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transfems in dresses: πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

transfems in skirts: πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

transfems with makeup: πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“

transfems in suits: πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

transfems without makeup: πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

transfems wearing whatever the hell they want to: πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜

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Marvel directors: Even when actors like Chris Evans do their own stunts, we make sure they’re VERY wired in and rehearse a lot before filming. We also add dangerous weapons in in post so there’s no chance of danger, even with a prop. :)
Good Omens directors: We’re making David Tennant DRIVE A FLAMING CAR and IF HE DIES, HE DIES

If he dies

HE DIES.

WTFΒ 

I SAY WHAT THE FΒ 

WHAT WAS HAPPENING !??!

*ah, i need to elaborate, i’m not stressed over this, i’m .. uhm. shook, more like it, yes, ahhahahΒ 

IS THIS TRUE? OMG !!!

I just remember something, due to this article hereΒ 

The fire at the bookstore was real and the burning books were also real, too ( they collected thrown away books and made them look like antique books)

BONUS:

Hey um wtf

β€œAnd I’m very glad that he survived” WHAT

CGI-for-everything is so common nowadays that everyone forgets there’s still a complete branch of physical FX called β€œpyrotechnics”.

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Shifted

Thomas decides to see what all the Side’s animal forms would be. It does not go so well for Anxiety.Β 

This is set pre accepting anxiety, and diverges a little from the cannon of that episode, fair warning.

He is terrified. His heart is pounding as he pulls further back into the shadows, hiding under the couch. He can hear the others out there, talking, laughing, having fun. This isn’t fun.

β€œAn owl? Really, Thomas, owls aren’t even actually smart, their eyes take up much of their cranial cavity.”

β€œCome on, kiddo, they are symbols of wisdom. And those wings sure must be nifty! I’m having a pawsome time myself!” A groan at the pun.

β€œI always thought Logan was a bit bird brained.” Roman mutters. β€œBut seriously, a dragon? While the scales are quite flattering, it is a bit strange, considering I usually fight them.”

β€œI don’t know, Roman, I guess cause you’re always talking about questing I just settled on a fantasy creature. It is pretty cool.β€œ He rolls his eyes at the huff of pride he can hear as Roman no doubt puffs up his chest, flares his wings.

β€œSpeaking of strange, where’s anxiety?” his ears flatten against his head, pulse picking up again. They’re talking about him. Β 

β€œHe should be here. I did summon him.” Thomas, confused. He curses his inability to sink out in this form.

β€œPerhaps he has taken the form of a smaller animal and is hiding.” He almost hisses, could Logic shut up for once?

β€œAw, maybe we should look for him! He’ll probably be so cute!”

β€œPlease. That weirdo is probably a venomous spider or a little parasite. Who cares, where he is?” yes, thank you Roman, for once being not a moron.

β€œPatton, if you’re worried perhaps you can sniff him out. You are a cat, after all.” No. Nonono. Logic, shut it!

β€œGood idea, Logan. Give it a try!” and he is outta here before he even knows what he’s doing. Β 

His terror skyrockets and he shoots out from under the couch to the startled yelps of everyone else. Everything is big, huge, compared to him, the living room seems endless.

The stairs, he just needs to get to the stairs and he’ll be able to physically enter the mindscape, he’s so close-

Then there is the flap of wings, a victorious shriek, and talons are digging into his shoulders pinning him down.

β€œWell, what have we here?” He shoves aside his fear, proud as his voice comes out just as scathing and steady as ever.

β€œGet off, you overgrown lizard.” He bites out, Roman’s scaled head coming into view. He glares at Roman’s laughter.

β€œAnxiety, kiddo? Is that you?”

β€œNo, its Joan, yes it’s me, Patton, now get off, Roman!” His heart is beating fast, too fast, and his words are wavering. He is afraid, afraid, afraid. He hates this, hates it, he just wants this to be over.

β€œHmm. I don’t think I will. Think about it, Thomas. We have the opportunity here to get anxiety out of our way for good.” His stomach drops, his blood goes cold, he is shaking.

β€œRoman, what are you suggesting?” Logan, he can’t be considering this, please no, please!

β€œI mean, we don’t need to vanquish him. We can keep him like this. Put him in a cage, or something.”

β€œI’m not a pet, you idiot, and you can’t keep me like this forever.” He hisses out.

β€œOh contraire, little mouse, we can keep you weak enough you don’t have any choice.” His heart lurches as he is lifted up, Roman’s wings buffeting him, they are in the air.

β€œRoman, put me down! I… please! Pleasepleaseplease…” he is crying now, begging, because he can’t, this can’t be happening, they can’t actually intend to keep him locked in this form, weak and powerless, in a cage. Β 

The floor seems so far away, and he feels sick, from the altitude shift or what is happening or both, he can’t tell. The anguished terror is filling him and he lets out a broken, choked sob. Β 

This is what he gets, for thinking he could ever be accepted, for thinking he could ever be tolerated, much less liked. All he’d ever done was his job, and this is his reward.

β€œLogan, what-” he lets out a squeak despite himself as a blur of gray rams into Roman, sending him spiraling off balance.

Then he feels the talon’s grip slip, and he screams. He is falling, flipping through the air. From this height in this form his bones will break, shatter, with his luck his neck will snap. He has time to cry for help, before he impacts.

β€œGotcha!” The halt is jarring, and he is shaking, instinctively flattening himself to make as small a target as possible as he tries to get ahold of himself. He realizes it’s soft, the ground.

He looks up and nearly screams again, instead flattening further. Patton has caught him, sitting on his back haunches, he is caught in Patton’s front paws.

β€œp-p-put me d-down. Please.” His voice is a whisper, trembles making him stutter, but Patton instantly complies, much to his relief.

He hears a shriek and looks up, just in time to see silver talons coming right at him, then they crash into him and he feels a ripping pain in his shoulder. Β 

He can hear Patton yelling, Logan screeching, Roman growling, and it is loud so loud and all he can think is he is about to die-

β€œEnough!” Thomas yells, and suddenly the ground isn’t so close, suddenly he is stumbling to his feet, lunging for his normal spot on the stairs, reaching it in two strides. He lets out a relieved sob as he clutches the bannister, looking back at the others.

Logan has landed in a heap on the couch. Patton and Roman are tangled around each other on the floor. Patton’s gaze meets his, worried.

β€œkiddo, you’re bleeding.” He lifts his hand numbly to his shoulder, mildly surprised as it comes away sticky and red. He lets out a broken, bitter laugh.

β€œGee, wonder how that happened. Not like someone was trying to kill me, or worse hold me captive and torture me for my whole existence.β€œ His voice is raw and instead of biting sarcasm, it comes out as an almost whisper, red rimmed eyes glaring at the floor as he shakes, from latent fear and pulsing anger.

β€œAnxiety-” he half successfully chokes back another sob, harsh laughter tearing at his lungs.

β€œno, know what, it’s fine. It’s fine, Thomas. I always knew I wasn’t wanted. I was an idiot to hope you might… might ever actually change, actually want me around. Hell, even care about me like I care about you and keeping you safe.” He can barely stand, he doesn’t know if it’s from the pain and blood loss or the adrenaline fading or the panic attack he can feel pressing against him, tightening his chest.

β€œKiddo…” he shakes his head.

β€œY'know, if you really wanted me dead, all you had to do was ask. I would’ve done it myself.” He doesn’t look up. Doesn’t see the pained shock on Patton’s face, the suspicious surprise on Roman’s, the horror on Logan’s. The pain on Thomas’s. Instead, he flips up his hood, hugging himself as he wordlessly sinks out.

He managed to lock the door before he collapses to the floor. His chest feels like it’s being squeezed by a boa constrictor, his ribs crushed and all the air shoved out of his lungs. His vision narrows to a dark pinprick, gaze unseeing as he sees Roman’s talons again and again, falling and splattering against the floor, bones shattered, bars, a cage, closing in, pressing him tight, he can’t breathe, he’s choking, he’s dying, god, he’s going to die here. Why not? He laughs hysterically, that’s what they want, may as well give it to β€˜em.

β€œvirgil, no. It’s not what we all want. Come back to me, stormy. Focus on my voice. You can do it, Virgil.” Virgil. None of them know his name. Only, only…

β€œDee?” he chokes out, blurry vision focusing enough to see Deceit, holding his hands in his lap, rubbing circles on his knuckles.

β€œThere we are. Hello, dearest.” Deceit reaches up, softly wiping away his tears, brushing back his hair.

β€œI’m an idiot. I’m a stupid idiot.” He mutters.

β€œNo. Virgil, you’re not. It’s ok.” He hisses in a breath of pain as Dee places a hand on his shoulder, vision going speckly at the slight contact. Dee pulls away, eyes wide, face darkening to fury.

β€œYou’re hurt. Vee, you’re bleeding" he just shrugs, another sob clawing its way out of his throat.

β€œDoesn’t matter.” He whispers. Deceit hisses, and pulls him onto his lap.

β€œIt does. Even if they don’t care, even if they don’t love you, I do. It matters to me. You will always matter to me. You’re my baby, Virg. Even if you’ve left the nest, you’re still my little rain storm. Got it?” He feels Dee’s extra arms removing his hoodie, then all six are cradling him against Dee’s chest, holding him tight and safe and secure, letting him relax and melt into the touch, knowing Dee will never let anything hurt him. He feels Dee press a kiss to his head.

β€œyou’ve wiped yourself out, love. I’ll take care of that nasty shoulder gash. Get some sleep, dearest.” Weakly, he clings to Dee’s shirt. He doesn’t want him to let go, he doesn’t feel safe, if Dee lets go.

β€œI’m staying, darling. I’ll stay as long as you want.”

β€œremus-β€œ

β€œcan rain down all the hell he wants. Until you’re better, they deserve it.” He finds he can’t argue with that. He falls asleep to Dee humming softly, stroking his forehead and holding his hand, his other arms working to gently bandage his shoulder.

Deceit sighs as he hears a crash. Looking up, he sees Remus kick in the door, eyes aflame.

β€œwho hurt him? Who’s ass do I gotta beat until it falls off?” Β 

β€œhush. I just got him settled.” Dee replies. In three strides, Remus is beside him, head cocked unnaturally far to the side, like a snapped neck.

β€œHe’s ok?” Remus asks, neck snapping back to a normal position with an audible click.

β€œyes. Keep an eye on him, please?”

β€œWhat? Where’re you going?” Remus asks. Deceit’s eyes flash.

β€œI am going to go see what exactly those half-witted buffoons did to send him spiraling. Then I am going to determine whom it is I need to beat the shit out of.” Deceit growled, stepping away from the bed.

β€œBoo, you never let me have any fun.” Remus pouts. He instantly stops as Virgil lets out a small sound, immediately climbing into the bed with him and spooning around him. Virgil curls against him immediately, stilling as he clings onto Remus.

β€œThank you.” Deceit murmurs from the doorway. Remus nods.

β€œI’ll take care of our little stormy night. You go teach β€˜em a lesson, Dee.” Remus replies, relishing the sharp fanged smile Deceit flashes him, before sinking out. As an afterthought, he snaps, replacing the door, before turning his attention to Virgil, trying to mentally send him all of his love. Virgil is more of a brother to him Β than Roman has ever been, and he hates seeing him hurt.

β€œhang in there, vee. Dee’ll fix everything.”

β€œI highly doubt he wants to be called right now.”

β€œBut he was so scared! We have to help!”

β€œI don’t know Pat, seeing us might make it worse.” He clears his throat. He meets three sets of surprised eyes with steel. Thomas yelps and falls backwards, catching himself on the wall.

β€œWho is that?!” Β 

β€œDeceit, you scurrilous snake, what are you doing here?” his eyes narrow at that.

β€œOh, I’m sorry, Roman, was I not wanted here at this exact moment?” his voice is a perfect mimicry of Virgil’s, and to his satisfaction it makes Roman flinch.

β€œThomas. This is Deceit. He is responsible for the lies you tell not only others, but yourself. I am puzzled as to why you have appeared now. To my knowledge, no lies have been spoken.” Logan explains, and his hands ball into fists.

β€œOh, truly, why ever would I be here? It'ssss not like Anxiety returned bloody and injured, in the midsssst of a panic attack, talking about how nobody wantssss him and it doessssn’t matter. I’m sure that hassss nothing to do with it, Logic.” He hisses out, spitting Logan’s title like it burns his tongue.

He can see Patton’s guilty face out of the corner of his eye, knows whatever happened, it wasn’t him. But Roman… yes.

β€œSo Thomas, dear, care to explain what happened?” He asks, sickly sweet, turning his gaze to Thomas, who has a slight frown on his face. As an afterthought, he notes that Thomas isn’t afraid of him, despite his scales and sharp fangs. Interesting.

β€œI thought it would be cool to see what everyone’s animal forms would be. Logan was an owl, Pat was a persian cat, and Roman was a dragon. But we didn’t see anxiety anywhere so we thought he was small and hiding and maybe too scared to move. Pat was gonna find him, then a mouse shot out from under the couch and Roman…” Thomas trails off, eyes shifting away, but it’s enough to confirm his suspicions.

β€œRoman. Care to continue?” Roman meets his ice cold gaze imperiously. Β 

β€œgladly. I captured the fiend in my claws. Hurting him was an accident. I merely meant to catch him while he was small and couldn’t hurt us and contain him. Keep him small, so he’d stop bothering Thomas. It’s not like we need him, anyways.” Roman scoffs.

Rage is filling him. Because Roman truly thinks he is in the right, truly thinks he didn’t do anything wrong, and his voice is proud as he speaks about traumatizing Virgil, who is the youngest, the smallest, the most vulnerable to start with. How dare he?

Before he can think, he has crossed the room, he rears his hand back and slaps Roman hard enough to send him reeling backwards.

β€œYou are a heartless, soulless bastard. I told him not to come, I told him he’d get hurt but he didn’t listen. You know why? It’s certainly not because he wants to be included, he doesn’t yearn for your acceptance, it doesn’t break him a little more each time you all dismiss and send him away unwanted. He definitely doesn’t just want to be liked! He never has a hard enough time just being himself, being afraid, all the fucking time, and you have certainly helped make him feel right at home.” He hisses, ignoring the tears stinging at his eyes as he whips around, facing the rest of them.

β€œAnd you’re no better. How do you think it feels, knowing the person who conjured you doesn’t even want you? How terrified would you be, surrounded by people who have never showed you kindness, who have admitted their distaste, small and defenseless, being threatened to be put in a cage? His worst fear is something happening to Thomas and being unable to reach him, to react and help. It’s his job to protect Thomas, and you were threatening to keep him away, to put Thomas’s own safety at risk for your own stupid biases! You were threatening to make his nightmare real, and not a single fucking one of you said otherwise, did you?!” He yells, slowly looking at each of them in turn. No one will meet his eyes now, not even Roman.

β€œyou don’t deserve him. You don’t deserve his name. No wonder he hasn’t told you. You’re a bunch of ignorant bullies. And you’d say I’m the bad guy. You all picked out the most vulnerable and pounced.” He shifts his head, turning to Thomas, a curling, empty smile on his face.

β€œIt was a fucking pleasure, Thomas. I’ll be taking my leave.” The lie is bitter and acrid on his tongue, tasting of ash as he sinks out.

He returns to Virgil’s room, immediately hurrying to his bedside, because he is crying, despite Remus’s attempts to soothe him.

β€œVee, what’s wrong?” he asks. Virgil glares at him through his tears.

β€œyou said you were gonna stay!” he lets out a soft breath, sitting on the edge of the bed.

β€œI know. I just had to check on something. But you know Remus would never let anything hurt you, right?” Virgil nods, leaning back into Remus’s arms.

β€œThat’s right, starshine. You’re safe.” Remus whispers, rocking Virgil gently, who responds by pressing his face into Remus’s chest.

β€œYou’re staying now, right?” Virgil mumbles. He smiles, slipping under the covers.

β€œI am. No lies this time.” He murmurs as Virgil lays down, curling into him. He reaches out with all six arms, pulling Remus closer, hugging both of them and sandwiching Virgil in warmth and safety.

β€œWhat was it?” Remus asks lowly, once Virgil is out again. He sighs.

β€œShapeshifting, animal forms. He was a mouse. Roman was a dragon. Threatened to keep him locked up. It got physical.”

β€œYou mean Roman was a bitch and attacked Virgil unprovoked.” Remus’s voice is flat, and he shoots him a soft look, one of his hands slipping into Remus’s.

β€œI’m going to kill him.” He squeezes Remus’s hand.

β€œLater. We can work on murder plans later. Right now Vee needs us.”

β€œAnxiety, it’s dinner time!” Patton’s voice trills. He opens his eyes with a groan, freezing instantly.

This… isn’t his room. It isn’t even the commons. He’s laying in soft bedding. He realizes he’s in a little plastic hut. His heart speeds. He looks down at himself, human, good.

He flinches as the house is lifted up, leaving him exposed. His breath catches in his lungs, Patton is looming over him, he is giant. He skitters back, realizing his back is pressing against metal wire. Cage, he is in a cage, he is tiny, in a cage.

He scrambles, trying to claw his way out, trying to bend the wire enough to wriggle out.

β€œhey, now. None of that kiddo.” His stomach flips as hands squeaze around his waist and he is lifted into the air. He is barely as tall as Patton’s ring finger, he is so high in the air as Patton places him down on his palm.

β€œpatton please, please, just let me go, please!” he begs, feeling tears slipping down his face.

β€œAw, I know kiddo. But this is better for everyone. This way you’re still around but don’t bother Thomas.” He stumbles as Patton places him back in the cage, doubling over and choking on sobs as a small food dish is placed inside, the shadows of bars shading his face.

He is still begging, pleading, screaming, for Patton, for anyone, to let him out, let him go, but he knows no one is coming, and the bars are pressing in, and soon there won’t be any more space, any more air. Β 

β€œhush, stormy, shhh. It’s ok. It’s ok, lovely.” His eyes fly open, and he clings to Dee, feeling all of his arms cradling him tight as he sniffles into his shoulder, sobs shaking his thin frame.

β€œJust a dream, Vee.” He feels Remus’s hand on his, feels the terror and residual fear draining out of him as the nightmare is removed from his mind. The pros of dark creativity. Remus can steal other people’s bad thoughts, bad dreams, but then he experiences whatever the thoughts were. He hears Remus’s sharp inhale as he sees it, feels his hand tighten it’s grip.

β€œthanks ree.” He manages, his voice hoarse and sore.

β€œVirgil, love, we should talk about it. I only got minor details from them.”

β€œwhat’s to say? They were going to keep me in a cage, they d-didn’t want me.” Dee draws back a tad, looking down at Virgil’s face, eyes hidden behind his bangs.

β€œdid anyone help? Surely not all of them went along with this.” He shrugs, taking a deep breath.

β€œR-roman g-g-rabbed me in his talons and st-started flying. But he yelled… I think L-Logan tried to stop him. He was an o-o-owl. I think he rammed Roman and made him drop me. P-p-patton c-caught me. And… and he put me down, right away, when I asked. I… I don’t think they woulda let Roman k-keep me.” He mumbles out, shaking. Dee feels his heart breaking, can feel the murder on Remus’s face.

β€œThat’s good, Virge. They were trying to defend you.” Virgil shakes his head.

β€œbut they didn’t. Only p-patton even cared I was h-hurt. Thomas… Thomas didn’t say a-anything.”

β€œbut he changed you back.” His brow creases as he looks out from Dee’s arms at Remus’s words. β€œif he agrees with Roman, he wouldn’t have changed you back.” Β 

β€œHe’s right, lovely. Thomas doesn’t hate you. I know that. That is fact.” He sighs.

β€œDoesn’t feel like it right now.” He mumbles.

β€œI know. And that’s ok, Virge.” Dee kisses his head softly. He startles at a knock on the door. Β 

β€œRemus, see who it is?”

β€œIf it’s princey stab him for me.” Virgil mumbles, making Remus chuckle and ruffle his hair.

β€œGladly, stormy.” Β 

He throws open the door, leaning in the doorway with a cocky grin, teeth sharp and eyes glinting.

β€œWell, well, hello there Daddy. Have I been naughty?” he teases, moving to block Patton’s view of the room.

β€œRemus… what… what are you doing here?” Patton asks nervously. Β 

β€œApparently playing the butler. Y'know, Patton, in the movies the butler is always guilty of murder.” He tilts his head slowly, relishing the fear that races across Patton’s face. β€œNow, what are you doing here, daddio?” Patton fiddles with his sweater sleeves, a frown settling on his face.

β€œI just… I know he probably doesn’t want to see us right now, heck, maybe ever, and I don’t fault him for it. Today… today was bad. Really, really bad. I just want to make sure he’s ok. And apologize. We… we chewed out Roman. His actions were unacceptable. Just… I would never let that happen. He’s not… he’s a person, and I don’t always agree with him, but that doesn’t give anyone the right to take away his voice or opinion. Can you just… pass that on, for me? Please?” Β 

Remus looks back at the bed, softening as he sees Virgil uncurling from Dee, sitting with his knees pulled to his chest, leaning against Dee, who has an arm around his shoulders. Virgil looks up at Dee, a silent question. Β 

β€œNo lies.” Dee murmurs, and Virgil bites his lip. β€œYou wanna let him in?” He asks softly. Virgil hesitates, but nods. Β 

β€œIf he means it… yeah.” Virgil mumbles. Β 

β€œHe does. Remus, stop playing. V- Anxiety says he can come in.” He calls, catching himself before using Virgil’s actual name. Remus sighs, but steps aside. Β 

β€œWell? Come in then.” Β 

Hesitantly, Patton steps inside the dark room, taking in the soft, dark carpet, the dark to light purple gradient painted on the walls. There are also posters for bands carefully hung in frames, and a few posters for movies that Anxiety must like. He sees fairy lights strung across the ceiling that sparkle like stars without the main lights turned on. Β 

He lets out a soft noise of hurt as he takes in Anxiety, knees pulled to his chest, his shoulders hunched. His eyeshadow is smeared all over his face, his eyes red and puffy. He glances at Deceit, not as surprised to see him here, tilting his head. Deceit nods minutely, and he sits down next to Anxiety, legs dangling over the edge of the bed, careful not to touch him, to give him space. Β 

β€œhey kiddo. How’s your shoulder?” He asks. Β 

β€œbetter. Dee helped. It still… still hurts.” His voice is quiet and unsure and hoarse. Β 

β€œYeah. I think it would be pretty strange if it didn’t. I’m glad you’re going to be ok, though. Even if it hurts now, it’ll feel better eventually.” Β 

β€œwill it?” He is surprised as Patton pulls him into a hug, startled, but after a moment he leans into it, tucking his chin against Patton’s shoulder. Β 

β€œI have never wanted you to die. I have never wanted you to leave. You’re one of my kiddos, kiddo, and that means I stand up for you when something hurts you, no matter who or what it is.”

β€œi’m scared. I hate… I hate being small… I hate… it’s so big, everything… I could drown, in a puddle, I could be crushed by a book, I could be stepped on, I could be crushed, I could get hurt and no one would know, no one would realize or find me. I could be caged…” He chokes out, fear flooding through him again. β€œI could be caged and my influence squashed, and then no one would protect Thomas, look out for dangers, keep him… keep him on task, keep him motivated to d-do better. I c-can’t… trapped, and b-bars and it-it’s too much… too small…” He is shaking again, on the edge of hysteria, but Patton is rocking him, holding him. Β 

β€œOh honey… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. We didn’t know you were gonna be that little. I’m sorry we didn’t ask permission first, we weren’t thinking. I promise, promise,” he pulled back so Anxiety could see his eyes, tears spilling down his own cheeks, β€œthat I will physically fight anyone who suggests we do that again, who even dares to mention putting you in a cage. I nearly did fight Roman, Logan had to hold me back.” That gets a weak laugh out of Anxiety, imagining Logan holding back a kicking and spitting furious Patton. β€œI love you, kiddo. I really, really do, and if anyone has a problem with that, has a problem with you, they’ll have to go through me first.” Patton’s voice is fierce, and he doesn’t have to look at Dee to know that he isn’t lying. Β 

β€œT-thomas-” Β 

β€œIs worried about you, kiddo. I came to check on you cause he wanted to make sure you were gonna be ok. What you said… really, really scared us, but we didn’t wanna summon you, because we knew you probably didn’t want to be summoned. He’s sorry, too. We all are.” Β 

β€œEven Roman?” He asks, bitterness in his voice. Patton hesitates, sighing. Β 

β€œI don’t know. I think… I think he’s sorry he got yelled at, sorry he got in trouble, sorry we didn’t agree with him. But I don’t think he’s sorry for what he actually did to you, said to you. Which makes me angry, because he should be sorry, but he isn’t, and if he isn’t, I can’t change that. What I can do is make sure you are going to be alright. I can learn what else we shouldn’t do without asking your permission. I can be better at speaking up when Roman threatens or takes jabs at you, and eventually, hopefully, his attitude will change as he learns none of us are going to enable him anymore. I’m sorry it went this far.” He blinks, surprised. He didn’t expect Patton to acknowledge Roman’s inability to see his own wrongdoings. He didn’t expect Patton to admit to his own shortcomings. He didn’t expect Patton to be… honest. Β 

β€œWhat would you like us to do for now, Anxiety? Clearly, you have two people who love you very much helping your right now, so I feel ok leaving, if you like. I just didn’t want you to be alone, when you were so upset. Thomas… all of us, want to speak with you about what happened, to try and make ammends, but we’ll do that on your terms, so there’s no rush. Just, whenever you’re ready to talk, we’re ready to listen. Β If you like, I can bring you meals, if you don’t wanna leave your room for a while. I wanna keep you healthy, and I know if I leave you to your own devices it’ll be chips and soda for every meal.” He lets out a little snort at that, because Patton is right, of course, and he’s already calmed down so much because Patton is being so nice, and he knows Dee would have told him if Patton had lied. Β 

β€œthat all sounds good, yeah.” He mumbles, shifting out of Patton’s hug, pulling his knees to his chest once again. Β 

β€œok. Is there anything else you need, or would like me to do?” He bites his lip, thinking. Β 

β€œJust… just let them know I’m ok? If they’re really that worried about me.” Patton squeezes his non injured shoulder once as he stands, smiling gently. Β 

β€œWill do, kiddo. If you ever need anything, or just want some company, don’t be afraid to call me up.” Β 

β€œI… might.” Patton smiles again, soft and warm. Β 

β€œI love you, Anxiety.” Patton turns away, but before he sinks out, Virgil steels his courage. Β 

β€œVirgil!” He shouts, and the room seems to freeze. Remus is staring at him in wide eyed surprise. Deceit has stopped rubbing his back, and Patton falters mid step, before turning to face him, something akin to awe on his face. β€œThat’s… my name. My name is Virgil.” A huge smile blooms across Patton’s face, his eyes light up with tender joy, and he sniffles, wiping away tears. Β 

β€œVirgil. I think that’s a lovely name, Virgil. I know I’m usually a blabber mouth, but it when it counts, I can keep a secret.” Patton winks, sending a smile flashing across his own face as warmth blooms in his chest. With a wave, Patton sinks out, and he collapses back against Deceit with a long, low sigh. Β 

β€œYou sure about that, Virg?” Remus asks, from where he’s leaning against the wall, having simply observed everything. Β 

β€œyeah. Yeah I… think I am.” He feels Dee press another soft kiss to the top of his head. Β 

β€œProud of you, lovely.” He smiles, closing his eyes as he feels Remus settle on the other side of him. He is still scared and afraid and knows the nightmares won’t leave him alone for ages, now. But he also knows that at least Patton is on his side. And Patton is almost more of a mama bear than Deceit. If the two of them are looking out for him, he knows nothing will hurt him like this ever again.

colour-code your infants so strangers know what their genitals look like

this is THE WORST idea anyone has ever had on this site. ever.

yeah you’re right……haha……..imagine some sort of dystopia where newborns were dressed in certain colours according to their genitals……….jeez……..how fucked up would that be……..how could I have ever come up with something so silly

put three names & a number in my ask

some fmk alternatives

  1. stab, shoot or drown
  2. fist fight, get drunk with, share a flat with
  3. fight aliens with, fight zombies with, fight capitalism with
  4. write a book with, read a book to, hit with a book
  5. go on a six hour road trip with (no car radio, you choose who drives), sit next to on a six hour plane flight, sit across from on a six hour train journey
  6. go clothes shopping with, go to ikea with, go grocery shopping with
  7. go to a wedding with, go to a party with, go to a museum with
  8. share a car with, share a bank account with, share a cake with
  9. watch a soap opera with, go to a play with, watch your favourite movie with
  10. netflix and chill with, go ice-skating with, play dodgeball against

[Trans ask game! What has been your gender journey?]

Feel free to reblog, all trans people are included, binary or non-binary! Send a few numbers to someone’s ask box!Β 

  1. How did you choose your name?
  2. What gives you the most dysphoria? (Acknowledging that not all trans people experience dysphoria)
  3. Do you have more physical dysphoria or more social dysphoria?
  4. What do you do to perform self-care when you’re feeling dysphoric?
  5. What was the first time you suspected you were transgender?
  6. When did you realize you were transgender?
  7. What is your favorite part of being transgender?
  8. How would you explain your gender identity to others?
  9. How did you come out? If you didn’t come out, why do you stay in the closet? Or what happened when you were outed?
  10. What have your experiences with packing or tucking?
  11. What are your experiences with binding or wearing breast forms?
  12. Do you pass?
  13. What (if any) steps do you want to take to medically transition?
  14. How long have you been out?
  15. What labels have you used before you’ve settled on your current set?
  16. Have you ever experienced transphobia?
  17. What do you do when you have to go to the bathroom in public?
  18. How does your family feel about your trans identity?
  19. Would you ever go stealth, and if you are stealth, why do you choose to be stealth?
  20. What do you wish you could have shared with your younger self about being trans?
  21. Why do you use the pronouns you use?
  22. Do your neurodivergencies and/or disabilities affect your gender?
  23. What’s your biggest trans-related fear?
  24. What medical, social, or personal steps have you already taken to start your transition?
  25. What do you wish cis people understood?
  26. What impact has being trans had on your life?
  27. What do you do to validate yourself?
  28. How do you feel about trans representation in media?
  29. Who is your favorite trans celebrity?
  30. Who is the transgender person who has influenced you the most?
  31. How are you involved with the trans community, IRL or online?
  32. How do you see yourself identifying and presenting in 5 years?
  33. What trans issue are you most passionate about?
  34. What advice would you give to other trans people, or what message would you like to share with them?
  35. How do you feel your gender interacts with your race, disability, class, weight, etc. from the perspective of intersectionality?
  36. What, if any, is the difference between your gender identity and your gender expression?
  37. Do you feel more masculine, feminine, or neither?
  38. What is your sexual and romantic orientation, and what are your thoughts on it?
  39. Is your ideal partner also trans, or do you not have a preference?
  40. How did/do you manage waiting to transition?
  41. What is the place (blog, website, forum, IRL space) you get most of your info on being trans or on trans related things?
  42. Do you interact with other trans people IRL?
  43. Are you involved in any trans-related activism?
  44. Free space! Answer any question you want, or make up your own question to answer.

tw// explosion

Hello, hope all of you are safe and doing well.

You may have heard of what happened in Lebanon today and if not, basically, there was a big explosion in Beirut that affected many cities, destroyed shops, homes, cars, caused many injuries and deaths. The cause is uncertain.

As a fellow lebanese myself (that also lives there), today was absolutely terrifying, probably the scariest moments of my life. We heard a deafening sound as the floors were shaking. Some of us thought it was an attack, others thought it was an earthquake. As soon as it ended many expected a second one, which luckily never happened.

Here's a video of what happened that was sent to me, there are also many others that you can find online.

Windows were broken, doors wrecked, cars flipped over, buildings collapsed, people hit by flying or falling objects, and unfortunately, many didn't make it out alive.

We were one of the lucky ones, our families and friends were all safe and our homes were fine.

Some people couldn't even get out of the crumbling builings, so we saw corpses being pulled out, although some people survived the crash. But wherever we looked, there was blood, poeple were half covered in it, their shirts, pants, hair, everything. And that sight was traumatizing.

We watched the news with elders severely injured, children with blood-spattered shirts and people in pain that couldn't get in the hospitals because they were full.

Some people are missing. Just try to imagine the pain and fear their families and friends are feeling.

Articles about what happened, there are a lot more

Not only are we in the middle of a pandemic, but Lebanon is also going through a very serious economical crisis. To give you an example, before, $1 equaled 1 500 lebanese pounds. Nowadays, $1 equals more than 7 000 lebanese pounds. Not to mention that we obviously don't have any dollars at disposition, so yeah we're fucked.

People are hungry, homeless, unemployed. And even if they are getting paid, it'll be useless since the prices of everything went up because they were affected by the economical fiasco.

Important additional information

Today, I heard my 7 year old cousins scream in fear that they were going to die. I saw my aunt shaking, worried that her children won't survive. I saw my dad freak out while trying to reassure us when we both knew that we were uncertain about the next minutes of our lives. I heard the panic in the trembling voices of my family and friends as they couldn't believe what had just happened. I thought my loved ones and I were going to die in the next seconds.

I'm never forgetting those moments and feelings.

I don't think signing petitions will help, i don't even know if the following links will help either, I just know Lebanon and it's people are desperate for anything because the future of this country is extremely uncertain.

https://helplebanonnow.carrd.co/

https://lebanoncrisis.carrd.co/

https://www.gofundme.com/f/lebanonneedsorg?utm_source=customer&utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link

https://helplebanon.carrd.co/

http://redcross.org.lb/SubPage.aspx?pageid=1370&PID=158

http://www.caritas.org.lb/get_involved/donate

https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/lebanon-relief?utm_term=PYp7gXzyD

I think donating to the red cross would be the most helpful, so if you are considering it, it'd be great.

There are so many great threads on twitter about what you can do to help, just search help lebanon or something to find them. Also if you can, please donate, and as I said, the lebanese pound is pretty much worthless currently so USD is way more useful to us.

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