Imagine Ed walking away from Oswald and as he gets farther away, the adrenaline he had with Oswald starts to slowly drift away. That’s when he realized no one really made him feels alive like Oswald did. Not even his drug induced hallucinations gave him the same thrill.
There isn’t a single thing in the world that can convince me that Locus didn’t know exactly who Felix was. To a tee. So well that he understands Felix’s reactions, motivations, and body language. That he knows what Felix is going to do when he does that particular little nod, what he’s feeling when he rolls his shoulders a certain way, and what he means with that subtle huff of breath. Locus is quiet and observant, and he’s built a thorough, detailed map and understanding of Felix in his entirety.
It takes a girl player to turn a regular guy into a player.. It takes someone to hurt them so bad that it turns them into the way they are now.. In the beginning, every guy wants a girl, every guy wants someone to call them their girlfriend.. But once they’re hurt by the one that they care so much for, it all changes from there.. They see girls totally different now and they get more insecure about a relationship.. They don’t trust girls easily and they are afraid of getting hurt again.. It’s a chain reaction.
I saw Inside Out today and it hit me really hard. (Spoiler warning).
I feel like it portrayed depression really well. Depression isn’t necessarily about feeling sad, it’s about your feelings just not working properly. You don’t feel the right things at the right time or worse, you just don’t feel anything at all.
And everyone is just telling you to be happy. To feel happy again. But what people forget is that in order to be happy, sometimes you just need to let yourself be sad for a while.
In order for Riley to be happy again in the movie, in order for her to move away from her depression, Joy Had to stand back and let Sadness “restart” her feelings so to speak.
So as someone who’s been through it and someone who knows, if you’re depressed, or you know someone who’s depressed, allow them to be sad. Welcome sadness. Because it’s only with sadness that you can truly move on to joy.
This is just me here saying my classic line… Your feelings are legitimate, good and bad. Feel what you have to feel, because trying to be happy all time, it just doesn’t work.
Edythe Eyde, better
known as her pen name Lisa Ben, was born on this day in 1921. She was a
literary editor, publisher, and musician who created the very first known
lesbian publication in America – Vice Versa – which was printed and distributed
in the 1940s.
Edythe was born on November 7,
1921 in San Francisco, California. She was an only child and grew up on an
apricot farm in the rural town of Frement Township, California. Her love of
music began as a young child when she entered violin lessons, which she would
take for 8 years. Although she would not become aware of the word lesbian until
well into her adulthood, Edythe had her first relationship with another girl
when she was in high school. Heartbroken after her girlfriend broke off the relationship,
Edythe attempted to open up to her mother, but her mother reacted poorly to the news that Edythe had been in love with another girl. The event
effectively ruined any personal connection Edythe had previously had with her
Edythe Eyde, c. 1950s. Lisa Ben Papers. ONE Archives at the USC Libraries (x).
After three years of saving up
money and two years of taking secretarial courses at her parents’ insistence,
Edythe finally left the nest and moved to Palo Alto. She would not stay in Palo
Alto for long and eventually moved to Los Angeles in 1945. Finally in a city
with an active gay and lesbian community, Edyth first learned the word lesbian and began identifying as so in 1946. She discovered that there were
several other lesbians living in her apartment complex and she had soon found
herself a close-knit group of friends. While working as a secretary at RKO Studios,
Edythe’s boss told her that it was important for her to look busy at all times.
In need of something to keep her fingers busy, Edythe began typing Vice Versa.
A friend photographs Edythe after visiting an ice cream struck in 1950 (x).
A fun passion project for Edythe,
she initially just distributed Vice Versa
around to her close friends, but she soon began mailing copies to her
long-distance friends and even passing them out to the patrons of the lesbian club, If Club. She personally wrote and published nine issues of Vice Versa from 1947
to 1948. She eventually lost her secretary job at RKO when the company went under and was forced to take on a new
job that left her with no free time to continue creating Vice Versa. When the lesbian
magazine The Ladder began in the 1950s, Edythe was a frequent contributor under
the name Lisa Ben, an anagram of the word lesbian. Copies of Vice Versa can
still be read today at ONE National Gay & Lesbian Archives.
Dubbed by the Daughters of Bilitis
as “the first gay folk singer,” Edythe enjoyed a successful music career in
lesbian circles throughout her life. Her music was also featured on
several documentary films. She was honored in 1972 by ONE Archives as one of
the “fathers of the homophile movement,” was featured in the 1984 documentary
Before Stonewall, and was also inducted into the National Lesbian and Gay
Journalists Association’s hall of fame in 2010. Edyth passed away on December
22, 2015 at the age of 94.