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2ndsong
so it’s been 2 years. since our first kiss. since we met outside in the middle of the night. and I first felt your arms around me. it’s been 2 years. since you really fell for me. the moment that would change everything that year. the moment that I would be stripped of my innocence. the time I would never forget. because you were my first love. the first one I really fell for. the first one that broke my heart. it’s been 2 years. since our hearts intertwined with one another. since I fought for you. since my heart broke. since I learned what love really is.

it’s been 2 years (via 2ndsong)

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I just want you to know the exact affect you leaving has had on me because I don’t think you realising how badly your absence has fucked me up, so let me paint a picture for you. It’s 3 am in the morning while you’re sleeping peacefully with her by your side, I’m shaking reaching out trying to remember how it felt to hold you, my nights are sleepless and my thoughts are full of you. It’s 12 in the afternoon I’m at school, I should be learning but your face distracts me and the memories come flooding to me it’s impossible to think straight. I can’t remember the last time I had a shower without breaking down. As I sit back and watch you love her my days feel more like years and breathing becomes a struggle, When something goes wrong my natural instinct is to go and talk to you and you will tell me it’s going to be all right and wipe my tears away, because that’s what you did for many years, but now that I have lost ‘my person’ it feels like all I have is myself. When something good happens I just want to jump up and down and share my excitement with you, but I can’t, you’re no longer here to share it with. I look for your face in the busy streets, I break down when I smell the same cologne you used to where. The places we went I can no longer bear to go to, the songs we listened to are now no longer my favourites. But with all this pain in my chest I do still wish you the best, but I just want you to know life without you feels like no life at all.

B.L letters I never sent (via im-sad-lets-have-sex)

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11anothergirl11
I can’t wait for the day when the thought of what we could have been no longer hurts. The day where I don’t compare every guy I meet to you, or my heart doesn’t feel like there’s millions of peaces missing. The day where my happiness no longer depends on you. I can’t wait for the day where I can say I am know longer in love with you and mean it.

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At the end of the day you broke my heart, stripped me of who I was which then made me who I am today, a better improved version of myself, you prepared me for the next who actually deserves me, so thank you.

B.L letters I never sent (via bl-letters-i-never-sent)

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I’ve realized that the reason I couldn’t let go of him was not because I was in love with him, it was because he’d convinced me that he was the best I would ever have. That he’d be the only person that would adore me in such a sense that I’d feel the fire burning in the pit of my stomach everywhere, including my fingertips. I became a prisioner of this vicious cycle of highs and lows, and I completely lost my identity. It was like we’d become one person, but more like him than me. It was like my heart nor my lungs no longer belonged to me, and this shows that he was never really in love with me, because you don’t consume the person you love. You help them grow.

I should have left the first time (via missinyouiskillingme)

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radicalbooty

Since I turn 18 in exactly 1 month, I must cherish my time as the dancing queen, young and sweet, only 17.

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wnq-writers
I’m not good. The last year was indescribably terrible. And the year before that was even worse. I’ve reached a point in my life where I just want to disappear into nothingness. I want to be nothing.

dewdropheart  (via wnq-writers)

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blossomfully
“I hope we last. I hope we do. But if we don’t, this is how I want you to remember me: I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you. Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too. If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending. Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #132 (via blossomfully)