still healing from things I don’t speak about
the other day my grandma told me, “when you and him are fighting, you both need to remember that it’s you two vs. the problem, not you vs. him.” and that hit me hard
I hope you all fall in love with someone who never stops choosing you and I hope you feel at home when you look at them
“Every person I’ve ever loved has some how become toxic to me. A living, breathing reminder of why I was always better off alone. I love too hard, too quickly and then sometimes I don’t love enough. I guess I’m just bad at love.”
— Kristie Betts (via wordsnquotes)
My coffees steam is glowing In the morning light, Drifting upwards as it dissipates, A physical embodiment of my thoughts, Concentrated at first, But quickly losing their figure Until they completely evanesce. -Tem
Hanif Kureishi (via lazypacific)
"This rum burns my lips, The ones you used to kiss. I can only hope the alcohol will sterilize, Any part of me you may have left a trace. Which is why I pour it within, So it'll flood my internal chambers, Killing the feelings you left inside." -Tem
"I drink too much, Or so you used to tell me, But tonight's just another night Where I'm a little wine drunk And missing you like hell." -Tem
self-destruction doesn’t always look like taking too many pills or cutting your skin open. sometimes it’s drinking coffee when you know caffeine gives you panic attacks. sometimes it’s crossing the street without looking both ways. sometimes it’s showering with the water a little too hot. sometimes it’s avoiding eye contact with your reflection in the mirror or ridiculing your problems rather than addressing them. sometimes it’s walking out without sunscreen in scorching heat and not wearing enough when it’s freezing out. self destruction isn’t always physical mutilation, mostly it’s masked as little things so never assume what someone may be going through just bc they don’t show you visible signs of suffering.
Perhaps our separation, Creates perspective of what we desire more, Dysfunctional love together Or functional misery apart. I guess neither option seems preferable But I can't help but imagine, what we could've been -Tem

