i hate having feelings
The world is scary and I'd just like to hide away from life atm ✌🏻
god how the fuck do i always ruin everything
I just wanna disappear
I love when you have treatment resistant depression and people tell you that you just aren’t trying hard enough to be happy
Isolation is my favorite form of self care.
she’s a 10 but she needs you to be obsessed with her or else it won’t work
“It’s been a long time since I’ve been me.”
— Fernando Pessoa
Matte black
Smoking packs
Panic attacks back to back
Xanax on my lap debating
Should I relapse?
OKAY $B I FUCKIN SEE YOU
you tell me i matter so much to you, then why is it im so easily replaced?
how can someone feel so much and feel so empty at the same time?
It's so much easier to push people away. I don't want to feel anything. I want to turn off my emotions and self destruct. I refuse to feel grief or any strong emotion that I just don't want to feel. I'd rather not think about any of those emotions and just keep trying to destroy myself. I can't cope with real life. I'd rather make them hate me. My brain is telling me to push them away. And I can't stop it.
i’m sorry for all the times my mental health made me a bad friend.
"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.
Anonymous asked:
Npd + bpd culture is how dare my fp not be as obsessed with me as I am with them? How am I not their fp as well? Why are they not noticing me Correctly? I’m literally the specialest, prettiest angel that will ever look their way. They should be obsessed with me
I can feel it coming, the emptiness taking over, that void demanding it’s due.