I really was just trying to sweet him up to go to the grocery store for me. But this is why I married him.

The sweetest EVER!

*crying at his use of "aye"* I really did well with his Bahamian training.

As draft night begins, Brandon said we gonna be cheering on Braylon Smith at the draft in 2040. Look out for my son, y'all!

He gonna be tall and handsome. You won't be able to miss him tbh. Also, I'll be right there sobbing and yelling. You won't be able to miss me either. 🙃

Today was the first time I saw a pregnancy announcement in my IG feed and didn't crumble, cry and/or fall down a dark hole of sadness and depression.

I know there will be more days like that but thanking God for continued healing. Today was better than most days. 🤎

*Edited to say: make that TWO pregnancy announcements. Sent congratulations to both. Still holding firm. 🎉🎉*

Therapy is amazing. I have lots of work to do in various aspects of my life but, that session today made me feel light. And I got through it with no tears. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing but...

Delano is also very amazing. I have a very deep love for him as my forever friend. He gets me. Very much so. I love him more than I can express. 

The Monday-est Monday to ever Monday

I hate it here. The f*cking ghetto.

I miss it here and I think I wanna stay a while. Every other platform is too congested and they can’t keep secrets like you. LOL.

I should’ve never left.

“I’m back.”

Word to #23.

Recovery Post #1

Firstly, ALL praise and honor to God. This has been a long time coming and I was SO nervous but everything went fine.

I had surgery 3 days ago. This is humbling and frustrating all at the same time. I just wanna move on my own. S/O to my tribe though. Maaaaaaaan, listen. My mom, sister and fiance are the best. Brandon is honestly my soulmate. I’ve never met a sweeter man other than my daddy in all the world. Never left my side in recovery, fed me ice chips and food on command, kissed my forehead repeatedly, boycotted showers until the doctor said I could take one just so I didn’t feel alone and before he went back home tonight laid hands on my stomach to pray for our future babies.. CLAP FOR HIM! Love me some him

It’s gonna be a LOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGGG 6 weeks. That’s just for me to feel like my old self. Now that the fibroids are gone, I’m anxious. Don’t know when they’ll grow back. Don’t know how my uterus is actually doing in there. Will she work when we’re cleared to try for these babies? I sure hope so. God is faithful though and I know he has a plan for me. For us.

In the meantime, I have a degree to finish (December), dental schools to apply to (Summer) and a wedding to plan. This is going to be a busy year. Be good to me, 2018.

“Hi, what’s your name?”

The other night at work, I was dropping off food at someone’s table. It was a party of like 8 with a few kids. So, this little girl at the table says to me before I walked away “Hi, what’s your name?” It took me by surprise because she couldn’t have been any older than about 4. It just came out. I said “My name is Kendra, what’s your name?” She answered “Kendall”

My face immediately dropped. I looked at her mom and I said “Is she serious?” Mom said yea. I was floored! If you know me, you know that’s what I want to name my daughter so the fact that this little girl of all the kids in the restaurant that night stopped me was crazy. I said “You have such an amazing name, I actually wanna name my daughter that when I have kids.” I asked her if I could have a high five and left the table. A few days later and I’m still smiling about it. I think it was a sign to tell me everything will be fine and I’ll be able to have Kendall. And Braylen. God knows I need the reassurance. 

Such a long week. Wishing B was here to rub my back and kiss my face until I fall asleep. 

God. 

Dr. Gena Flynn

I screamed so loud when he said that. For starters, I can’t tell if he’s an American or Bahamian anymore. His dialect is that good sometimes. Too hilarious! I luh dat man.

BJS

5.25.18

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