Scars

In your darkest moments the universe will tell you who you are Just be vulnerable Your life will be transformed by all of your scars

Just wait

It’s like your soul dies You won’t feel the need to cry at night Just lay there And count the stars shining through the skylight I know you think it could all be different I know you think that you’ve been gypped somehow Your perspective could change if you’d just listen You’re here because the universe has you somehow So wait patiently It’ll all workout clearly If you just wait patiently I miss you How your soul shined so bright I hope you somehow find your light Because you used to be So happy It was plain to see They scoffed with jealousy

Growth

No one’s gonna fill your voids for you You have to heal and cope That’s just the way it goes And honey No one’s gonna tell you what to do No one‘s gonna fill your voids for you Everyday I’m attaining new growth I let the water in until my roots are soaked And you know I could mourn my dead leaves but I won’t Cos everyday I’m attaining new growth

Hurricane of Shame

I want to be your sweet summer thing Too bad I’m not as thin as summer of ‘17 My hair’s not as long as it used to be Are you still looking for me? Thought I would sustain it all But that was just a dream not a willcall Can’t wait to be who I should’ve been Was too scared of bringing shame on them I hate letting them down, you know? Feels like I’m relinquishing my crown and throne? No longer their golden boy/ray of hope Just a “boy” in some girly clothes Am I ready for that long path? Was I built to last? Will I look back on the past And wish I’d never ever looked back? Hope I don’t bring a hurricane of shame

Right head, wrong body

‪Sometimes I wish I could erase myself from people’s memories ‬ ‪I wish I could just erase myself from people’s memories ‬ ‪I wish I could just erase myself from people’s memories‬ ‪I don’t feel like me‬ ‪I don’t feel like me here‬ ‪Feels like a set up but‬ ‪The reason is so unclear‬ ‪Was born with the capability ‬ ‪But with the wrong physicality ‬ ‪So I don’t feel like me ‬ ‪I don’t feel like me‬

Today I told myself that I am perfectly imperfect And that me cry a little, because I don’t think I’ve been that kind to myself in a while

Laying next to you makes me forget to say my prayers

Satisfying Sadness

This is different This is a satisfying sadness Don’t mistake it for bliss This is a form of madness This is desperation in the guise of indifference This is a feeling of inadequacy disguised as confidence But when you fall from this high You feel like you’re drowning The world is ending and so am I There aren’t any sirens sounding You’re just there taking the blows Feeling hopeless, like no one knows Defeated and depressed You’ll be a mess It’s ok cos it’s not your best This was just a satisfying sadness

Afternoon thoughts

Kind of sad to think that we’re all just collateral until humanity has reached the height of evolution.

Good Lighting

Will you still love me if I’m not a big deal? You’re so cute and quirky, and it’s so unreal Can I be your secret? I’m ok with hiding Love as pure as ours doesn’t need good lighting, no

Hmmm

Sometimes I wonder where I would be rn if I were born a girl. Even though I’m grateful for the setbacks, I somehow still feel like I’d be a successful singer, or model traveling the world, or idk. But I guess that’s not my journey...yet

Beach House Dreams

White walls and wooden floors Back porch on the sandy shore Fire pit surrounded by friends Just singing songs and laughing with them I’m so happy and you’re so happy Contentment in your smile Everyone’s gone home And we’re all alone Why don’t we cuddle while it rains outside? And maybe we’ll lay here the whole night

Guys Like Aidan

The slow rise and fall of his chest

The flush of his cheeks

His body sunken into the white billowy comforter that lays on my bed

His beauty was a reflection of the sweetness of his soul

I didn’t want him to go