that those lost souls out there will finally come to spiritual awakening and consequently attain salvation.

repent before it’s too late.

the worst thing in the world is doing things. the second worst thing in the world is not doing things. how has no one ever come up with a solution for this

i honestly don’t know how this happened but somewhere between my childhood and formative years i forgot how to exist like a normal person and started to either overthink everything or make disastrous choices without any proper thinking at all. no middle ground whatsoever

I want to lose weight to the point where I stop worrying about how my body looks to strangers in public. I want to lose weight so I’m skinny enough to sit down and not feel my stomach rolls dig into tables. I want to lose weight so I’m skinny enough to not feel ashamed when I’m ordering food. I want to lose weight so I can finally fucking feel like I’m worth something.

i have gained sm weight.... i want to fucking die

I need to get my shit together. Im tired of being depressed and wallowing in sadness. im sick and fucking tired of not living up to my full potential and not being the person i want to be. i need to get my shit together because i just cant live like this anymore

Will I ever not feel like a burden? Or for the rest of my life will I feel like an inconvenience. I'm terrified I will be perpetually in the way of someones path to happiness. Like a massive boulder that you want to pick up and throw, but just dont have the heart to.