Lord, 

Tonight please give my heart peace because it has not had any since that day in June. Tonight please just let me dream a dream without her in it because if I have one more I may just lose my mind. Tonight please let me show up in her dreams and if I do just give her this message for me. T I love you with my whole heart and nothing less, I know I was stupid and Im so sorry I want to make things right and I know we can because we are meant for each other. I love you so much. Most of all I just hope you're doing okay because if nothing else if you're doing okay I can be a little happier. I miss you so much and just wish you could see how much I love you. Lord please show me the way, I need your guidance through this hard time.

Amen

I got so caught up in having everyone love me I forgot that all I needed was for you to love me because if all I had was you I would have the perfect life. If I didn't live you though I wouldn't be thinking about you every second of the day and having dreams about you every night. I hate those dreams its like everything is perfect in my life again then I wake up and realize it is all still fucked up. Ill do anything for you to come back. Anything.

Update: Still not giving up on you or us nor will I probably ever, because I don't give up on the one thing that I really need 

How is it that you are still all I think about. Why can't we just love each other and cuddle and go on fun vacations and eat you out until you can't think straight and make love until we are too tired to function. Why not Just talk it out because we could do this I know we can

Can’t you see that I am still here dying to be with you. Do not tell me I don't love you because its the only thing in this life that I am sure about

How is it possible to still miss you like you just left