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"When I'm Fucked Up, That's The Real Me"

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Monopoly and you

Late nights

sucker punch

high

I spill love I didn’t know

I had in me

making a mess far greater

than I can pick

playing monopoly into the night

filling the room

first with laughter

then with fury and tears

drinking myself away until only

a phantom remains

a phantom rolls the dice

a phantom cracks a joke

a phantom tries to be present

a phantom tries to love

and fails again and again.

I say

I’ll win the world for you

and I mean it every single time

do you have no idea about

the things you do to me?

these things you make me say

I never knew I could

I never would again.

madness fills the room

and you fill me

I’m drunk

on longing and desire

fire and rum

music and monopoly

please please save me.

Save me.

- C