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nothing safe is worth the drive. xviii. she/her. enfj-t.

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.

no but hear me out because after reading greywaren, maggie’s decision of calling adam adam takes on so much symbolism. ronan is 50% an otherworldly eldritch-terror-like being and we see that the entities and creatures from the other world love humanity so much. and what is adam if not the first human? what is ronan’s love for adam if not this other world’s love for humanity? a magic world that loves humanity as much as humanity (adam) loves magic. if i think about the implications and symbols of adam’s name for more than five seconds i go INSANE istg

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

i need all the help i can get for finals

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Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

what is a love story if not falling to your knees and pressing your shaking hands to his wound, as if the desperation of your heart could stem the blood pumping out of his; and what is a love story if not holding out a sticky-sweet handful of death to the greedy cameras; and what is a love story if not your one wish being to send her home, with all the reasons why hanging golden around your neck like a willingly-worn noose; and what is a love story if not hitching yourself to the puppet strings of politicians in a last ditch attempt to save each other across the miles; and what is a love story if not the ever- unspoken mantra “take my life: take it, take it, take it” — and what is a love story if not the burned and blistered realization that offering up your life is not enough, not quite, but that offering your lover’s life back to them might just be? so you plant her primroses in the ash, and you mend his mind with the thread of new memories, and it isn’t pretty, but it is a love story — because what else could it be?

and what is romance if not feeling your heart, bird-like, stop to listen to her song; and what is romance if not writing his name next to the image of a springtime blossom in the scrapbook of your secret sentiments; and what is romance if not seeking her out in the dark briar-tangle of her thoughts, if not holding her until she sleeps again; and what is romance if not catching a glimpse of the blue world sunk fathoms deep in his eyes and wanting to swim in it; and what is romance if not slipping a sea jewel from your fingers to hers, a tiny star she’ll keep in her pocket for as long as she is bereft of you; and what is romance if not remembering her favorite color; and what is romance if not remembering how he takes his tea; and what is romance if not the simple trust that when he says it will be okay, it will be; and what is romance if not five, ten, fifteen years of cradling a dream in the sanctuary of your hopes until both of you decide the world is safe enough for you to cradle that dream in your arms?

[pictured is a screenshot from a cartoon of two small dogs running side by side. tied to them are sticks, with a sign connecting them. the sign reads, “i hope you get good news on something you’ve been waiting on. you deserve it”]

Anonymous asked:

did you change your url?

i did change my url multiple times i used to be a lot of things but hi im clara i have a multifandom blog focused on shadowhunters, aftg, trc and other bajillion things ( i also had a hp phase) so yes

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Top 3 Merlin episodes:

  • the one where uther returns as a ghost JUST to tell Arthur he wasn’t proud of him and to call Merlin slurs
  • the one where all the men are put under a spell to fall in love with this evil girl but it doesn’t affect Merlin because he’s.........magic ;)
  • Tasteful fade to black sex scene where uther fucks a troll
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Honorable mentions: the episode where gwaine had to go to himbo prison and do shirtless arena fights and the episode where gwaine had to go to himbo prison and do shirtless mining and he also fucked an alien

Lockwood: Nothing good comes from letting people in.

Also Lockwood: *gives Lucy his childhood room* *tells Lucy he wants her to be a part of his dreams for the agency like 4 hours after meeting her* *fights for her to have a place in the agency* *intentionally tries to share the spotlight with her (unfortunately against her wishes)* *gives Lucy a necklace that clearly means a lot to him* *brags to everyone who will listen about how amazing she is* *prepares and gives her toast unprompted* *looks at her like he never wants to look at anything BUT her* *checks in with her to make sure she's okay in the middle of cases and suggests they step back if she needs a minute* *holds Lucy's hand* *holds Lucy's hand* *holds Lucy's hand* *holds Lucy's hand* *hol-

My hottake is that people are trying to fit Lockwood into character archetypes he doesn't fit, because they see "traumatized teen boy with a big ego and a passive death wish" and go "oh. emotionally unavailable asshole character" when that's.....not actually the character we're shown.

He's constantly praising Lucy and George. He's often the first one to try and apologize when he gets into a fight with them. The second he clocks Lucy as a "safe person" he becomes super touchy and holds her hand constantly. He compliments George's cooking. He's visibly proud of the people he cares about and publicly defends them on multiple occasions. He repeatedly asks his team if they're okay and tries to get them to open up when they're having issues. He makes an obvious, conscious effort to repeatedly tell Lucy he believes in her and wants her to stay at Portland Row. He smiles and jokes and laughs around with them on a pretty regular basis. He's also emotionally aware enough to tell Lucy "the reason I haven't talked about this subject with you is because it's relevant my childhood, which I don't like to talk about because it's pretty traumatic" when she questions him ahout Jessica's door, and he's kind of astonishingly open about his trauma with Lucy and George despite generally being unwilling to actually talk about the details.

And this applies to characters other than Lucy and George, too. He compliments Kipps' team during the graveyard fight and clearly respects Flo, for example. He's kind to Winkman's son, is generally polite to his clients, and is affected by the death of the undercover agent to the point of having a panic attack. It's pretty clear he cares deeply about the people around him even as he tries to push those closest to him away so they won't mourn him if (when) he dies.

Like yeah, Lockwood has an ego the size of Manhattan, has enough trauma to fill a boat, and is worryingly flippant about the worth of his own life, but he's not the Asshole With a Heart of Gold archetype. He's not cruel or deliberately mean (at least, not to anyone who's not Kipps). He's friendly and pretty kind to most people most of the time, and he openly cares about his team. And it's a little weird that I'm seeing so many people talk about him like he's not.

I am BEGGING, from the depths of my heart, for people to watch Lockwood and Co this week.

This week determines whether we’ll get a renewal. IM BEGGING people to watch it; PLEASE let this be the show that breaks the Netflix curse. PLEASE let this be the show that EXCELLED despite Netflix not promoting it.

It’s a story of found family, three teens who would live and die for each other, who are all lost until they find one another. And they hunt ghosts. I MEAN COME ON 😭🙏

The part I appreciate the most in the Lockwood and Co show is how it handles depression and suicidal thoughts in teenagers. As a theme, it’s not often (ever) done well. Lockwood and Co is the only story I can think of that depicts it in a nuanced, realistic, non-romanticized way

but first, before I get into it: [if you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to and don’t want to/can’t use your national hotline, highly recommend Samaritans, genuinely saved my life] okay, let’s go

Lockwood is the most obvious, with his general disregard for his own life and admitted suicidal ideation. Lucy struggles with her self-worth and the intensity of the emotions she’s subjected to. George worries that he doesn’t belong, that there’s something useless or wrong about him. The show depicts these thoughts and feelings in a way that isn’t overblown or dramatized, it’s all but casual. Which is how it happens. Depression or suicidal thoughts don’t crash into you all at once, they creep into your life without you noticing

But more importantly (and again, something I’ve never seen anywhere else), the show also offers counterpoints to those thoughts and feelings. It shows that there is a way out, even though you may feel trapped and hopeless. This is crucial for the show’s target demographic. Bad media depictions of depression or suicide get internalized, contribute to the stigma, and make it harder for people to ask for help. This show doesn’t do that. This show tells its audience that, yes, things are scary and painful and it fucking sucks, but it’s not hopeless. And it says it so well

In the second episode, when Lucy wants to quit, she admits something that I’m almost certain she’s never told anyone

“sometimes I just think I’d be better off dead”

And when I watched this the first time, I expected Lockwood to react the way I’ve seen people react in my own life; with silence or panic or downright dismissal. But he didn’t. He stays calm and he says something that is so so important to hear when you’re struggling under the weight of feelings like this

“I understand that”