I’ve gotten turned down for every job I’ve applied to for over a year now. It’s disheartening, humbling, and completely devastating. I’m not really sure what to do anymore.
Tony Gum’s first dj set in NYC—opening night for her recent exhibition at Fotografiska, 2022
over ten years ago, i tried to tell my siblings how damaging my dad was. they all laughed at me and called me dramatic. now, none of them talk to him either.
i’ve recently been telling my family that i can no longer tolerate my older brother’s casual misogyny, while also ignoring the fact that he tortured and victimized me in a way i didn’t deserve as a child. honestly, it is trauma that i’ve just started healing from. i won’t pretend like i like him anymore. some of them are ignoring my boundary, some of them understand, and some of them think i’m as dramatic as i’ve always been.
unfortunately, going no contact with my brother means taking a step back from my family. as much as i hoped they would choose me (just this once), i know they won’t. they will always choose him.
i don’t think i’ll ever stop hoping though…
maybe that’s my cross to bear.
yvonne hall and the rest of the artists photographed performing as the wilis in creole giselle by jack mitchell
