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The Starchless Potato

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Hello I'm Jax! This blog is mostly mobile so I don't always tag everything, sorry... Let me know if you want any thing tagged though!  My art blog is @jaxtaposition header is from ch 68 from the Wayne's family adventures webtoon bb Damien uwu

somehow instead of saying "as a treat", I've started using the phrase "for morale", as if my body is a ship and its crew, and I (the captain) have to keep us in high spirits, lest we suffer a mutiny in the coming days.

and so I will eat this small block of fancy cheese, for morale. I will take a break and drink some tea, for morale. I will pick up that weird bug, for morale.

I'm not sure if it helps, but it does entertain me

been thinking a lot about anticipatory grief lately. i love you so much that i know losing you will devastate me. i haven't lost you yet but i already miss you. we still have time, but it won't be enough. i think about what i would say at your funeral, and say some of it to you now cause i need you to know how loved you are before you go. you will go where i cannot follow, but you will never really leave me. it won't make it hurt less but it is a part of healing somehow.

july side quests:

- buy a peach from a stand by the side of the road. (isn’t it sweeter than anything? i love you.)

- sit in a cool creek on a hot day. let it run over and around and through you.

- grieve.

- say “it’s not the heat, it’s the humidity that’ll get you.”

- get too damn drunk off of something sticky-sweet made for 17 year-olds to swipe at the barbecue, giggling. cry.

- sit out on the porch and watch the thunderstorms as they roll through every day before dinner. (we needed the rain, didn’t we?)

- grieve. it hangs in the air with the steam rising off of the pavement. breathe it in.

- disregard what your mother told you about electricity to stand tallest in an empty field and watch the heat lightning on the horizon. (i’m sorry. i know i shouldn’t. i love you.)

- stare into the night sky until something stares back. (there’s dipper, that’s the only one i could ever find. say hello)

- teach someone you love how to pull apart honeysuckle, petal-pistil-stamen-nectar-tongue.

- grieve. catch a firefly. let it go. (there are fewer of them than there used to be, when we were kids. i love you.)

ID: a digital painting of two people in medieval armor sitting in a burger joint sharing fries and a milkshake. they both have fries sticking out of the ventilation holes in their helmets and one is reaching out to add one more to their companion’s faceplate. end ID