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"i saw her flirting with other women"

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ugh okay i rewatched portrait of a lady on fire last night and just. feeling INSANE about the three “endings” and what they show us. Ending #1 is what you’d expect, a fraught goodbye as two hearts break in front of each other. emotionally destroyed me <3

BUT THEN we get ending #2. Marianne is caught off guard when she sees a portrait of Héloïse in the academy of art. It’s heartbreak all over again when she spots that she has her book open on page 28. She’s sending a message to Marianne that it’s always going to be her. The unfairness of it all seeps back in.

AND THEN THE FINALE, ending #3. When Marianne spots Héloïse at the concert hall she gets to watch her experience orchestral music (possibly for the first time) like they’d discussed. The camera holds a close shot of Héloïse, overwhelmed and crying, but laughing and free. We the audience, are Marianne, watching the woman we love be out of reach. We are watching her experience joy, regret and grief, and saying goodbye. It’s a strange kind of closure.

lol more on why i increasingly cannot take her seriously when she talks about sex. like how fucking deep was that research if she was not following up to see how dworkin disavowed this interpretation of her writing. and once again, the fact that she was quoting dworkin in that whiny voice she uses when you can tell she disagrees with a female critic and didn’t at all talk about where dworkin’s radical politics came from (which included experiences of rape and survival sex work)... ugh. really, really puts me off of her.