i wish i could just hold you hands though i've never touched 'em. i wish i could, once... and forever.
im scared of making the same mistake that someone else made. im scared of hurting her like someone else hurt me. im scared of betraying her. im scared of lying. it hurts me to see her smile coz she doesn't know the reality... doesn't know what i did.
im scared of doing what someone else did.
hey! Ik you can't see this. and that's the reason I'm posting this here. coz i don't want you to see it.
i really want to ask you how u doing. but something's holding me back. i feel so guilty for not being able to trust you just the same way i did before. i knew this day would come but i was so into the moment talking and thinking about you, i kinda forgot to see the reality. i still trust you, i want to but- i think i lost a part of it.
i still love you though <3
just like the way you miss the "me" i was before when we met, similarly, i wish you were still the "you" you were back then. you seem totally different. trust me, i didn't want to change but your actions affected me enough to be the way i am today. i am not sorry. neither should you be. because i know you have reasons which i will never ask for. i still love you same but just a little less i promise. and you don't care about that.
^_^