I am a slut for when they go harder and faster when I say I can't take it
Up The Wolves by The Mountain Goats // Minotauro by Jordi Garriga Mora
Unsettling/ Uncanny Book Recommendations
- House of Leaves by Mark Danielewski
- Earthlings by Sayaka Murata
- The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
- The Bird by Jung-hee Oh
- The Sailor Who Fell from Grace with the Sea by Yukio Mishima
- Audition by Ryu Murakami
- The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson
- Roadside Picnic by Arkady and Boris Strugatsky
- We Have Always Livid in the Castle by Shirley Jackson
- Human Acts by Han Kang
- Ring by Koji Suzuki
- A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
- Heart of a Dog by Mikhail Bulgakov
- The Shining by Stephen King
- In the Miso Soup by Ryu Murakami
girl, are you the house on ash tree lane? because there is a dark chasm within you that makes no physical sense that corresponds to the themes in your narrative that i also i feel compelled to explore
I’m slowly beginning to accept the reality that 2007 was not last year but in fact almost four years ago
guinea pig instagram accounts are so funny cause the captions will be like "uh oh! pumpkiwumpkin is being extra sassy today!" and the picture is literally just
I just took a practice GRE for the first time! It was scary, but not as scary as I thought it would be. I didn’t get to see how I would realistically do, because the test glitched out when I had 2/5 left, but I got to see what kinds of things I’ll be asked, and what I need to work on. That’s really cool. It was a first step, but I’m really glad I took it.
~gonna try to feel happy about one thing I do every day this year. Today, it’s that~
American schools absolutely depend on teachers and support staff to disregard any and all work life boundaries for the sake of making the broken system work. And that creates such a TOXIC work environment where employees are constantly belittling eachother for not "going the extra mile" by sacrificing your life to your career. I told a teacher I don't do any planning/prepping until the day we go back for professional development and it was like I slapped her in the face with my "laziness."
I no longer do any work that I'm not paid for, unless it's absolutely necessary. A big part of therapy for me has not just been learning to set boundaries between me and my job but also learning how to deal with being judged for putting my mental, physical, and emotional wellbeing first. As a people pleaser it's been hard to continually have to remind myself that the reaction others give me to setting healthy boundaries is not my responsibility.
dear universe,
things are sucking right now; they have been for a while, but they’re coming to a head. I’m having trouble getting out of bed. I’m 29 and living at home. I’m dating, but it doesn’t feel real at all because my partners and I can’t act like normal people in relationships. I don’t want to have sex with anyone. I don’t make enough money to get a place. I need to change careers, but I feel crippled by my lack of drive, and by money, and by feeling very dumb. I want a passion, and I don’t know how to get one, and that feels terrible. TJ talks about our future sometimes, and it’s a nice dream, but I realized the other day that that’s all it is. I don’t want to waste another year dreaming. I’m still not drinking, and I know that’s great, but I still am painfully shy and lonely, I’m still poor, I still don’t know what makes me happy. My mom has been crying everyday because she hated her job the first week. She quit yesterday. I couldn’t talk her out of it. She’s rudderless now.
I miss my MA friends. I miss feeling like I could make friends. I miss being able to go on hikes. I miss smoking weed and kissing. I hate the winter. I want to have a useful skill set but I have no idea how to get one. I really need a good day.
I’m going to really try today. I’m going to get out of bed, and I’m going to make it. I’m going to brush my teeth, and make some work calls. I’m going to go outside while it’s still light out. I’m not going to daydream or doom scroll. Maybe I’ll do yoga. Maybe I’ll curl my hair. Maybe I’ll pick a place to volunteer. Those are all things within my control. Gonna do them. Here’s my face.
you’ve heard of existential dread and existential horror, now get ready for existential peace, which is that feeling when you stare up at the nightsky and think, “huh. i exist. that’s pretty neat.”
2023
1. COMMIT TO THE BIT
2. PARTAKE IN THE DIVINE ACT OF CREATION
3. LET THE SOFT ANIMAL THAT IS YOUR BODY LOVE WHAT IT LOVES
Reblogs to tell your mutuals you love them but don't know how to interact
