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@tahbita

The girl that has everything but feels nothing .
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tahbita
“I still have all of these messages, and sometimes I go through and read them and it shocks my entire system because we were once so happy and it makes me sick to think about how fast it all went to shit. I have all of these memories and what am I suppose to do with them. I can’t grasp the idea that a person I grew to love is willing to throw away and go back on all the promises they ever made to me. I have to live with the concept that I wasn’t enough for you. I have to watch you be happy without me and try my very best to be happy along with you.”

— (via sadandraddreams)

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In the darkest shadows of my mind, I am trapped.

I have given up looking for a way out or finding a source of light.

A person can only manage through so much turmoil before they cave.

Before they let the darkness seep into every pore.

Before they lose themselves.

Who have I become?

What am I without this desolation?

I can’t remember the person I was before the clouds buried the sun.

I don’t remember the version of myself that smiled just because I was alive.

Where did she go?

I fear I’ve lost her for good.

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There is this hole in my chest no one can fill except me, but how can I when I have nothing to offer, not even for myself?

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

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It would be so much better if I wouldn‘t be here. I‘m a burden, a problem no one fucking needs me. I‘m weak and fail at everything. I don‘t know where the point is. I can‘t to this anymore. It‘s all too much. I hate myself for everything. I wish I was never born. It hurts so to write this but I have never been so low in my life.
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It‘s so weird. Everything is fine and I could laugh about your joke but at the same everything seems so wrong and all I want to do is stay in bed all day. There is so much pain inside of me but I can‘t explain it. I’m not an ungrateful person I mean I’m glad I have a roof over me and loving family and friends but I feel like I don’t belong here. I feel like everyone is just tolerating me but no one really needs me. I feel like I‘m a burden to them. I feel I’m a disappointment. I feel like a nobody. I feel like dying. Whenever I try something why do I fail so often? Sometimes I can‘t even look in the mirror.
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fakenasty

actually sleeping with someone is so nice like waking up in the middle of the night and snuggling closer or lazily giving them a kiss or just feeling their arms around you squeeze slightly even though they’re in a deep sleep or handholding while you both are asleep ugh that’s that shit I like

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luckymlmb

i hate when you miss someone but you doubt that they miss you so you just kinda exist in that space of not wanting to bother them, but wanting to talk to them and see them because you miss them and enjoy their presence so in the end you just kinda stay silent and hope they maybe miss you too

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soothingmask1

Keep your goals and news to yourself no matter how little or big. You speak too soon and it’ll all go downhill. Trust me on this. People are out there waiting to give you the evil eye. Manifest your success in silence, let your results speak for themselves. No one can touch you once you’ve accomplished what you desired.

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s-unberry
“You see him kissing this new girl and you want to fucking die because the way he’s holding her is the way he held you and you know he doesn’t even think about you anymore and you know you shouldn’t care because he fucked you over and you don’t love him anymore but it still fucking hurts and you know he doesn’t love her you’ve seen him with so many girls since you were with him but it still doesn’t hurt any less. And you try to convince yourself you’re over him but you catch yourself drinking his favorite alcohol trying to taste him again.”

— (via jessielou24)

Holy shit

(via n4ughty-y)

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justhurtingalot

Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings