This is my welcome post!

✨💕🌻🐽

I go by J and I’m non-binary? Female presenting? Idk. I’m a pansexual enby who’s never made a concrete decision in their life

Anywho

Here’s my stats

HW: ~300

CW: 257

GW: 190?

LW: 190

Height: 5’7

BMI: 39

Age: 22

Last time I was at my GW: like 2 years ago 😭

My favorite color is yellow 🌻

Im always down to talk but I have anxiety so if you think I’m ignoring you-no I’m trying to figure out the exact perfect response so you don’t hate me 🙃

Gotta buy a new scale because I swear mine is fucked up. Today it told me 258, 255, and 254. That’s a 4 pounds difference and I didn’t do anything different between the weighing. Like I did them back to back in my underwear. I’m kinda mad but it’s gotta be fucked up. Why would it read so differently when there was no change ?!?!

I’m going to start posting this every Monday. I don’t know how tf I gained 2.2 pounds overnight but I will probably be taking some lax soon to help relieve myself 😪 why is losing weight so hard

Honestly fuck it. Might as well just end it right? I hate it here. I hate everything. I hate myself. I feel like no one in the world cares about me so why tf do it stay? This is the only place I feel like I can even vent. I’m not going to but fuck do I want to

My bf follows models and girls on Insta and they are not fat or chunky or probably even a medium and that kinda fucks with my mind more than I’d like to admit 🙃 he doesn’t interact and to me this is not cheating but I can’t bring it up without showing my ✨mental illness✨ so instead I won’t 😁

I’m ready to just 💀

But maybe I’m just dramatic. I can’t vent anywhere else

My mom makes comments about my SIL younger sister saying she’s so small and she’s anorexic and it makes me want to starve myself more so I’m sure that’s healthy. Thanks mom 🙃

Some leg inspo

I’m down to 253.8 this morning. I was 257 on the 10th! That’s like 3 pounds in 5 days. Just gotta keep pushing

Stay safe my lovelies 💛

Ma’am 😭😭😭 to look like this

This is why I will be doing everything I can to get skinny 😪🫡 good luck to everyone and PLEASE be safe out here 💛

Oh to look anywhere near this good with this little clothing on 😭😪

✨ Decadence and Disorder ✨

IM OVER BEING FAT. I WAS AO HAPPY AROUND 190 AND YET IM BACK UP TO 260 WTF AM I DOING. THATS IT. IM GETTING BACK DOWN TO 190 IF IT KILLS ME.

My bmr is 1,972 calories a day. Okay. I Can eat less than that. Let’s fucking so this shit

✨I will be closer to my goal weight next month. And the month after. And the month after. Until I reach it. So mote it be✨

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Stay safe