I hate that I can’t sleep and you’re still on my mind :(
You started to send me a msg and my stomach dropped idk if you meant to do that but it worked 😭
I dislike how after this long, and after all I’ve done to prevent being upset at this kinda think after inadvertently seeing a PICTURE of you puts me into a panic attack and I hope it’s anger fueled. >.>.>.>
I genuinely think you can do better, and not just as me wanting to be with you. But I’ve seen how different you act now and its scaring me /.\ I’ve put a lot of thought into it and having about a year to myself has helped me realize how much you mean to me, regardless on how little we speak now.
Me not thinking it would go through. Was a crack at me wanting to talk to you, hidden by grief. Isolated now, I hate it.
Maaaaan I wish you’d talk to me again you only committed mass sin w ya mans 😒 I know I’m good at fuckin stuff up but c’mon really?
I was thinking about some things and I know I told you I diddnt want to break up, and ou told me maybe one day in the future, and then at one point you told me basically if I begged you do take me back in the past you would have, and that right their is FUCKED You said you’d always love me but you’ve already found your new toy to fix 🤷🏻♀️ it’s funny how I thought you actually cared at one point.
Yoooo I just thought about what it might be like if you and I had a child and I started crying out of joy what a trip
This really hurt to find but then I smiled and it’s going In the box with the rest of the stuff :)