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@thin-wired-girl

20 bi//cis//she-her//latina
libra sun, aquarius moon, pisces rising, scorpio venus
trying to reverse the brain rot
recovering addict
stay gentle

I think it's an unrecognized practice to allow yourself to outgrow and shed versions of yourself that were more socially successful than who you want or need to be now. Not every new chapter is bigger and bolder and hotter, I think that's a very modern social media "glow up" mindset and doesn't actually have any room for what real transformation looks like. Sometimes we change exactly as we need to and it's not what anyone else was hoping for and that's part of it being important and true.

Behind every bombshell woman w personality & a big heart is a relationship with food that’s just a little strange in 1 way or another & I stand by that

saw someone refer to not knowing how to keep track of your money as "girl math" ......why are we in this weird era of treating women like idiots but repackaging it to sound cute and quirky. We All Need To Stop

bitches will hear a song and be like 'this makes me feel like i have a gaping hole in my chest' and then they put it on repeat. its me im bitches

“You don’t know what a wild, crazy longing I have, what an ache there is inside me.”

Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953

rant// mentions of substance use, sobriety, my brother being an unsupportive dick

my mom tried telling my brother about how long i’ve been sober from weed n alc and talk about how proud she is. and he just goes “yeah it’s just two months” and starts another conversation like my mom just told him he has to pick up milk on his way home. i hate it here.

i could’ve said that yeah i may JUST be two months sober from weed n alcohol but i nearly ended my life every day bc of it. and yeah i may JUST be two months sober from weed n alc but i’m also three months sober from shrooms and three and a half from coke and over two fucking years from xanax.

but he wouldn’t think that’s an accomplishment. he’d think it’s a damn shame that i even have to try n be sober from them in the first place. bc life for him is so easy. why would it ever be hard to not be an addict.