Avatar

Lil’ Bean

@thegayamericancroissant

A loud little bean who occasionally draws...
Still a Little Bean

If any of y’all are still around, Hi :)

it’s been a while...

almost 3 years

turns out I was trans all along, I still have arthritis, I’m still incredibly not straight and my health still sucks

turns out this account was tied to an email I abandoned a while ago so I thought the account was gone

i recently decided to make a new account@dumbassbrick

I still draw, but yeah, idk if I will stay on this blog but it was a fucking trip seeing all my old art and interactions lol

Anonymous asked:

Your profile picture is very very nice, me gusta

Why thank you my friend :) it is difficult to see at first but there are still a bunch of mistakes that I just never totally fixed but maybe I will fix it someday

I was just given some super strong pain killers and know I feel way more energetic than I was 10 minuets ago so maybe I will draw for a little bit longer

focus on yourself hun, get some rest and feel better soon!

Avatar

Thanks mate :)Hopefully I’m not sick to long I am excited about the stuff that is going on with both mark and jack and I am going to want to do some art for it.

So I am sick, I was hoping to post more art but I can barely breathe right now without my inhaler so I don’t know if any art is going to get done...

Get To Know Better - Tag

Rules: tag 15 people you want to get to know better. 

Tagging: @caffeinated–writer @supernovasandcoronas @metalarmlover @thorohdamnson @coffeefiend10 I’m sorry lol, only tagging five people. 

Relationship status: In a relationship. 

Favorite Colours: Black, Blue, Red. 

Lipstick or Chapstick: Either/or, depends on the occasion. But if I must choose then lipstick.

3 Favorite foods: Chicken. Curry. Burgers. 

Song stuck in my head: Nothing at the moment. 

Last song I listened to: Power by Horsepowar

Last movie I watched: A Quiet Place. First time I cried watching a horror movie. 

Books I’m currently reading: Finished reading the last issue of Saga (comic book) today. Man. I cried. It fucked me up.

Last thing I googled: MUFE Nederland

Time: 1:54PM

How many blankets do you sleep in:  One/None (it’s so damn hot).

Dream trip: visiting Australia. 

Anything you really want: Money. 

Get To Know Better - Tag

Rules: tag 15 people you want to get to know better.

Relationship status: Single

Favorite Colours: Purple, Black, Burgundy, Royal Blue

Lipstick or Chapstick: don’t use either

3 Favorite foods: Butter chicken (home made), sweet chilli pork with stir fried rice (home made) foot long bmt or meatball subway with EVERYTHING

Song stuck in my head: One More Light, Linkin Park

Last song I listened to: Men In Black, Will Smith

Last movie I watched: Event Horizon 

Books I’m currently reading: The secret history of the Opus Dei

Last thing I googled: Historical evidence of Pagan Persecution

Time: 12:20 am

How many blankets do you sleep in:  3, it’s winter and I’m freezing my non-existent ass off.

Dream trip: visiting my sister in Australia.

Anything you really want: a new computer, this one is almost ten and missing the number four key

Tagged by: @coffeefiend10

Relationship status: Married

Favorite colors: Teal, purple, hot pink, lime green

Lipstick or chapstick: Neither really, but probably lipstick

3 favorite foods: PIZZA (pepperoni, jalapeños, banana peppers and extra cheese), pepperoni rolls, spaghetti

Last song I listened to: Something from Undertale, don’t know the name of the song

Song stuck in my head: All the Way

Last movie I watched: Jurassic World

Books I’m currently reading: A Feast for Crows

Last thing I googled: a spelling for a word LMAO

Time: 12:01pm

How many blankets do I sleep with: 2

Dream trip: Paris, France and/or Disney World

Anything you really want: A hug from Sean.

Rules: tag 15 people you want to get to know better.

Tagged by: @jessiefrance

Relationship status: In a relationship.

Favourite Colours: Black, Green, Blue, and Red.

Lipstick or Chapstick: Neither, I don’t like lipstick, or makeup and I’m really lazy so yea. But chapstick if needed, lip balm is mainly for when I feel like taking care of my chapped ass lips 

3 Favourite foods: Most fruits, Brussel sprouts, sushi.

Song stuck in my head: Nothing at the moment.

Last song I listened to: Darkiplier and Antisepticeye - Migraine (Full Edit) (shhh its a playlist)

Last movie I watched:  Umm, Jurassic world I believe

Books I’m currently reading: Mostly reading random harry potter and ego fanfic if I find good ones

Last thing I googled: “Red Lights movie” (it’s really good, it’s about debunking magic [not a documentary] and I watched it years ago, I wanna watch it again

Time: 1:32 PM

How many blankets do you sleep in:  One or two, depends.

Dream trip: Irland, Scotland or the US, mostly New York and Virginia, the US ones are for friends and Ireland/Scotland are because it’s beautiful and cool, I’ve always wanted to go to beautiful places

Anything you really want: A hug from Sean and no more stress man, (mainly its due to money, so I guess I really would like money so I no longer have money problems.)

Thanks @jackjames-exe !!

Relationship Status: Single

Favorite Colours: Blue, Black, Red

Lipstick/Chap: Chapstick: Unless I was gonna do Drag, chapstick😁

3 favorite Foods: Baked Mac, Cookies and Cream+Cookie Dough Ice Cream and Chick-Fil-A chicken nuggers.

Song Stuck in my head: Thnks Fr Th Mmrs by Fallout Boy

Last Song I listened to: Forgot about Dre By Eminem

Book I’m currently reading: Finished the last book in Micheal Grant’s Gone series last month and will be reading Bret Easton Ellis’ American Psycho when I find time.

Last Thing I googled: “Thanks for the memories” because I forgot how to properly spell out the song name for the 5th question on this list.

Time: 12:12

How many Blankets do you sleep with: Just one.

Dream Trip: Anywhere in Europe really

Anything you really want: a solution to my harmful introversion.

Heee are some friendos:

Thanks for the tag @th3wolffang

Alright lets do this!

Relationship status: single

Favourite colour: blue

Lipstick/chapstick: chapstick, I wear it more.

3 favourite foods: pizza (of course), Minstrels, and ben and jerrys cookie dough icecream!

Song stuck in my head: valerie by Amy Whinehouse

Last song I listened to: Better man by 5Sos

Last movie I watched: Thor Ragnorok

Book im curently reading: Norse mythology by Niel Gaiman, its actually really interesting!

Last thing I googled: english to spanish. I needed something translated.

Time: 12:22

How many blankets I sleep with: uno

Dream trip: LA

Anything you really want: just to make good memories and have a good time in general.

Taggin yall:

Tagged by: @gum-xx-drop

Relationship Status: single

Favorite Color: purple

Lipstick/Chapstick: Chapstick, I wear it more often

3 favorite foods: pizza, sesame chicken, chili cheese dog

Song stuck in my head: Love Lockdown by Glass Animals

Last song I listened to: Capricorn by Xan Griffin and Wolfe

Last movie I watched: Ready Player One

Book I’m currently reading: I just started reading a webtoon called 1000 haven’t read it in a while

Last thing I googled: copic markers

Time: 7:05

How many blankets I sleep with: 1

Dream Trip: Japan

Anything you really want: For me and the ones that care about me to be happy 😊

Thanks for the tag @psychic-ga1axy

Relationship Status: single

Favorite Colors: blue, black, and green

Lipstick/Chapstick: neither. i dont like makeup

3 favorite foods: quesadillas, tacos, and pizza

Song stuck in my head: Nico and the niners by TOP

Last song i listened to: the sky is a neighborhood by foo fighters

Last movie i watched: Jurassic World: a fallen kingdom

Book im currently reading: Origin by dan brown

Last thing i googled: game grumps

Time: 8:40 pm

How many blankets i sleep with: 1

Dream trip: London

Anything i really want: to not be socially awkward

and anyone who wants to do this. only tagging 10 people lol

Thank you for the tag!!💚💚 @imnotseptic

Relationship status: a single pringle

Favorite colours: bubble gum pink. Light grey and like a soft purple not quite lavender but not quite regular purple

Lipstick/chapstick: chapstick if my lips aren’t soft and moisturized I’ll lose it

3 favourite food: pizza, pasta and most Mexican foods

Song stuck in my head: surprisingly none. Some snippets of songs will pop in but not one is stuck

Last song i listened to: i wanna dance with somebody by Whitney Huston (I’ve been listening to lots of 80s music its ridiculous)

Last movie i watched: incredibles 2

Book I’m currently reading: none

Last thing i googled: some posts of another blog of mine

Time: 8:34pm

How many blankets i sleep with: 3

Dream trip: I’d love to go back to Ireland i loved it so much

Anything i really want: i want everything to work out, i want everything to be okay and i want 💜 (its something personal) forever and ever

I don’t feel like tagging anymore and if you already did it you don’t need to do it again

Thanks for the tag @jarkipleyeranddoodles !!

Relationship Status: Single 😒😉

Favourite Colours: baby blue and anything pastel 😍😍

Lipstick/chapstick: chapstick bc fuck lipstick. My lips are pink enough lmao

3 favourite foods: Chinese, Pizza, and rice

Song stuck in my head: I forget the name but the verse I have stuck in my head goes “Baby, why don’t you just meet me in the middle. I’m losing my mind just a little” bc it came on the radio earlier and I was jamming out to it in the car with my friends getting weird looks bc the windows were down and I was screaming the lyrics lmao

Last song I listened to: Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F) it’s currently playing lmao

Last movie I watched: Super Troopers 2 i does laughing

Book in currently reading: None but I just finished Social Intercourse. I forget the author but it’s hilarious and I love it

Last thing I googled: The lyrics to Her Last Words by Courtney Parker so I could write down the lyrics in my sketch book for a drawing

Time: 23:18

How many blankets I sleep with: At the moment, 1 since it’s hot but I normally sleep with like 6 when it’s cold (I’d sleep with more if I had more)

Dream Trip: London. I must go to London. I have a chance to in about a year and I’m excited

Anything I really want: a job so I can start saving to get an apartment with my best friends. I just want to be with my friends and away from my parents.

Thank you @olitheshrimp :)

Relationship Status; very single but that is all good with me

Favourite colour(s); black, red, blue, white and lots of over the top neon

Lipstick/chapstick; chapstick I am constantly dehydrated even if I am constantly drinking water

3 favourite foods; curry in general, gnocchi and croissants

Song stuck in my head; Do I Want to Know, R U Mine and Flourecent Adolescents (all by arctic monkeys), evil (Interpol), Domesticated Animals (Queens of the Stone Age) and just most of the music from Patrick Stump and Brandon Flowers. (It is the main reason I don’t sleep well because my brain starts repeating 1 verse of a song and it drives me insane)

Last song I listened to; Everything Now by Arcade Fire it is currently playing

Last movie I watched; it was Birdemic, me and my cousin were having a laugh at that but also on that same day I watched boy and the beast with my 6 year old cousin it was pretty great

Book I am currently reading; I am rereading a clockwork orange and umbrella academy ( technician a graphic novel but it’s good none the less)

Last thing I googled; cinnamon toast ken, I needed a reference photo for something I’m working on (funny enough before that it was Ethan Nestor because I apparently only use google for reference photos)

Time; 01:27

How many blankets do I sleep with; during the summer I find the thinnest blanket and sleep with just that but in the winter it is long sleeves and fuzzy pants with a mountain of like 7 blankets

Dream trip; I don’t know if I really have one but I would say anywhere without large crowds I want to be able to enjoy the local cultural of an area not just city culture and I also like a little bit of quiet every once and a while

Anything I really want; get a psychology degree, at least I will be able to help others even if I don’t end up being able to fix everything I want there to have at least been an attempt to help someone, I have seen to many people be turned away from help because of some stupid reason or another.

GUYS I’M GONNA CRY-!

Alright this took 6-7 hours because of the stupid colour palette and whatnot but GODDAMN IT IS AND WAS WORTH IT—!

Original Ver.:

Edited Ver.:

Also a big thanks to @imagine-ego-trash , @ohgodwhatthefu , and @asksomecoolkids for being really ridiculously nice and supportive and actually giving me the motivation to get up and sit back down to do this.

AAAAHH! This is so good!

I love all the details!! Holy hell it must have taken forever!

Mate it looks great!

(Nice attention to detail that must have taken forever)

I’m actually quite angry at this community right now. And I feel like I have to say this…

*Please note that this is not an attack towards anybody. It’s something that I feel like must be said and something that seriously needs to calm down*

So I heard that PMA has been praised to the point that it’s been forced now. People, you need to know that yelling PMA and forcing it upon others isn’t ok. It’s also not about being happy 24/7. Jack has stated this multiple times already and the constant over praise has caused people to leave the community. We’re supposed to be a nice and loving community but forcing something as important isn’t a good thing to do.

You can praise PMA but don’t blow it so much. This kind of behaviour makes the community look like it’s trying too hard to be positive.

I know that this movement has helped us a lot but it’s never ok to force it upon someone. We’re not perfect. If we had PMA all the time life would be easy. But guess what? It’s not.

Please, tone down on the PMA a little. Don’t force it on others if they’re sad. If they’re not having a good day, talk to them calmly. If they’re not getting better and need to be alone, let them.

These actions makes this community look like something it’s not and this is something Jack doesn’t want. We don’t want to become another toxic community that is know to force things on people.

Yes we all love positive mental attitude but when forcing it, it sounds like we don’t give a fuck about it .

We’ve already made enough mistakes as it is this year and we shouldn’t make PMA sound like something that should be forced upon others. We are allowed to have bad days, having PMA is not a huge rule that must be followed.

PMA, especially here on tumblr has gotten quite spammy. And I respect those who wish to distance themselves from the community for a while. It’s always good to take those breaks when things become overwhelming and I’ve done it myself. When I came back things were better for me.

So please for the love of all that is good, try and tone down the PMA and don’t force it on people. Don’t spam it all over the place. If you want to spread positivity, do it in a way that doesn’t sound like you’re spamming. It makes things much better for this community and would actually feel like we care about it.

We are better than this

Again this is not an attack towards anybody. It’s something that needed to be addressed ASAP. Thank you

There is such a thing as being “too positive”, and having that is unhealthy.

Expressing it so much and every single day as if it’s always an over exaggerated 120% begins to feel forced, faked, and can create the opposite affect.

Back when I was in a really hard time, I saw so many people with “PMA!!!” posts that PMA itself felt like a poison. So many were saying it and spamming it willy nilly that its’ original message was suddenly completely meaningless to me.

Just be careful. Reminders are fine; there’s spreading a message, but then there’s doing it so much publicly almost on a daily basis that it may do more harm than good.

Of course these are only my biased opinions. Feel free to disagree.

No I couldn’t agree more, PMA is meant to be about being in a positive mental state which is great, don’t get me wrong. But I have seen some people pushing it to the extreme, I know what it feels like to be depressed, anxious, etc. And let me tell you that when someone starts trying to force positivity on you IT DOES NOT HELP, for many that I know including myself offering a possible way to help or just comforting others is usually a much better use of energy.

But that is just how I see it, I am also just going to end on the note of, watch what you are saying, seriously words can have a really strong effect when you are in a bad place mentally/emotionally so be careful don’t say anything you wouldn’t say to a depressed friend or family member.

Heyya!!

So the gang & I wanted to propose y'all to do something for the month of August:

WHOLESOME MONTH!

_________________________________

For the entire month of August, there’ll be 4 different themes for each week (5 themes counted for the last 3 days)

The dates are as:

1st week - Aug 1 - 7

2nd week - Aug 8 - 14

3rd week - Aug 15 - 21

4th week - Aug 22 - 28

+ 3 extra days - Aug 29 - 31

There’s nothing specific that we gave on how y'all can interpret it, so do whatever that’ll suit your style as much as you’d like to!

For the hashtag, we’ll use #wholesome & of course sharing this to the #jacksepticeye will do aswell!

__________________________________

If there are any questions you guys wanna ask, don’t be shy!^^ ah and don’t forget to tag ppl if you want to share this

Avatar

We’re gonna do some community event on this August as our simplest way to show gratitude towards Jack and the community, feel free to join or share this :D

Anonymous asked:

May I ask why you are weaning yourself from Antidepressants? It's fine if you don't want to answer this and I'm sorry that you are having to go through this. I hope that you feel better soon and I know how hard it is to fight this. I'm proud of you for being open here and I wish I could help you out

Thanks mate, it means a lot to meThe reason I have to stop my antidepressants (I just reached the point where I am completely off them about 10 days ago) is because there is a history of people in my family on one side having extreme problems after taking them for a while and on the other side of my family they have become dependent on antidepressants so pretty much no matter what I would be fucked no matter what

My depression is currently eating me alive. I have been sitting on the floor for the past hour unable to stand up to even get something as simple as some water, I am supposed to be completely cut off from my antidepressants but honestly I don’t know what to do. I am absolutely miserable I have tried everything and I can’t sleep because my brain just makes everything worse and I wake up feeling worse. It probably doesn’t help that I am in extreme pain as well but I still just want to stop this and take some of my antidepressants.

//smashes table// I NEED YOUR HELP. ∩(︶A︶)∩

Ken is about to reach 3 millions subscribers and i’ve been waitin’ this for years. i wanna make it a big  thing. (or at least a thing) But alone, i can’t do anythin’ °˖✧◝(⁰A⁰)◜✧˖°

if u like celebrating Jack ,Mark or any other Youtubers ‘s Milestone .Plz,consider doin’ this for Ken. He’s a good guy who’ve been through a lot of difficult periods of his life. (ノ*゜A゜*)

Our big bear boi deserves respect and admiration. So if u’ve always wanted t draw him or even watch his videos, NOW is the good moment !

For this event, i’m even opening  ‘ART’ TRADES.

if u draw Cinnamontoastken. i’ll offer an artwork/doodle of anytin’ (almost anythin’) u want in exchange. Also if u can’t draw, that’s fine. For Cinnamontoastken gifs or even memes,u get the same reward. i m not sure i could offer BIG things but i’ll sure do mah best. ≡(*′▽`)っ

Also , I GENUINELY don’t care about ur “art skills” or wahteveh u’ll say.

The only thing i’ll ask you will be to upload ur art -or other celebration stuff -on his reddit . I wanna see him smile and feel loved like any youtubers who’ve succeeded.

If u need videos for your gifs or references for ur art, feel free to ask meh anythin’.

LET S MAKE IT A BIG DAY! ꒰๑˃͈꒳˂͈๑꒱ノ*゙̥ Our time is limited !