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my new personal is @orcalesbian i wanted to use the url but im on mobile so i couldnt change this one :p anyway unfollow this one and follow that one !

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anyway i cant sleep and i havent been able to sleep for the past couple days :/ i have a super low dose of trazodone i could try to take bc i got it prescribed to help me sleep anyway so ?

#its like super small dose so i think maybe it wont make me sick#like i never had it raised or anything#i think my issue with my zoloft and lamictal was that one was raised to 200mg the other to 400mg when i started both at 25mg#and then i didnt take em for a bit and tried to start right back at the high dosage#so....maybe try the trazodone
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since its a set schedule monday-thursday 7:45-3:30 i would have to take later classes at school but honestly id rather do that anyway ?? and they have a nighttime and weekend class of pretty much every class i need so ???? its just....i want to be a preschool teacher so fucking bad i would rather be a preschool teacher than elementary like im going to school for sooooooooo if i have to be like an at night half time student for this job i am 100% okay with that

#its assistant teacher but in this state at pretty much everywhere i need an associates degree to be the Main Teacher#and most of them the assistant teacher too#this is the only one i found where its not like that and its for the government??!?#idk thats weird to me that the government one would have lower standards#but im really excited and i really hope i can do this#if not i know its an option and i can just wait till they have an opening again
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this is like a REALLY GOOD JOB how is it still available the application closes in 3 days how has it not been filled IM SO EXCITED I REALLY REALLY HOPE I CAN AT LEAST GET A CALL HHHHDHFHJDN

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hhHHHHH since things arent working out with ross i found a job i really really really want and im gonna apply in the morning and hope and pray i get a call back bc i REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT IT

#it to be an assistant preschool teacher at a little daycare owned by the counties parks and rec department#so theres government employee benefits :0#ALSO its monday-thursday 7:45-3:30#THATS 3 DAYS A WEEK OFF AND IM OFF SUPER EARLY YET ITS STILL ALMOST 8 HOURS SO ITS STILL MORE $$$ THAN A REGULAR PART TIME JOB ??!!#also its fucking g over minimum wage SO#and its education requirement is only a high school diploma im screaming
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sooo i gotta decide if i wanna be in a massive amount of debt for 10 years or if i just want to take a year off

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lyall did their paperwork stuff for their new job today and they start monday and have pretty good hours the next two weeks !!! i couldnt go to my little orientation thing today bc i do most of the paperwork online first and she emailed it to me wednesday and i still never got it so i called this morning and she said their system has been glitching so she sent it again and told me to call tomorrow but that was like 8am and i still havent gotten it :/

#she said it could take 24 hours lets hope i get by tomorrow bc the manager is in tomorrow too#so she seemed to imply i could do orientation tomorrow
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sinc im eligible for 0 grants and 0 subsidized student loans i asked my mom to pay for my college just for this year, next year lyall and i will be married so i can qualify as independent and get the full pell grant so i literally just need tuition for one year of community college aand she hasnt answered its been 5 hours since i asked and she has said nothing im hoping shes just at work but !!!! idk

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so pickles is normally pretty good in the kennel bc even not in it all he ever does is sleep but today we had to go out to get me work clothes (blue shirts basically) and that took a while bc im fat and nobody likes to make cheap clothes that fit me as in....we were out for 3 hours and i only got 3 shirts....ANYWAY.... we get back and theres blood on the side of his kennel like quite a bit and it turns out he was chewing on the sides of the kennel and his gums were bleeding and it made me so sad so....hes never going in it with the door closed ever again

#like i went to go check it out on the inside there wasnt much and then i looked at the kennel from the outside and :::((#i mean hes okay we checked his mouth just like where one single tooth met the gums was bleeding and it wasnt enough to drip or anything#but it made me so sad#i feel so bad#im excited to make a nice little space for him (see: post on my main)#we gotta get some plants and things so he'll feel comfortable going to the bathroom out there#we have potty pads and stuff thatll also go out there#but like he only goes on trees and bushes and stuff hes wonderfully housetrained#like too good#idk how to teach him its okay to go on his potty pads inside and stuff
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im REALLY excited to start work but hhhh the manager called earlier to let me know my background check passed and that they were going to send me over a bunch of things to read abt policies and what not and some things to fill in and then friday i would come in for paperwork and whatever BUT i still havent gotten the email she said was sending in the request for me to get it all and she wasnt sure how long it would take but ive literally been refreshing my email like every 5 seconds i just !!!!!!!! wanna do it already !!!!!!!!!!

#im excited to have something to do#i hope retail is better for me than fast food#i really liked the manager and from what i saw the staff was like 100% women and they were all super nice so
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my background check cleared i start my orientation on friday and lyall starts theirs friday too omg !!!!

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lyall has an interview rn in a hawaiian restaurant and theres a couple other ppl here for interviews and lyall is the only one dressed up nice ??? who raised these people

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aaaaannnndddd lyall got hired on the spot

#TYPICAL :D
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okay so you know how i posted how i got kicked off that sittercity website bc they said for the background check my name didnt match my social security number well ???? the ross background chexk company told me the same thing so i have to call them and im just ?????? THE CARD HAS MY NAME PRINTED ON IT I CAN SEE THE NUMBERS MATCH MY NAME

#i really feel like my older sister used my number at one point now everything is jacked up#i swear if i cant get this fixed and i cant get a job because of this bullshit in going to kill myself!!!