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Countdown to the Midwest

It's been 2.5 years since I've seen my family, but I'm finally traveling home to Indiana to stay with them next week. We were supposed to visit last year, but obviously that didn't happen for safety reasons.

Our family has been through quite a bit with the pandemic. We lost two extended family members, and my own father was in the hospital for almost two weeks. So, in preparing to be a bit emotional in seeing them all.

I'm also mildly stressed about traveling. But so glad that I've had my second vaccine last week and can feel moderately safe about venturing around. And almost all of my family are vaccinated, save a couple of folks that I'm fairly certain have gone full blown conspiracy theory, which is just great, but oh well.

And what I'm probably most worried about is my pup. He's so attached to me and hasn't been without me now since February of 2020, which is the last trip my husband and I took together. My husband isn't traveling with me, so in some ways I'm very thankful for that so my dog won't be overly stressed. He's getting older, and I do worry about him. And I have separation anxiety now, since I work from home and he's with me always! 😭

But, it will be time away well spent, just can't believe it's finally time!

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So stressed I can't tell that I'm stressed

I was so convinced that I have been having hormone issues.... but I got an enhanced hormone blood panel done this past week and everything is normal.

So I've concluded that I'm just incredibly stressed and have done a horrible job realizing how stressed I actually am. There's been so many crappy things happen over the past couple months. Family members that have passed away, taking my dog to the ER, getting into arguments with my husband, and feeling trapped because we can't travel anywhere (due to husband being in the military and totally restricted).....I just wish I felt like there was light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Hanging in there, somehow.

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Working on finding the perfect barn situation for my mare to deliver her baby in March. She's currently at my trainer's show barn, and it's not exactly equipped and staffed to care for momma and foal. Trying to find the perfect mix between location, expertise, care, and comfort. So many things to get done between the next two months moving into our new house too! So crazy!

Drove up north to check out a friend's barn that would be a perfect situation, except it feels a little too far away for me. Gorgeous views on the way of Mt. Baker!

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My husband and I celebrated our second wedding anniversary last week. We had really hoped to get away for the weekend to Leavenworth, but the military won't let him do pretty much anything right now with covid cases getting bad again, and our dog just recovered from a bout of idiopathic vestibular disease, so we stayed put at home and celebrated by making a nice homemade dinner. Hubs got me these beautiful flowers too 😍 to brighten my day a little. Can't wait to be able to travel more again.

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To say I'm excited by the election outcome would be an understatement.

Thank goodness we will be getting decency and integrity back in the White House. Not to mention our first female VP. Truly a historical day today.

❤🎉🍾🇺🇸

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This pup scared the living shit out of me and my husband yesterday. A trip to the vet ER ended with a diagnosis of vestibular disease, which sometimes happens with old dogs... it's basically doggie vertigo. He's going to recover from it, but man, the onset of it was sudden and terrifying. All of a sudden he couldn't move around without stumbling, couldn't find his balance at all, and had no idea what was wrong. I was so afraid he was having a stroke or other neurological issue, and for the first time felt the fear of what we worried could have been our last day with him.

It was the worst feeling in the world, and I'm so grateful today that he's going to recover. And if there's one thing I'm also grateful for it's that I get to work from home and be with him ❤.

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We applied to be pre-approved for a home loan yesterday

Yeah.... that happened. Can't believe it. Feels like the ultimate in adulting. Excited to begin house hunting, but also a little stressed. Everything is so expensive in the PNW and it feels like timing is key. But the market just doesn't seem like it's going to get any more in our favor than it is now.