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HopeLessRomantic

@th3deadpoet

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I was supposed to be Your peace, and everything I did was just the opposite.
I was supposed to give you the world, but I destroyed yours instead.
You were supposed to feel safe, and I made you feel everything but.
I failed. Over and over again; I hurt you, I disappointed you.
I Love You. I always have, always will. You mean the world to me; to me you are the entire world
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Absolutely in Love with this woman.

I Love Her more than words could describe, or my words at least.

And I’ve done nothing but be the worst kind of person to her over and over again.

I Love You. I miss You. I just want to fix it all. I am going to fix it all.

And that starts with me..

This is the hardest thing I’ve set out to do, but I have no choice..only wish I could’ve figured it out much sooner. Because for You, My Love, I would move mountains with my bare hands
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Most of all I miss going to the movies together and sneaking all the food and snacks in
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I pretend it’s all okay with me, but I miss this woman more than anything
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Everyday I feel like things may be getting better ❤️‍🩹 but there is always something that reminds me that things never will be better..
Hard to find the words, but I came pretty close earlier..
I never imagined I could miss one person and all the feelings so damn much
I was never one to believe in the idea of a soulmate, but I fear I’ve met and lost mine..
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I Miss My babygirl..

The both of them.

My Heart Aches.

I feel so Empty all the time man..

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Exactly How She’s Making Me Feel Lately.
I wish I could have a conversation with Her. At least hear from Her. This is unfair. She makes me wanna sleep all the time, or die. I’d welcome either one right now.
Never imagined someone could make me hate myself so damn much
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Really haven’t smiled or laughed since she left me. My anxiety has come back, even worse than it was before. Now the anxiety has me throwing up; and now I can’t even keep food down. My appetite has all but, disappeared.

I really hate what I did to the love of my life. I really hate myself. I’m so sorry. I don’t think I’ll ever recover from this fuck up.

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“Be careful what you say to someone today. Tomorrow they might not be here, and you can’t ever take it back.”

— Unknown

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Really ended up in the hospital..over a damn woman..and this is the only place I’d admit it.

My ancestors are looking down, truly laughing and having a ball about how weak I am.

I just hope it doesn’t turn into an overnight stay..

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Realized I haven’t cooked a single thing since I made this woman break my heart and lost my daughter.

Really have lost everything, including the will to live and all my inspiration.

I really am dead inside.

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I hope and I pray that you won’t hate me someday

‘cuz I can’t do this. I have been so empty since you’ve left. Only thing inside me is sadness and hopelessness. I am just going through the motions, I have been for months.

I just want to be better, but it’s not looking good so far. It’s pretty bleak actually; and the sweet release of Death(or Her cousin Sleep) are the only things that entice my attention lately.

Forever a sad and lonely boy

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I thought I could be strong enough.

I was wrong.

I wanted to hold on to something, anything. But there is nothing.

I just wanted to hear your voice one more time maybe, but I see now that was never an option.

I wasn’t strong enough, and I don’t think I ever was.

Goodbye cruel world, I was never meant to be here this long.

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Wrote a letter to my mom and i’m not sure what it means. Or what I’m doing. Want (or need?) it to be out there somewhere…

There is no honor in what i’ve done to desecrate my soul and body..

im sorry for whatever these actions of mine cause you and everybody else. but i’ve been a shitty person for far too long. holding on and burying all of this pain and hurt. i never knew how to deal with any of it. this world is a cruel one and i did nothing to make it any better for anyone. i was never strong enough to persevere, that’s never been more clear. and im so sorry, you never raised me to be this way. im hoping to find peace with my final act. i hope it doesn’t look too ugly. i’ve known for a very long time where my soul was bound to be in the next life. i accepted i was going to burn for eternity a long time ago. i know now more than ever, every action has a consequence, no matter how long it may take. we reap what we sow. and now i willingly am laying in the bed i’ve made. please burn the body and do what you think is best with the ashes. im sorry to leave without a proper goodbye.