im still thinking bout yesterday's competition like after karl's jump i was 100% sure that it's not enough to beat halvor and i was right omg i can't its just too much for me
it’s almost two hours now and I still can’t fucking believe Halvor really fucking did that
you fucking king, you fucking icon, you fucking legend
also alex stoeckl has a galaxy brain
If I have to be somewhere with a group of people I don’t know (class, someone’s house etc) my anxiety kicks in full swing and I’m the most awkward person. Even if I’m in a room with me only knowing one person and idk the rest, I just awkwardly stand there. And I don’t wanna come off rude because I’m not at all it’s just I have no idea what to talk about or do. So I bury myself in my phone. I hate when I get called out for it but it’s just my way to deal with my anxiety. Maybe this sounds stupid, I don’t know, but people without anxiety have no idea how I feel. I thought as I got older, things like that would become easier, but nope.
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It‘s so weird. Everything is fine and I could laugh about your joke but at the same everything seems so wrong and all I want to do is stay in bed all day. There is so much pain inside of me but I can‘t explain it. I’m not an ungrateful person I mean I’m glad I have a roof over me and loving family and friends but I feel like I don’t belong here. I feel like everyone is just tolerating me but no one really needs me. I feel like I‘m a burden to them. I feel I’m a disappointment. I feel like a nobody. I feel like dying. Whenever I try something why do I fail so often? Sometimes I can‘t even look in the mirror.
Living with social anxiety is so tiring. I mean why can’t I just make friends like a normal person? Why can’t I hold a conversation like a normal person? I fear being judged by people every time I step out of the house. What if they make fun of the way I dress? What if I get made fun of for doing something a certain way? But some people don’t understand this. They simply disregard our fear of social interaction and mistake it for shyness. They think telling us to get over it is the advice we needed all along. So remember, when a person tells you they have social anxiety, help them out rather than dishing out advice on how to overcome their ‘shyness’ or to stop being so ‘stuck up’.
something that helps me with social anxiety:
release the obsession with always saying "the perfect thing". speak from your heart and tell yourself that just responding is good enough. you do not have to sound nice or smart all the time. it is okay to just be honest and say what you think. you are not here to please anyone, and no one is going to judge you because your reply to their text wasn't an A grade essay. a less than perfect reply is better than no reply.
Social Anxiety.
Are they acting different? What did I do this time? What aren’t they telling me? Is it my fault? What did I do wrong? It has to be my fault right? I did something wrong. They dont like me anymore. I’m annoying them. They’re done with me. Did I say something? Did I not say something? Why are they taking so long to respond? I did something wrong. Are they annoyed with me? They have to be annoyed with me. Why wouldn’t they be? I’m annoying. Are they mad at me? What did I do? Should i ask what I did wrong? No, they’ll get mad. Should I tell them about my anxiety? Should I apologize? Will they understand? No. They wouldn’t. They’ll think i’m looking for attention. But what if I am looking for attention? Thats all I ever do. Thats why they’re acting different. What did I do Wrong?
i'm afraid of being annoying and being ignored at the same time
Keeping in touch with people is so hard when your brain tells you no one wants to talk with you
Them: are you okay?
What I actually want to say: no I’m not, I’m tried of living in this world were everything I do is a problem.
What I do say: I’m fine 🙂
I am not shy. Having a social disorder does not make you shy. I can be loud. I laugh a lot. I’m outspoken and will do crazy stuff. I can take up all the space and I can voice my opinion. I can take attention. But ONLY around people I’m comfortable with.
I get panicked at the shop. I can’t go shopping or anywhere on my own. I can’t pay for items by myself. I have to count my change 20 times first. If I can’t plan the conversation I won’t talk to them. Talking to people i don’t know is almost impossible and talking in front of people is torture. I have to rehearse the words yes Mrs every morning to answer a register. If I’m out alone i can’t breath. Someone is always judging me. The way I look, how i walk, the clothes i wear… if someone laughs it’s always at me. These thoughts will drown me. I am terrified of telling new people about my interests from fear of judgement. When out with friends i will always watch what i say, I might slip up otherwise and everyone will hate me. I worry my friends just don’t know how to get rid of me. Every. Single. Day. When I leave a social situation i always regret most of what I say and think nobody really likes me. They just tolerate me. When someone asks if I’m ok. I have to say yes. If I talk about my real feelings, they will think I’m annoying and won’t care. They will call me dramatic. So it’s easier to say I’m good. If a friend even jokes about me. I take it to heart and pretend it’s funny. The minute I’m alone, I think of ways to change. I dwell on awkward moments that I shouldn’t. I can’t make eye contact, its to much. I cross the street so I don’t pass anyone. I’m terrified when someone says can we talk. I have read this post about 100 times for mistakes, from fear someone will point out a flaw.
These are some of what I go through. But I am not shy. No where near. Don’t confuse the two. There’s shyness but there’s also social disorders. They are not the same thing.
