Still Struggling

yall guessed the punchline already from the preview but here’s my entire homestuck femslash zine comic!

its done.

Dave: (hacker voice) im in

Dave: no wait

Dave: iim iin

Caliborn: I HAVE COME TO MAKE AN ANNOuNCEMENT.

Caliborn: DIRK STRIDER IS A BITCH ASS MOTHER FuCKER.

Caliborn: HE PISSED ON MY FuCKING WAIFu.

Caliborn: THAT’S RIGHT. HE TOOK HIS HuMAN FuCKING SKINNY DICK OuT. AND HE PISSED ON MY FuCKING WAIFu. AND HE SAID HIS DICK WAS THIS BIG. AND I SAID “THAT IS DISGuSTING”.

Caliborn: SO I AM MAKING A CALLOuT POST ON MY DEVIANTART DOT COM. DIRK STRIDER. YOu GOT A SMALL DICK. IT’S THE SIZE OF THIS CHESS PIECE EXCEPT WAY SMALLER.

Caliborn: AND GuESS WHAT?

Caliborn: THIS IS WHAT MY DONG LOOKS LIKE.

Caliborn: BOOM.

Caliborn: THAT’S RIGHT BABY. ALL POINTS. NO SKIN. NO PILLOWS. LOOK AT THAT. IT LOOKS LIKE TWO BALLS AND A BONG.

Caliborn: HE FuCKED MY WAIFu. SO GuESS WHAT? I’M GOING TO FuCK THE EARTH. THAT’S RIGHT. THIS IS WHAT YOu GET. MY SuPER RED MILES PISS.

Caliborn: EXCEPT I’M NOT PISSING ON THE EARTH. I’M GOING TO GO HIGHER.

Caliborn: I’M PISSING ON THE PLOT.

Caliborn: HOW DO YOu LIKE THAT HuSSIE? I PISSED ON THE PLOT, YOu IDIOT.

Caliborn: YOu HAVE TWENTY THREE HOuRS BEFORE THE RED MILES HIT THE FuCKING EARTH.

Caliborn: NOW GET OuT OF MY FuCKING SIGHT. BEFORE I PISS ON YOu TOO.

I love that davepeta is androgynous not in Vaguely Masc™ sense, but in the sense that their gender presentation is Confusion

(x)

lily your MIND

I’M SORRY BUT JSJWHAGSJ

idk if this headcanon has been outright said yet (given all the fanart ive seen someone has prbly said it) but karkat will wrap himself in dave's god tier cape whenever he feels the slightest bit threatened or scared. due to his past trauma with the imperial drones on alternia (where he would cover himself in the thermal blanket), wrapping himself in any cloth helps him to calm down and feel safer.

not to be starting homestuck race disk horse in 2019 but yknow what? I Will.

being an asian fan in the hs fandom is kinda, not great actually. in fact, it not only feels like we’re not here at all, that we’re erased, but its honestly? downright harmful. people treat the trivialization and fetishization of your culture to be,,, like a Big Joak. yall joke about weebs like these people havent been literally grooming and abusing asian girls, like we havent been made fun of enough for Their actions, like we aren’t already viewed as the strange punchlines to jokes that still seem somehow acceptable. its somehow funny to joke about how you hate every sign of asian culture that shows up throughout the comics, like how dirk’s kotatsu was dumb and pretentious as if people in japan dont literally live with one and use it every single day!

even asian-coding in characters get swept away in favour of other headcanons. even the megidos, who are as close to canonically asian as they possibly can be in a medium like homestuck, are often drawn white or something completely different altogether. the stridlondes are also heavily asian-coded, and the fans who do pick up on that, who finally feel comforted by someone like them as protagonists? they often just.. give up on that, because they see so little representation in the fandom. (theres only like one popular artist i know of that draws the strilondes asian? but like, hats off to u pal, youre fighting the good fight). also, it seems strange, to be represented so little considering almost 3 billion people on earth is asian, which is, Quite A Lot to be not represented a lot. dont get me wrong, i adore the outpouring of more diverse art of the kids, but a hard truth to swallow is that pocs being weebs/fetishizing asian culture, is just as harmful as white people doing the same. there is a world of difference between japanese dirk, trying to interface with his lost culture by clinging to the most performative and popular parts of it, than another dirk, appropriating people’s cultures because he thinks its funny or interesting based off a show he watched once. i love how people are like “wow the striders like anime and care about traditions and use japanese words and overall just seem like diaspora kids” and the conclusion they draw from that is “clearly,, they cannot be asian” bc a non-asian person being interested in those things is better than an asian person whose interested in their own culture i guess??

in fact, a lot of these narratives are so much more interesting once theyre looked at through their coded lenses!

Dave’s struggle with coming to terms with his emotions strikes such an interesting chord when the striders’ concept of irony and never showing their emotions Correspond so well to the idea of honour/face, where youre not supposed to show that youre Ever Sad or anything that isnt a positive emotion because it shows that youre a Failure and You Failed and that makes you a Bad Person, which is exactly what dave struggles with because hes So Guilty about it, which ties to the guilt and shame a lot of asian people feel about not being able to live up to impossible standards set by their parents, which is another theme we see reflected in all four strilondes. 

rose’s strained relations with her mother are mirrored in so many of our second-generation lives and makes so much more cultural sense when looked at that way. the weird distance you hold from your parents, where you cant look each other in the eyes anymore, because every interaction feels more like a business transaction. you hand in your good grades and praise from teachers, talking about how mature you are, and they return with some present or gift that you don’t really want. you dont know anything about them, and they dont know anything about you, Not the person you Actually Are, anyways. but there is a yearning, to be close, to know eachother, but you only feel it in return when its too late. as well as her Obsession to be mature, to be smart and adult-like because thats what shes praised for, because you Need to be academically the best always and that means reading dictionaries until the sun goes down, repeating each word until they are engraved into your mind. always finding competition, subtle or not, because if you are not the winner, what are you?  dirk’s wild performative love of japanese culture (which also, in turn, lead to non-asian fans literally trashing it like it was a funny joke to call someone’s culture lame and stupid) seems like ‘ironic’ weebism, but its also being Exactly the type of over-the-too performative reclaiming of our culture that so many asian diaspora kids do when they’re teens! they feel bad about pushing away their culture as youth, but they’re not quite mature enough to actually care about the rich history and ‘boring’ parts, so they cling to pop culture, to social media and something so much more easily consumable, like anime. which is not even to mention the idea of him trying desperately to connect to a culture that he has never grown up in, but still belonged to by consuming mass amounts of media, being Such an immigrant story. as well as his massive competitive streak and need to make other people as good as he is (but not better), is the type of internalized pressure that a lot of asian kids feel as well. 

and all the stridlondes have various anxieties about not performing well enough, of not living up to a standard that they have set for themselves, feeling like even a single step back or even one mistake is a catastrophic failure that’s branded to you for life. Which is just as much of a mental health thing as it is like,,, an asian thing

this is getting really long so im cutting myself off here but please if you want to hear more about my Thoughts and Hot Takes feel free to shoot me an ask. 

in conclusion: please treat asian people better hs fandom i literally beg you. like,, im Not tryna make waves but,, asian erasure in fandom is a huge issue and no one ever talks abt it!! dont trivialize, fetishize and erase cultures blease  big thanks to @ernikerr and @wyndryga for encouraging me to go Off and helping to write this.

anyone please feel free to rb but non-asian people please watch your mouth

Im so happy to see people speaking up abt the injustices of the fandom and the canon portrayal of Asian culture in Homestuck. I never think abt it because it’s easier to take things at face value but sometimes shit like this NEEDS to be addressed and I’m hoping spreading this around will get people to open their eyes. Especially the writers of Homestuck^2 bc for fucks sake the amount of steps back they took writing dirks character is part of the problem here.

if the world was ending and the only weed left was a strain called “if you smoke this you are racist” would you smoke it?

lmao if water was called if i drink this im racist would you drink it? bs

I wouldnt because im not racist

this is so fucking funny what the fuck

nothing funny about racist weed dummy 

yes, i’m the dummy for realizing that the name of something i consume doesn’t make me racist lol

the word “gay” actually comes from the word “gaywad” created by xbox live gamers and appropriated by the homosexual community, so you’re welcome

‘Gay’ actually used to mean happy. So did ‘Queer’.

no they didn’t

Ahem, look it up, please. It’s not the exact definition of happy but its close enough.

not true

Please, my dear, lovely genius, go to this lovely thing we call the internet and read the definitions of ‘gay’ and ‘queer’, which reads as quoted here, from my dictionary that I dug out just for you!

Gay (gā), adj.; GAY’ER (-er); GAY’EST. 1. Excited with merriment; merry. 2. Bright in appearance; brilliant in color.

Queer (kwēr), adj.

1. Differing in some odd way from what is ordinary; singular; peculiar. 2. A slang. Spurious; counterfeit; eccentric.

There you go, my dear ignoramus.

sorry but your “dictionary” doesn’t exist. gay people appropriated the word gaywad

Aghehegehem. I forgot about this, but I’m here now with picture proof of my dictionary.

Look! A cover of a book!

Look! A paragraph in the book!

Look! Another paragraph in the book!

Now, pswynnave, I know you’ve probably never seen one of these before and it’s probably scary, but don’t worry! It’ll only give you knowledge! Gasp!

how long did it take you to find that from google images?  nice try though…..

Anyway, even if I did google search it, it would still prove that it’s in a dictionary. Also, why would I lie about having a dictionary?

you tell me I’m not the one trying to die on a hill for the etymology of the word gay. seems like a gaywad thing to do if you ask me

straight culture is “breakup prank” being a thing

on their anniversary.

and he still posted it????

Um…excuse me, but why is this labeled as “Straight Culture”? Are you saying this is something only straight people would do, because as a straight person, we aren’t all that stupid. I’m not saying that straight people are better than any other kind of person, I’m just asking that you don’t label us under something so offensive. I mean, how would you feel if I said that (in the right circumstances) this was “gay culture” or “trans culture” or “bi culture”. Doesn’t seem fair does it? Again, I’m not saying all gay/trans/bi people are stupid enough to do this, but neither are straight people. Thank you.

shut up straightie

Oh, fuck you. I tried being as respectful as possible, but yet again you guys just read only what you want! I was just saying straight people aren’t bad people, we are just as good and bad as anybody who is LGBTQ+. You guys want to stop being generalized? Well then stop generalizing us!

straight people are bad

Can you tell me why?

being straight is unnatural

PFGHEYHADFBEHLNCD

WHAT!?

THAT IS LITERALLY THE STUPIDEST THING IVE EVER HEARD! XD

being straight is a sin

You are joking right? Please tell me this is a joke. Surely nobody could be that stupid.

no i’m serious

I’m starting to question how you have the IQ necessary to use a keyboard if you truly think you are correct here.

it says right on the first page of the bible that god hates cishets

I’m going to argue against this in two parts.

“GOD created Adam and Eve and realized cishets were a mistake.” is the opening line of the bible

It is very clearly not. I’m pretty sure that “cishets” was not a term used back when the bible was written.

that’s fake, actually

Ok, I’m done. Say waht you want, but you are wrong and everyone knows it. You can stop trying now. It would be a waste of your energy, not that I care anyway.

they went and googled the opening fucking line lahlahlusdfghajlfghjl;adhgat

straight culture is freaking the fuck out at being slightly made fun of and doing the absolute most to prove they’re right

this post has been a wild ride for me

My intention isn’t to BOSS people around. But people who don’t create on tumblr really have to understand that if creators stop posting here, you won’t have anything else to like but maybe memes. If you want content to circle around to your dashboard… you have to pay it forward and reblog. That is why this website is dying. The Ban is not the only reason.

And its like…. people dont even fucking realize how special tumblr is

Tumblr doesn’t have verified checkmarks. Tumblr doesn’t have an algorithm to you show ❝The Best Stuff❞. Tumblr doesn’t display how many followers you have. Tumblr isn’t obsessed with subscriptions. 

Tumblr is an even playing field compared to websites like Twitter, Instagram, and Youtube. Which means its up to us, the users, to spread the word of people we enjoy– the way the internet should be.

I’m not asking you to reblog shit you don’t like. I’m not asking you to reblog everything out of pity. But when you see a post you genuinely like, reblog it.

I think so many people mistake the ‘you should reblog’ message with ‘I’m greedy and all I want is notes’ when it’s really not at all like that.

When creators say they’re discouraged from creating because their posts get no notes, they don’t mean they will refuse to create unless their last edit reaches at least 1k notes. What they mean is that the effort they’re putting into creating something purely out of inspiration and the need to share their passion and creativity with the world is being consumed and forgotten, just like it is on Instagram. Tumblr has changed from having an even reblog-like ratio, or even twice as many reblogs as likes, to being another social media where users consume content instead of sharing it.

We’re not trying to force you to reblog everything or want you to fill your blog with things you don’t like. But Tumblr is built on reblogs and likes. This is not a fast-food company where you can order something, consume it, and then throw it away. The very base of this website is sharing, as opposed to Instagram. Here, likes don’t give our posts exposure, reblogs do.

Notes are not the problem, the fact that you want new content without supporting creators is. So yeah, don’t be surprised if creators stop creating because nobody wants to share their creations.

lets take it a step further and acknowledge that generation discourse--

 which, for the most part is “haha old people are all racist and are ruining the planet” 

--not only ignores the realities of elderly and middle aged PoC, but also implies that white millenials and gen-z’rs arent/cant be racist when that simply isnt the case. 

also

a lot of the black and brown people of the boomer generation with radical politics were killed or are still in jail

a lot of the poor people of the boomer generation with radical politics died prematurely from being poor

a lot of the LGBTQ people of the boomer generation with radical politics didn’t survive the AIDS crisis 

the conservative boomers are not a representative sample of everyone who was born from that era, they were just the ones who had the power and privilege to survive

also, the discourse is being generated by the same class of wealthy capitalists who materially benefit by dividing the rest of us against ourselves.

This is a really important point to absorb. A lot of the discussion we have around social justice and progressive causes is caught up in the need to draw faction lines and label other people as evilbadwrong so we can dismiss them. Do that without analysis and you’re just signing up for a new dogma, one that tells you that you’re pure and good if you’re sufficiently woke and willing to harm people that aren’t.

That’s why so many people go back and learn Marx, even today. You can’t go on belief alone, and the tools he developed to understand the nature between greed, power, and social hierarchies still sits at the heart of critical analysis of society and the oppression we face on a daily basis.

People want you to attack an identity, a label, a distraction, specifically to keep you from asking who it is that actually holds the reins of power.

Yeah, but “Ok Boomer” is really just a response to certain (usually white cishet) older people who either write or buy into thinkturds like “Why are Millennials so lazy?” or “Why do Millennials never grow up?” or “Why do Millennials buy smartphones and bath bombs instead of houses?” instead of waking up, smelling the coffee and standing in solidarity with us. We read Marx. We know what the Capital does. The whole point of this is that they refuse to see that and would rather believe that a whole two generations of young people are too stupid and too lazy to properly adult than to accept the fact that there is something wrong with the system that treated them well.

We tried talking to them. We tried to confront them with facts and figures a thousand times, I don’t think there’s one Millennial or Gen-Zer alive who hasn’t had that conversation with a parent or another older relative. But at this point, it’s pretty much all willful ignorance on their part.

So we’re tired. There’s no help or support coming from those people, so we gave up trying to talk to them. We’re tired of having to prove our humanity to people who refuse to see that we got fucked by the system before we were even out of our diapers, who refuse to see that they are partially culpable. Because they got into positions of influence in the 80s and could have kept the change going. Instead, they got complacent and mostly stopped fighting and fell asleep on their heaps of doodahs while the capitalist steered governments quietly rolled back much of the progress made. But those Boomers didn’t care because they bought into the mentality of, “I got mine, fuck the rest.”

That’s why we’re pissed. That’s why we’re 100% done. It’s not about hating all older people and it never has been. This is just a very personal response to certain people in our lives who instead of helping us, supporting us in our struggle, or just listening, choose to shit all over us.

As an older person myself  I think a lot of this is like the ‘not all men’ and ‘not all white people’ stuff. If you are a boomer who has fought all your life for social justice, equality, everyone having the means and opportunity to have a decent life, etc, it might be irritating to be grouped in with the reactionaries who haven’t, but in the end ‘ok boomer’ is not really about you.

It’s about the people who won’t listen. Who won’t be persuaded by reasoned argument or by the spectacle of human suffering. It’s about the people with whom you’ve probably also been brought to tears of frustration all your life.

I’m not going to lie, watching Piers Morgan be roundly shut down on twitter by dozens of people going ‘ok boomer’ to him gave me great joy. It’s all he deserves.

Worth these last 2 comments

That kid with strict parents walk that you learn to do where you rock your feet as you walk so your feet don’t make noise on hardwood floors

Okay so apparently this is a known and frequently used stealth walk known as a Fox Walk where you roll from heel to toe in a straight line to be as quiet as possible and it makes me sad that so many kids just learned on their own how to do that out of necessity considering it’s otherwise only taught to like... military personnel and people who have to sneak up on wild animals for research purposes and the like

Ppl tagging trigger warnings like “////:t///://w///“ so its impossible to filter the tag

Buddy, no one is going to guess your keysmash of a trigger warning and be able to filter it out in ther blocked tags. Be considerate and just tag it like a normal person.

If I was triggered by body horror there is no way I’m gonna be filtering “/////////b*dy h/rr/r /////“ because I’m not guessing that it’s going to use 10 slash marks and two different types of censoring. (Yes this is a real way someone tagged it) please use consistent, predictable, easy, blockable tags.

literally just 'body horror tw' will work, no one wants to sit there and add like 10 versions of the same trigger and still see unfiltered posts

Hot take but people calling themselves "dirty allos" and having urls like "allosexual-[character]" has the exact same energy as "yeah, I'm a straight white male. Come at me tumblr sjws 😎😎😎😎"