Show me all of your scars. Your tattoos and tell me their stories. Tell me why you wanted to run away when you where sixteen and why you can’t listen to that song anymore. Tell me about the things you wished for as a kid and your favorite part of the book you love. Tell me about your past crushes and why you can’t fall asleep with the lights on. What were you afraid of? what were you proud of? whats the best that someone could do with you. what’s your favorite road and what corners of the city make you thing about old memories. When did you drink for the first time, who did you kiss? I want to know all parts of you that most people skip fast forward. Tell me who you are and why.
I saw that ur requests are open and wanted to ask if you could write a headcanon or co. about wakatoshi and iwaizumi (separately) who have a really really horny fem or g/n s/o. (I hope this makes sense and that you are comfortable writing this if not that's ok :) )
i’m 12/10 comfortable writing this. thanks for your request :)
personally I don’t think he has the highest sex drive because he is constantly thinking about vball, school stuff and training
I mean yeah this boi is blunt but has to be an A+ student to be the vball captain of Shiratorizawa
You’ll often sneak behind his desk when he’s about to do his homework, trailing your fingers over the crook of his neck while watching him write
h o w can a human being look so hot while they are just sitting around studying? it’s a fucking miracle how his muscle shift even with those small movements
toshi knows that you are needy sometimes and he actually doesn’t mind, he likes you, he likes sex. where is the problem?
tbh I think it’s quite good that you start the sexual things because of his low sex drive???
if there’s a important test coming up and he actually has to study he will tell you and you happily accept it because you know he’ll make up for that ♥
he get’s turned on so easily. even if you wear shorts that are a little bit tighter than the usual he’s like “damn”, biting his lip because you look so delicious
you love to tease him because 9/10 times this leads to rough sex. and I don’t mean sex like sex, I mean some good oldschool fucking where you both are covered in sweat afterwards, out of breath and just stare at each other and silently ask yourself if that just happened and how much you love each other and that probably leads to round 2
this man knows how to handle you in bed or against a wall OR WHERE EVER so well it’s like god gave him the manual for you and god damn can we just admit that iwa is a good boyfriend in general THANK YOU amen
it turns him on so much that you are as horny as you are, it get’s him going
but let’s be honest my friends, for iwa it’s not just about the sex. it’s about you as a person. I imagine that iwa could never have sex with a person that he is not comfortable around or in love with. theres a difference betweet sex and making love. and iwa wants to make LOVE
Hogwarts was home, Not anymore. J.K wrote these books and her bullshit is littered throughout. This isn’t something we can slap a meme on anymore, Daniel Radcliffe didn’t write these books, Harry Potter “doesn’t have an author”. A TERF wrote thosr books. Its incredibly problematic to deny it anymore.
Catra, from the sofa next to Adora: Hey can you close the blinds? The light hurts my eyes Scorpia, on her way out the door: Who are you talking to? Catra: You? Literally who else would I be talking to? Scorpia, remembering that Adora is deaf: Ohhhhhh yeaaahhh
When you want a specific person, their scent, their presence, their touch, their kiss, their smile, their eyes, their hands in yours, their body on yours. When you want one fucking person, just to feel them, even for a tiny little moment, but you can’t. It literally hurts you even physically, you just feel this painful longing all over your body. Your chest is filled with a burning yearning and you can’t do anything about it. You just wait, wait and wait while being consumed with this painful aching. It feels like your body will explode by repressing all this intense longing for someone.
You are the light of my life and the best part of my day. I have a hard time explaining how much I love you, but I just want you to know that you are an angel. You’re mine and I refuse to let anyone or anything take you away from me. I’ll do whatever I can.
i am slightly gayer for janai because her character design is my favourite in the whole show and she’s a sword gay whereas amaya is a shield gay; that being said, this is the gayest amaya screencap be still my beating heart
also janai is my 2nd favourite minor character and while i don’t know where amaya falls ranking wise every time she’s on screen it’s a delight, so. one day i will write that meta about them i keep meaning to because even in a short amount of screentime they really are such a well developed pair with so much room to grow and i do have a lot of thoughts and feelings about it. i also feel very strongly about them having cats (one the big fire cat and one a small ordinary one) and happily ruling queen lux aurea together. and a couple of oneshots i want to write someday soon 👀
however sometimes i struggle with having inspiration/motivation to do jana.ya related projects bc of…. (and this got long and if you think it’s too long sucks to be you sweetie)
now, i’m sure that 98% of janai/amaya shippers are lovely, amazing people. and i’m not saying that the handful of shippers and their more general attitude that i dislike belongs to people who aren’t. i’m sure they’re great people! that just… isn’t reflected online. this is just what personally bothers me.
the three issues i’m going to talk about also aren’t unique to the jan.aya corner either - also see it in some hardcore vi.ren stan corners and in other fandoms past. it may exist elsewhere in tdp fandom and i just don’t know (i curate the content i see heavily bc it’s my responsibility to handle my own online experience, so i’m surprised any of this even got through) but it is where i have seen it the most in the past, so:
1) consistent complaining. have you ever had a friend, or known a person, who complains about everything? even the things they’re supposed to like or say they enjoy? enough is never enough. and you can see this bias in particular because people will complain about things are either nonsensical (ie. the novelization not being written to your standards even tho you are 100% not the age demographic for it) or just being angry about things that aren’t true (i had it pointed out to me that someone complained about tdp’s head writer not doing a BLM livestream and like. she did. what are you doing with your life?)
and in fandom, this is a really counterproductive attitude to have. like, i have been in fandoms and watched legit core main characters be sidelined. i have been in fandoms where my ship didn’t get any screentime and wasn’t canon and wasn’t even popular fanon wise either. and they were het ships. and guess what? i didn’t complain, because i knew the story didn’t revolve around that relationship. i measured my expectations appropriately and learned to work with what i was given and i had a good time. you don’t always have to be angry.
and that’s not to say you can’t complain in fandom. that’s kinda what i’m doing right now! there are definitely things in fandom and canon for any material that can and should be called out. but like, if for some good reason, callum and rayla had completely separate arcs in s4 and barely had any screentime together next season, i’d be okay with it because i actually like/love everything else in the story. i’d learn to make it work. i didn’t complain. i’ve worked with otps that were just as big for me on even less.
and this is just general like. if you spend over 50% of your time in a fandom being angry, you either need to channel your energy differently or you need to leave. they’re fictional characters. you’re a real person. it’s not worth it.
2) entitlement + superiority complexes. but from what i’ve seen, what a lot of this complaining stems from isn’t expectations, but entitlement. it’s the expectation that someone has to conform to whatever it is that you want because clearly, that’s the best content, and if they don’t, that’s a moral failing. and usually this is wrapped up into some kind of “wokeness”. janai/amaya are tdp’s best couple in terms of representation, no doubt. it’s something i’ve ever seen before, of a wlw interracial relationship between two women of colour, one of whom is also deaf. but that doesn’t actually mean they’re the best couple in the show, because that doesn’t exist. because there is no Best™ - there’s just your favourite, and that’s entirely subjective.
but people want to feel good, and want to feel in control. that’s why i see this sort of entitlement most commonly in queer ships online by queer people, and i can see the routes of overcompensation it stems, because i’ve lived it. i’m queer too. and not only does it lead to a lot of asshole behaviour, but it’s also really isolating. there’s already a lot of issues with gatekeeping within the community, which boil down to people not being “gay” or “insert [x thing] here” enough, and not only is that one hell of a shitty feeling, but it can and absolutely exacerbated in fandom. how many times have you seen things of “maybe the hets do have rights ;)” or “i like this character too much so they have to bi” - how do you think that makes queer people who for whatever reason mostly have m/f ships feel? how do you think that makes people in “straight appearing relationships” like for trans straight people, enby couples, bi/pan/ace people, etc., feel? how do you think it makes bi people feel to know their identity is a consolation prize awarded to an otherwise straight character so they can be part of a same sex ship? what blind spots are you developing, such as actually talking about race in fandom which is still a massive topic and under-addressed issue, by privileging gender and ‘queer rep’ above all else?
if you honestly think an interracial m/f relationship between two cis characters doesn’t matter as much on a representational axis as two white same sex characters being in a relationship, then you actually need to re-evaluate. and then you need to remember that people ship dynamic over gender any day. if you make a purpose to consume diverse media, you’ll probably have more diverse ships. but unless someone doesn’t ship a queer ship specifically because it’s queer, then it’s not homophobia, and it’s not homophobic for people to share other fictional avenues in a fanon space with each other.
3) anti shipping & fandom policing. the jan.aya corner is the only corner i see in the tdp fandom that has what we call antis. and before anyone gets up in arms about any of that (although realistically, if this bothers you, you’ve probably have already been bothered) read this post and then come back. there’s a lot more links to posts that have said it better than i ever could on their way.
also keep in mind that i am an english major. i am getting a degree in how literature across like, the past 600+ years is discussed and how it impacts culture is literally what i write university level essays on and i’m an honours student.
antis believe that there’s a certain moral standard we have to hold all media, included those that are created by teenagers for free on the internet to certain moral standards. often that certain ships are inherently problematic no matter the au or fanwork, or that characters being child soldiers are okay but if fictional teenagers think about sex? incorrigible. not only does any of this hold up under a microscope when you think about the purposes of fiction, exploration of the human condition, and more posts here, here, here, here, and HERE. if you only read one of these, have it be the last one.
but because of this type of fandom policing, i was a questioning queer 16 year old who was called a homophobic pedophile by adults on the internet for which two fictional characters i thought would be cute together. that is not an exaggeration. that is literally what happened to me. i was a teenager being told by complete strangers what was okay or safe for me to look at it and none of them wondered how i was supposed to develop critical thinking skills, learn to cope with upsetting things in fiction that is decidedly a safer place to do so before i had to cope with upsetting things in real life, or the fact that sometimes, it really isn’t that deep and people do just want to have fun. by all means, disagree with me. i want you to think for yourself.
and yeah, those people at the time didn’t know i was a minor. i’ve been very private about my personal information, including my age, online until very recently. but you cannot tell me those people were entitled to my age or any of my personal information to determine whether i was worthy of respect in order for me to able to write fucking fanfiction for a children’s cartoon show without having my entire morality put on the line.
and the main reason why i hate seeing so many teenagers in particular be antis is because it forces them into a dangerous mindset that they have to share private, sensitive information about themselves in order to avoid harassment. that they feel shame for their preferences or ideas they want to explore in fiction, the shame that used to be given to people for their edgy Mary Sues, the people that are probably going through shit and don’t even know it and are trying work through it. you are not entitled to anyone’s personal information online. ever. especially people who will be hostile to you, otherwise, if you don’t give it.
as someone who almost doubled majored in european history, and i know a lot of you are coming from a similar western background, current anti rhetoric and purity culture are like, three steps away from samuel johnson and puritan culture. and i would much, much rather have teenas writing smut about characters that are or they’ve made their age to explore that side of themselves in a safe place than have them engaging in sex themselves where there are actual fucking risks.
this is not to say that no fanon material is ever worthy of critique or concern. racism should be called out. actual transphobia and homophobia should be called out. but let’s be honest: that’s not actually the conversation want to have.
antis want to stick their heads up their asses and argue that characters are frozen in time at a certain age (say 15 and 17 respectively) and if you dare picture them in their 30s and write smut of them then you are a terrible person who’s going to hurt “the children” even though you could easily be one of those “children” yourself and game of thrones fucking exists for mass consumption. but no. your enjoyment of something that’s ultimately harmless is the hill they wanna die on.
anyway some more sections from other posts i agree with:
just realized the intersection of aphobia and purity culture, namely the aphobic claim that children and teens can’t/shouldn’t be thinking about sex and therefore can’t be asexual LINK
Antis have never once, to my knowledge, come up with a reasonable test for whether a work is “romanticizing” or “fetishizing” a topic, or treating it “properly”. They aren’t able to say how they’d ban “bad” works without also banning real, vital, and necessary works that let people recognize and talk about abuse and assault. We NEED to shift the conversation from getting rid of “bad” works to learning how to recognize, find, and create “good” ones.) LINK
“A blogging community of people who all grew up in conservative, christian America claim their hatred of deviant sexual interests has, quote, ‘nothing to do with all that’ […] Some bloggers reported that bullying was “actually okay” because the people bullied were all “weird and freaks”, some even added “they are looking for it, they deserve it”. None replied to the accusation of victim-blaming with words that had been previously used against them” LINK
We can have conversations about patterns we see in fanworks. We can discuss how we portray characters and relationships, how to effectively convey what we want to in writing, how to sensitively approach representations of marginalized characters. But having those conversations productively requires that we approach each other in good faith, and it requires the ability to self-regulate–including recognizing that often there is no hard line, no black and white answer, and we won’t always come to the same conclusions.
It requires an understanding up front that eliminating all fanworks we don’t care for is not the end goal of these conversations.
If you are deliberately seeking out content that you know will upset you and reading it anyway and then feeling that you need to take those bad feelings out on the creator, you are not taking care of yourself. You are not engaging in healthy behavior or productive coping mechanisms. You are not keeping yourself safe, and you are not helping to make fandom safer for others. You are not engaging in good faith. LINK
and last but not least
And again: a lot of this is about a general fandom attitude that exists online, not necessarily specifically about jan.aya, and 99% of jan.aya shippers are lovely amazing talented people. even the ones who get on my nerves are all those good things too.
but these are the things i hate in fandom that i don’t like to see, and this is where i see it, and this is my experience. take it or leave it.
Me duele llorarte, desgarrarme el corazón por cosas que tu hiciste, también odio arrastrarme por el suelo sintiendo el dolor de un perdón que no debí dar yo.
Me duele tu indiferencia de la mañana, cuando en la noche anterior de desvivi por hacerte feliz. Me duele mi corazón, mi cabeza, las emociones, se van batiendo en ese licuado que llamamos corazón, creemos que solo sirve para bombear sangre, pero lo que no saben es que también bombea sentimientos.
I don’t think you’ve ever gotten a letter before (or you did) because letters are out of fashion but I love writing them and this one is for you. Especially for you.
If you’re reading this, which I hope you are and if you’re struggling with something heavy as depression, mental disease, burdons, heartbreak or anything that pulls you deep into the depths of the darkness, I want to tell you that as much as you feel alone, you are not. You are not alone.
You are special. You are special. And you are so special but even if you’re saying right now that I don’t know what I’m talking about and that you are not special, I will continue to disagree. You are special but you’re going through hard times and that’s okay because in those times, you have to push yourself, like push so hard off those grounds that you keep sinking in and stand up.
Why? Because life gets better and you grow stronger but you only grow stronger if you push yourself to think positively, to hope, to dream. It gets disappointing, I know when you don’t get what you hope and dream. It gets disappointing when people don’t even care or listen or try for you. It makes you feel alone, depressed, sad, heartbroken but man… life can bring you shit but it’s your choice to accept it or move past it.
It feels like you don’t have a choice. It feels like that you’ve been given that and that is what you will always be given or thrown at but it’s not true. People make you believe that you deserve what they gave you but let me ask you: What have you given yourself? Something good? Something bad?
Getting up, again after so many falls and heartbreaks, whether those come from love, family or friends is hard but staying up? That’s harder. That is the hardest thing to do because you have to look your life in the eyes and choose and that choice is damn hard because it throws you choices of who should stay in your life and who shouldn’t. And you know who shouldn’t and who should but you love them and letting go of those people? That’s hard. Keeping yourself from them… it’s hard. Loving yourself… that’s hard too because sometimes loving yourself get’s lonely.
It really takes time. It may feel lonely but it’s better. You’re used to having toxins around you.
And as much as you hate, despise and dread to hear this: You have to change your attitude towards life to want to change your life because people and surroundings and politics and school systems… they won’t change for you.
It’s so hard. I know. You’re probably saying it’s not possible but it is. It takes so much time. It took me four years to get here, to realize this, to finally just break the chains, to get rid of toxic people and toxic situation and my negative perspective on life, my attitude, my waiting for everything around me to change. It brings you up and down like a rollecoster ride. Even when you are healing, you can still have extremely bad days when you cry but you gotta squeeze and push. You gotta do the hardest part; stay up. You don’t stop the process of healing just becuase you don’t feel like it.
Change your attitude, change your life.
Stop. Breathe. Think. Take a second perspective.
It’s okay if you’re not ready yet. If you’re not strong enough but take it slow. Take one thought of the day. Think instead feel and then feel it. Your mind is the most powerful energy in your life. You can’t stop bad things from happening to you but you can learn how to overcome them and once you start sending positive and good energy to the universe, the universe or God or whoever, whatever you belive it will bring it back to you. Maybe in small amounts but those small can be just as strong.
Don’t listen to people. Listen to yourself. Not your anxiety because anxiety are insecurities people, media, politics,… force inside your head. Fear is an illusion, future is not here yet, past is over. It’s you and your mind. It’s what you allow to go inside of you. You control your actions, you control your mind. Strengthen it. Love it.
Step by step. Thought by thought. Day by day. Slow progress is still pogress.
Whatever you do, stay up.
I love you.
If you ever need somebody to listen, I’ve got two good pair of ears and eyes. I won’t be there to tell you what to do, only listen and advise you if you want an advice.
I love you. Now go be an amazing human you are meant to be <3
Fuck all reylos hoping that John being outspoken about racism will actually ruin his career because of a stupid ship. You’ve all been desperate for him to have no career because he dared say he thinks reylo sucks.
John being angry and outspoken shouldn’t mean he might not get cast again by Hollywood. He’s right to be angry. He’s right to be outspoken. He’s right to vent his feelings.
If I see any of you cheering the fact that he said he might not have a career after this then fuck you for being part of the problem
Netflix’s You had probably one of the most accurate representations of an acid trip i’ve ever seen in film and TV. Replicating it is hard, given the pure obscurity and individuality unique to everyone that trips, but god they did it surprisingly well.