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camgirl. she/her. carissa,early 20's polyamorous intersex cishet woman,level 2 autistic. multiple disabled,mentally and physically. i have hypermobile ehler danlos syndrome. legally blind, hearing impaired(learning asl.) spoonie,cane user. avid stim toy/merchandise collector 18+ blog. f/o,stim,special interest and sexy content,occasionally jokes.

the thing about autism is that when you're finally around another autistic person or people, your positive traits really come out/get stronger and your negative traits might show more too. it's because you're finally being allowed to be your true,authentic self. you feel comfortable and at peace with being autistic,you dont have to hide yourself. it's so great, it's so freeing. like a breath of fresh air for your soul and mind and body. you might feel like you're faking your autism because it's suddenly becoming more prominent, but you're not. also i can barely mask at all in the first place, but i try( and often fail miserably.) to hide my autism from other people,so they don't ostracize and mock me. feels really fucking good to not be ashamed of my symptoms around other autistics <3

idk who needs to hear this but: you're allowed to be gross. some people are into freaky shit, some people have executive dysfunction that makes being clean in more ways than one hard, and some people have physical symptoms of their conditions that are unsanitary,some people have unsanitary addictions. none of those things make you an inherently bad person. i struggle with all of those things, and that doesn't make me bad, it doesn't make anyone bad. humans are just gross and weird by nature,and that's okay. you're fine. you don't deserve to be hurt for that. nobody deserves to be bullied or abused for that.

just a friendly reminder that i am indeed level 2, i WILL NEVER be able to live on my own, and i do still have a significant speech impediment, sometimes i can talk and say a few words but only very few every so often, sometimes i can make full sentences but i mess up a lot of pronunciations and i stutter, and sometimes i can't talk at all.

I'm sitting directly outside while the fireworks are going off, and it's not even bothering me lol. thank god I'm so hard of hearing, with an extremely high pain tolerance.

oh, and they're going off RIGHT next to me, ftr

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the funny thing about nerve damage, is that i actually genuinely don't know that my nose is bleeding until it's too late. i literally don't know unless someone points it out, or i look down at my hands and chest and i taste it( it takes a good while for the flavour of my blood to register. i have had loss of taste since i was 14, it just spontaneously happened lol.) and i bleed really hard when i get a nose bleed because my blood is so thin and i don't clot easily, also my sinuses are extra fragile. i don't really bleed much out of my other body parts when i get hurt though, they bleed pretty slowly and don't bleed much at all. i know,contradictory.

i know the fellow nose bleed fetishists probably love that <3

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i honestly can't dirty talk as a mommy dom irl without being sadistic about it, being cruel just comes naturally to me, as much as I'm naturally nurturing and sweet I'm also just very good at being...rough and controlling. I'm better at being a soft dom online. lol. *shrug*

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standard American English speakers: generally Incomprehensible to me.

European dudes with accents that are thick as a bowl of porridge: perfectly understandable.

I'm always thinking about this irony. why is my brain like this?

laughing so hard rn because of the memory i have of my mother scolding me for laughing at a poorly drawn image of Ross from friends, because she thought i was being ableist(i introduced her to the concept of ableism and anti ableist activism, to defend myself from her ableism.) i don't think she quite grasps complex concepts very well. though to be fair, her iq is much lower than mine so I'm not really suprised by that. i mean, my iq is already super high compared to the average iq score, but she's obviously lacking.

i only remembered recently that i can't actually eat foods that i like that taste good to me, because they still make me sick :/

being underfed so much as a young girl probably fucked up my digestive system so bad, but my h.m.e.d.s and asd probably don't help with that either, lol.

i don't know at what point it started, but one day i was like : you know what? laughing at my own suffering isn't enough. i need to fetishize it too. and I've always felt better ever since. fuck yeah

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maybe fucking my ass will cheer me up. in that case,i will be back to posting in like a half hour or so.

actually, I'm way too fucking tired from all that sex to masturbate rn, I'll just use some apps on my phone to distract myself while i calm down and entertain myself, then I'll rest some more and eat my leftovers for lunch.(because now I'm so damn hungry. lol)

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