I might be deleting my tumblr
It's just making things worse and I think it would be best if people just forget about me,some of my most important friends have why not anyone else?
lately I've been feeling super hopeful
So on the first I attempted suicide and then I was in the hospital and then this Monday I had a meeting with my school and they gave me almost 0 options to go back to school.they either wanted me to have a guard follow me around at all times or be in special ed,I said no and chose the alternative school which got them all pissy.but I love alc(area learning center)and I haven't even started there yet.theres around 100-120 students vs. around 2000 students at my old school.school goes from 8:30 am to 1:45 pm,there's little to no homework and it seems really easy to get credits.terms are every 3 weeks.and every year,if I did the math correctly I could get 24.75 credits which means with the (few)credits I already have there's still a possibility I could graduate a year early!
Doctor visit wasn’t hugely successful
My main reason for going in was to ask about Wellbutrin but apparently it isn’t even available in the UK, and its UK equivalent (Zyban?) is almost never prescribed, they won’t prescribe it to me, and if I want even a teeny tiny chance of MAYBE getting it, I have to be referred to a psychiatrist which is just, ugggghhhh.
I was recommended a different antidepressant and given some info on it but like, one of the first side effects listed is increased appetite and weight gain, and a quick google search brings up:
Which is like ???????? Absolutely fucking not, I’d sooner die.
I said yes to the psychiatrist referral but honestly that sounds awful and who knows how long it’ll take and no doubt it won’t even work out.
I just feel so stuck. Like I’m in such a horrendously bad place mentally that I almost find it funny at this point, and I just can’t seem to pull out of it, and it seems basically anything designed to help with it comes with a side of obesity. -_- Fml why did my brain have to malfunction so badly.
Idk if they have it but try metaformin-it's a weight gain stabilizer and I take it and it makes you gain weight in a more stabilized way like for example you could be 146 pounds and the next time you go in,say a couple of months or weeks,and weigh yourself you'd be 149 pounds and but you'd have to exercise and all that otherwise you won't really lose weight but you'll like not gain 12 pounds in two months kind of thing.hope this helps!^-^
what im saying is that bisexuals, pansexual, and asexuals should all join together so we can be in the fictitious trifecta. enough people will say we’re not real and we’ll all converge together in a massive, fierce mass only spoken of in myth. dont come near us or you too will cease to exist
erikfuckinglensherr
iamnofallenstar
can we include aromantics?
triforce of fabulousness
There we go, a shield to protect against the negativity
It's the bi-force of courage!
Thanks...just thanks...that's all I have to say...I now realize that I have to stop crossing oceans for people who won't even step over puddles for me
I'm kind of glad that I'm going to an alternative school maybe then people would remember that I'm alive and would include me in on stuff
so on Tuesday I got back from the hospital after attempting suicide for I think the 12th time and what hurts is almost no one gave a shit that only makes it seem like no one cares and that maybe I am better off dead,depressions and having suicidal thoughts isn't having friends who blow up your devices asking if your ok or when they'll see you again,I've only told three people and one can't take it any more the other is feeling depressed himself and the third is the only one who actually gave a shit.nobody except that one person has asked where I was and when I'll be back,none of the people that I've been friends with since elementary school has even asked and that just only adds to the numbness and loneliness and worthlessness that I feel
that horrible moment when you realize you have nobody and no one gives a shit about you and you get the feeling that you're so easily replaced...
Reblog if you're a Gryffindor.
There’s a fine line between the numerator and the denominator
Only a fraction of people will get this
The last picture of George and I 😞 He passed on Friday,he had what my friend and I believed to be gastroenteritis.he was the first little guy/pet I held in biology so he was and is kinda special to me,he had a lot of bad symptoms like bloody feces,a spot on his belly,a skinny tail,his tongue was white,and he wouldn't eat or drink.so me my friend and the biology teacher would give him baths and attempt to feed him and we hoped for the best of him and that he would get better,he shed so we hoped that that was it but then the symptoms just stayed.i remember on Friday I gave him a bath in the morning and I told him that if he needed to he could pass away and that it was ok.and when me and my friend had biology we just held and comforted him and gave him love.i didn't want him in pain and I hope and pray to the god and goddess that he passed away without pain...R.I.P Georgie
Date a boy/girl who will horribly sing bad 80s songs badly to their mother and freak them out
Seriously I just did it and it was amazing she was so freaked out and I couldn't stop laughing,but seriously find someone who is like that and does random shit like that
when I say I want to die,they all assume it's for the wrong or stupid reasons,like a guy rejecting you,but how can you explain the emptiness within you the swirling void of blackness consuming your soul with each hateful thought and word,and each and every cut,how do you explain to another human being the nothing you feel?
-M.A.W.(1-21-17)
