So I really enjoyed this episode (who didn’t) but what I liked the most was the frustration it put in my chest, because I would like to think that this frustration is meant to be there.
These men already talk of Jack as though he’s a lost cause. As though he was good when he had a soul and now he’s gone bad because he lost it. None of them seeing their own prejudiced judgement, none of them stopping to question if this is the actual truth or just the truth as they perceive it.
It’s infuriating. *and gorgeously so*
It’s gorgeously so because I hope the huge mistake they seem set to make in the next episode will give them some real perspective and slap some sense into them. Things are not black and white. Things are not good or evil.
What makes a monster, truly? Truly?
That’s what I’d like to talk about here, actually. In a sense. Because I hope this episode helps lay the groundwork for the emotional payoff that might not come our way next episode, but that might come our way in the finale.
When there has been some sense-slapping going on.
So Jack. Jack as mirror. Actually, Jack is really the fragmentation of TFW in this episode, his actions driven by the lessons he’s learned from his father figures and, even though he’s not outright asking himself WWWD, he’s still acting accordingly.
Fragment 1: Sam and Running Away
Sam’s statement about how he handled the deaths of Maggie and the rest of the hunters, where he just left Jack with Cas and ran away from it all, ties in with how Jack tries to flee, tries to frantically find sanctuary and hide himself away from the absolutely horrifying deed he’s committed, but he finds himself right back where it happened. But as Sam has realised, you can’t outrun your mistakes. They’ll always resurface in worse ways than before, because burying your emotions results in what? Well, your Shadow popping up for a visit. Telling you all the lies about yourself you already believe are true. Hitting all those insecurity and self-loathing buttons. Not pretty or pleasant.
Fragment 2: Dean and Bringing Mary Back
Dean’s first thought is to fight and get back what’s been lost. So they’ll turn to Rowena and her Book of the Damned. Rowena will know what to do. What’s Jack’s first thought? Resurracting Mary. And so he goes to Rowena. Perfectly mirroring Dean’s thought pattern because Jack has learned from the best that when someone you love die, you do whatever it takes to get them back.
Fragment 3: Cas and Fixing Things
Cas tells Dean and Sam that the reason he left and went to try and find someone who might be able to help get Jack’s soul back, was because he was scared and he felt responsible and so he wanted to go and find a way to fix it. The idea of fixing it is tied to Jack’s motivation for resurrecting Mary as well. He has to fix the mistake he’s made.
So even though these three men don’t seem to realise it, their good influence is all the motivation Jack is working under this episode. Unfortunately, their suspicion and mistrust is where Jack’s efforts land, because that’s where TFW are at for the entire episode and so the bad is bound to blend with the good.
Jack is neither monster nor man at this point, so he truly doesn’t deserve to be judged and hunted, no matter the horrific deed he committed. Mary is at peace. Truly. It was a terrible accident. Jack needs to learn how to control his emotions (guess who else needs that more than anyone on this damn planet) (mh) (Dean Winchester) but he is not a monster.
Hopefully the established good will, as mentioned, be a part of what opens the eyes of Sam, Dean and Cas and allow them to see the actual truth: that Jack is a lost, scared, alone nephilim kid, who needs a very steady hand, one that none of them have actually provided for him, because they don’t quite know how.
So they need to reach a point where they understand what they have to do.
Which is be the sort of parental figures a kid can rely on to always tell the truth. Always. Because trust is the most important thing in any relationship and especially between a parent and a child.
Please, let this situation push these men into a position where they understand the necessity for open communication, where honesty builds trust. They’ll all reap the damn benefits. Amen. Cas is seeing the light, I think. His honesty this episode, as well as Sam’s gentle disagreement with Dean and Dean’s relenting into agreeing with Sam’s disagreement are all first steps towards this type of communication happening with less friction. *fingers crossed*