I’m going dormant for a while. This way of pursuing weight loss is unhealthy, and I can’t do this to myself right now. I’ll be back off and on. Rooting for all of you, for healthy body image and eventual recovery. This isn’t a way of life.
This bl0g will be revived soon for general self improvement, academics, and a generally healthy lifestyle.
No shade to those struggling. I’ll be back. Love y’all (platonically).
I’m slowly beginning to accept the reality that 2007 was not last year but in fact almost four years ago
Reblog if you have accepted the reality that 2007 was not last year but was in fact almost four years ago
I AM SO FUCKING POWERFUL
MY NET IS 348 CALS FOR THE DAY
I FOLLOWED THROUGH ON MY SECOND ELLIPTICAL WORKOUT
I’m getting a zero sugar vitamin water for myself as a treat. It has no calories and will help my body recover.
I’m at the gym and I just did 35 minutes on the elliptical and according to the machine I burned 400cal, which means my new net for today is 872. I was going to do the treadmill for half an hour, but…it doesn’t burn much (172 for half an hour) so I’m going back on the elliptical for another half hour once I drink more water and catch my breath.
A net of 472 for the whole day…would be absolutely wonderful.
1280 cals today and 630 of them are from snacking because I was bored. My goal is still 1000 net maximum so I gotta put in the work at the gym tonight.
I will not p/urge today. I don’t want to do that ever again. I’d rather have my body hurt from working out so hard than puke.
I guess I’m finally doing this having an ed right
I ate nothing for five hours, begrudgingly ate a package of Pop Tarts and a snack size baggie of Cheez-Its, and now 20 minutes later my stomach is fucking cramping
Also I have to make and eat dinner because I don’t live alone but I’m also going to the gym shortly after so I’ll at least lose water weight
I hate the way my body looks and I hate the mental warfare of primal “you have to eat” and the societal “you’re only good if you’re skinny, why eat?”
🤷♀️
i must not afternoon nap. afternoon nap is the mind-killer. afternoon nap is the little death that brings total obliteration. i will face my afternoon sleepy tired and permit it to pass over and through me. and when it has gone i will turn the inner eye to see its path. where the afternoon sleepy tired has gone there will be nothing. only i will remain
I MUST NOT AFTERNOON NAP. AFTERNOON NAP IS THE MIND KILLER
I got the courage to p/urge. I know I didn’t get all of it out but I’m proud of myself for putting in the work to undo some damage.
I hated it though. I have to be more careful about my calories from now on. I never want to do that again.
I fucking ate too much
I didn’t eat anything ALL DAY and I was doing SO GOOD
Then it was all “what do you want for dinner?”
And I spent THIRTY FUCKING DOLLARS
On TACOS!!!!
Anaydheksusbsjshsnb
I’ll do better tomorrow. I’m not even going to log this one. This was such bullshit.
I was in control and then I blew it with my emotions and my eyes too big for my stomach and my emotional eating tendencies
Do better, fatass 🙄
Listening to Diet Coke by Leanna Firestone, choosing not to eat breakfast, staying in the car while my friend goes to get food, deciding not to eat food today unless it’s offered to me…I feel so powerful.
I have a 64oz water bottle. This is gonna be a fantastic day. I won’t be fat anymore if I keep this up. I can finally love myself.
jk I’m back lol
My favorite jeans barely fit and I fought for my life putting on a bra lol (afab)
I’m back again. I sure as shit can’t just leave. My body is too disgusting as it is
Taking a pause on this 4na shit. Life is hard enough as it is and I’m depriving myself of much needed energy. I still fucking hate my body but I hate my situation more
Job applications. Corporate “no”s are so passive aggressive. 😊😐✨💕🤞
I’m doing better today. Actually got the food I said I would get during lunch. Current net is 660 before dinner and whatever exercise I do later.
Today has just been awful all around. I nearly doubled my planned cals. Tomorrow is another day. I’ll be sure to ⭐️ve properly
Just did some grocery shopping. Way fewer calories in what I bought, also some meal replacement shakes. Hello rice cakes, my old friends. 😊
Maybe I can salvage the day if I play Just Dance for an hour. Depending on what I do it could burn 1,000 cals…ugh!!! Old habits die hard. I have to get this fast food situation under control.
I’ve been giving in to my cravings and laziness my whole life. That’s why I’m so huge to begin with. I’ll never reach my gw if I keep doing this…
No more excuses!!
Why can’t I follow my own damn plans
I’m at 1706 cals and it’s only noon 😭
anyway shoutout to the boy in middle school that told me I didn’t have visible collarbones because I’m a fatass. 🙃
