Bro. Full send.
Death is easier.
I don't even actually know why I bother. I'm never going to be enough. I'm never going to be the first or last I'm going to be the during. I'm never going to be someone's favorite part of the day. I'm never going to feel true love. I always give. I've given all of the love I possibly could. I've given everyone the things I wish I could get. I've given everyone hope and a shoulder to cry on and a safe place to rest when they're too emotionally or physically or mentally exhausted to do anything else. I'm always the helper and never the helped. Why can no one seem to have the energy to help me when even at my lowest I help them?
Ruby such a Misfit
Hollywood Babylon can't resist it
Fuck a cop bitch
I'm ducking all these piglets
7th Ward be my motherfucking district
Yeah, I still got my motherfucking wrist slit
Bleeding like a pissed bitch
Scheming I'ma hit licks after licking hits of acid in her fucking split lips
Wig split just a fucking tidbit
Dick itch from ingesting pill bits
Blue bill sick of snorting powder
I'ma ditch this hunnid for five twentys
TSA keep testing my money
Now I'ma dip quick
Find me a thick bitch
Tit gripped
Tip gripped
Dick spit in her thick hips
Fuck
Fuck with me, bitch, I'm a-fucking-ddicted
And I don't really give a fuck what it is
Told you already that Ruby can't resist it
Big clip to my head, watch that shit drip
Lil' shawty wanna marry me, I said, "You're better off in debt!"
If it didn't work out baby, I'll be real hard to forget
German whips and private jets, private beaches to access
Fuck on me baby, I'm still a mess and no that ain't a threat
I ride for my family, that's Grey 59
Try and be all I can be, and I waste my time
On the brink of insanity, I can't make up my mind
Yeah, I battle my vanity and I think I'm blind
I love the idea of right person wrong time. I love the idea of accidentally running into that person and reconnecting on an entirely new level. I love the idea of two people healing and being the best version of themselves when they try again. And it's so soul crushing and gut wrenching when there's an unexpected bump in the road that inevitably leads to nowhere. Right person, wrong time is something only seen in books. Usually it leads to nowhere in the real world. And that's the saddest thing to me.
sorry for documenting my suffering and delusions online do you still think im hot
well?
“You are not in love with me, not really, you just love the way I always made you feel. Like you were the center of my world. Because you were. I would have done anything for you.”
— Abby McDonald
You’re the one that got away. And I’m just the girl you chose to let go.
— r.r.
I never gave up on you even when you gave up on me.
— r.r.
Remember that.
“It’s never too late to start over again and to be happy.”
— Anurag Prakash Ray
Lowkey miss the way Starbucks dates felt and the way listening to your rambles felt. Now everything is a blur of despare.
I hope you're happy.