Just found this in my photos. Forgot to post this amazingly comforting meal I had with my partner Ash. Thank you Ash for making this. It’s honestly one of my favorite things you’ve made me because it made me feel like I was floating with how comforting it makes you feel. When you don’t eat for almost five years and then can eat something everything makes you feel like youre high when you eat. That’s an actual thing. It’s a nutrition high I learned. IV nutrition just isn’t the same thing as oral nutrition so when you don’t eat for long periods of time and then have something it sort of shocks your body with high amounts of nutrition that it’s just not used to. It’s the perks of relearning to eat. Makes the pain I get after eating a lot more bearable. It’s so worth it. The pain can make me almost pass out but if I have a chance to go through the process to eat after five years I’m going to take it. I believe when I had this meal I ate a little less than half of the half sandwich you see in the second photo and about half my soup. It was a pretty good day for me to eat and I remember being so proud of myself. It worked out pretty well. I got some pain but I could go about my day. It was a good meal.
Some more work I did!!! Part 3) I’m really try here.
Depression
You know sometimes I’m so sad I don’t know if I want to try to continue life if I may come into another time in life in which I’m this same level of sad or worse. When I’m like this I tell myself to breathe. Trust your gut but not your brain. You can’t always trust your brain. Unfortunately it can lie to you. You can trust you though. Just have to learn what that means.
Look it’s another thing I did in my house! Same can of paint! Part 2) Trying my best to do things with my depression. I have a goal list to now do each day. Even if I’m sick then it’s art or uploading pictures on here then.
I did this in my house part 1) You make the best with what you got!
You ever clean your mirror, take a bunch of pictures to show your outfit, then look at the photos and see the camera picked up cleaner blotches on the mirror your eyes can’t see as intense... 😶
The sky in the garden at Shawnee Mission Hospital that I was regularly going to to visit my partner during a rough patch. I would sit out in that garden for a while before messaging my ride to come get me. It was peaceful after a stressful time. I will always be there for someone when they are there for me. Ash had come to the hospital to make sure I was okay so many times and has slept in the hospital bed with me to comfort me as well. I appreciate that so much. I know I can get in a bad place so I will always be there for others when they get in a rough place too. #mentalhealth #physicalhealth #disabled #ptsd #spoonie #nature #sky #nightsky #garden #photography https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvp-EqKBRep/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zcn63m92d0hk
One of the best vegan sandwiches I’ve made. Buttered Toasted Bread, Fried Bologna, Soyrizo, Tomato with Salt and Pepper, Mayo and Mustard. Don’t mind the chipped nail polish in the video. Can’t have perfect nails all the time! Right at this moment actually I have them bare. Took all the nail polish off and plan to paint them again. #vegan #veganfood #veganrecipes #vegancomfortfood #vegetarian #nails #sandwich #foodporn #veganfoodporn #vegetarianfoodporn https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvp7pLeh_Qw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=pjmbkeffto0
I love these rose incense. Very sweet scented and relaxing. The smoke it produces is very white. If you have anxiety or depression lighting a stick of incense and watching the smoke is a great activity. Training your mind to calm itself after watching smoke is a good way to train yourself to wake up happy. Wake up and light incense. Once your mind associates happy with smoke you can light one in the morning and start your day and a simple mind association technique. #depression #incense #anxiety #mentalhealth #selflove #smoke #rose #morning #fragrance #pink #flower #flowers #depressionhelp https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvp1Qi6hL-2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1asdoket2zl0y
I love these rose incense. Very sweet scented and relaxing. The smoke it produces is very white. If you have anxiety or depression lighting a stick of incense and watching the smoke is a great activity. Training your mind to calm itself after watching smoke is a good way to train yourself to wake up happy. Wake up and light incense. Once your mind associates happy with smoke you can light one in the morning and start your day and a simple mind association technique. #depression #incense #anxiety #mentalhealth #selflove #smoke #rose #morning #fragrance #pink #flower #flowers #depressionhelp https://www.instagram.com/p/BvpwvYPhRwV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=f2uw9b0fm29x
Still doing a lot of recovering from my line infection. It was something I couldn’t really prevent. Staph from the body simply got on the line and that can just happen. That scares me because it can happen again. I just want to get better and not have a line in. I’ve made so much progress the last 6 months but I still have a lot to go. Very deficient in things even though I’m eating because my body doesn’t know how to absorb nutrients. I try to get the highest amount of nutrition I can but it can be hard. #spoonie #spoonielife #spoonies #lineinfection #nutrition #pjs #comfyoutfit #comfy https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu2k8eth1RA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2mubv456kdfb
I love my dog Penny so much. She’s ten years old now and I can’t believe how full of life she is. Wants to go on adventures every day and the only thing that holds her back is anxiety. It’s a mood right? Penny has struggled with anxiety for a few years now but it’s gotten worse the past two years. Her eyesight has diminished and so I think her depth perception is off. She gets scared when a leaf moves outside and it’s relatively far away. She will get scared if you walk too fast in her direction like you walked right at her and she needed to move super fast. Anything close to her she thinks is about to hit her in the face at times. It’s hard to watch her go through this but I’ve been getting calm treats from PetCo for this and some cbd coconut oil that she actually loves if I just drop it in her mouth. I don’t have to hid it or anything. Anything to help her anxiety. Some times she’s just trembling after someone crosses their legs too fast because she really thought it was about to stab her in the eye. Her eyes will start twitching like she’s so close to it. Hit me up with some good calm treats for dogs if you know any! Would like to take a natural route. #animals #dogs #pets #dog #puppy #puppies #jackrussellterrier #jackrussell #natural #cbd #anxietyrelief #anxiety #dogowner #coconut #coconutoil https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu53Paah5vz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=um5rb8ew3pnd
@amyskitchen rice Mac and cheese with a crunchy cheesy crust. Amy’s uses Daiya cheese for this with rice noodles. Panko, carmelized onion, with paprika in butter and olive oil. @followyourheart provolone cut up and mixed into the crust to make it stringy. #vegan #veganfood #healthyfood #healthyvegan #vegetarianrecipes #vegetarian #macandcheese #foodporn #foodphotography #foodie #healthyrecipes #daiya #followyourheart #rice #amys https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu5yWPyh7t-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ytunxk09zdcc
Giving my skin a break. It’s good to have days where you don’t wear a speck of makeup so you can take the time to appreciate your own face. Having self love days is a big step in helping your mental health. Watch yourself. If you see yourself being spread thin then take a break. Take care of yourself. #natural #skincare #coloredhair #hairdye #mentalhealth #bluehair #purplehair #pinkhair #robe #eyebrows https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt2GkBdhZ3D/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=588aw7fdfle9
VEGAN Hamburger and Gravy! 👌👌👌👌A Lowe recipe that was my grandpa Lowe’s and then my papas, my dads, and now it’s my turn. It is normally a hamburger patty cooked in a skillet and then a can of creme of mushroom poured over it. It is sooo simple and tastes amazing. I purchased the soup and Beyond burger but once home had a burst of creativity and decided to use leftovers in the fridge as well to add some extra “umpf”. My partner made the fried potatoes that was used to dip in the gravy. A great comfort food night. #vegan #veganfood #vegandinner #healthyfood #healthyfood #beyondburger #beyondmeat #vegetarianrecipes #veganfoodporn #foodporn https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt18UixBS8_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1aznfrbcu5pae