Somehow, after 3 1/2 months, my fiancée miscarried our baby. There was no heartbeat today. And our baby’s little heart will never beat again. I am so heartbroken. Daddy loves you so so much peanut!!!
I haven’t been here in awhile, but I am so excited I have to tell someone. Even if no one sees this, I’m happily getting this out there. My fiancée told me she’s pregnant!! After searching and searching and searching for a sperm donor I found the perfect one and now I’m an expecting father. I can’t believe that I get to have this. That I get to experience this. That I get to be a father to a beautiful baby with the love of my life!! I’m so so thankful for this woman and this baby!!!!
Who let me have my phone when I was borderline blackout drunk?! I can NOT be trusted lmfao
I’ve had a crush on my coworker for awhile now. She told me a few days ago that she has a crush on me too. I am now falling for her because I never thought feelings would be reciprocated. Fuck my life
When is it all gonna end? When will I stop being treated like a waste of time and space? When will I be seen by the people I’ve thought I’ve been seen by?
Can these girls please stop playing me
October 24, 2019
I had top surgery yesterday. They actually took me in an hour earlier than expected and I was scared. I am scared. But from what I can tell, I have a flat chest! I hope I like my results because I don’t want to continue to hate my body. I’ve been able to keep the pain under control. I think it reached a 5/6, but it wasn’t horrific. My mom has emptied my drains and is recording it. I’m so glad my mom is here with me. When I came out to her I never thought she’d be here to take care of me after my surgery. Now, about 4 years later, she’s doing everything she can for me. Her and Meilani both have been absolute blessings during all of this.
MCV-25y.o.
This girl is really coming over after she’s gets off to take care of me and calling out of work to come with me to get my drains taken out! She’s really the woman I’ve been lookin for. Weren’t not serious yet, but I plan on making this chick my girlfriend. She’s too good to let slip away.
My mind is getting dark again. I’m no longer able to trust myself
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Just a friendly reminder that the brain of those who have suffered trauma is physically different than a “normal brain”. Trauma and abuse has a severe, long-term psychological and neurological effect. This is why you have difficulty concentrating, why you have trouble sleeping, why you can’t seem to stay focused, why you cry at the drop of the hat, why you’re not satisfied with yourself, why you think everything is your fault, why you think you’re toxic, why you’re full of regret and you don’t know why.
And get this. When you experienced this trauma, no matter how long it happened or how many times, your brain instantaneously made judgments about the world, your sense of self, and others. This is why you’re paranoid. Why you trust no one. Why you perceive things to exist that aren’t true in reality. It’s why people say you’re crazy, over-dramatic, or too emotional.
You may not heal in a day, but know this: it is not your fault. Your brain is responding to trauma.
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Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her Stop thinking about her
She doesn’t think about you like that anymore.
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depressed kids in the media: I don’t wanna go to therapy! I don’t need help! I’m not some specimen for you to dissect!
me, rollin up to my therapist’s office and collapsing in relief: what is UP my homeboy I fuckin missed you,, hope ur ready to hear some Bull Shit that fuckin happened to me this week
families of depressed kids in media: okay sweetie we’ve researched depression for ten hours straight and signed you up for therapy and re-arranged your school schedule to be less stressful
actual parents of depressed kids: look i get you’re sad but someones gotta do the goddamn dishes stop being lazy get up. why didn’t you go to school today, what’s wrong with you, you’re such a burden on this family.
Therapists in the media: *understanding head tilt*
My real live therapist whom I adore: Natalie, that is the DUMBEST thing I’ve ever heard.
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I swear being called baby by a girl has healing abilities
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I know I just called you dude but I’m trying to flirt with you
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Source: weheartit.com
November 12/13 marks the one year anniversary of the day I saved myself; yet here I am again, needing to save myself. A few things have changed, the main differences being that I don’t have a college to drop out of, but I do have a job that I had to go to school for. I have work in less than 12 hours..I’m not sure if I’ll be able to go. I’ve been up for a few hours having an anxiety/panic attack. I’m curious as to how it all would’ve been had I not dropped out of college. I’m also curious as to what would have happened had I actually just killed myself. I haven’t seen my therapist in over 6 months. I guess I should probably go back. I’m not sure.
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💀 spooky
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