how you program your mind when you’re at a low point is so impactful. resorting back to toxic patterns when you’re low is only strengthening those neural pathways and programming your mind to make those unhealthy choices or think those unhealthy thoughts every time you’re not feeling well. alternatively, trying your hardest to cope in a healthier way every time you’re feeling bad will strengthen those positive neural pathways, and as time goes on, it will become easier to make healthy choices and say no to toxic patterns. this of course isn’t to say that you should feel guilty if you relapse, it is not by any means easy to reprogram your brain and sometimes we relapse and that’s okay, so long as we’re trying our best to treat ourselves better.
Take that pencil and draw, even if you haven’t done it for years. Pick up that guitar and strum it, even if you never took a single class. Click that camera button and take a picture, even if you don’t know anything about temperature or saturation. You should do what you feel drawn to even if you think that you aren’t “skilled”. You should do it because you genuinely enjoy it, which is more than enough.
even if your past self is better than the person that you
are now, you are still here and you are still fighting – please don’t strive to
reach the place that you used to be, strive to be better than you are, right
now, every day; take little steps, and one day you’ll be the best you have ever
do not shy away from pride. it doesn’t always have to carry its negative connotation. celebrate yourself - for your uniqueness, achievements, and everything that you are, and celebrate others just as intensely.
make efforts to understand yourself, primarily your thoughts and your emotional experience. there is so much you can learn just from observing these two. find a way to record everything that’s on your mind and see how they change over time.
give yourself enough time to heal. you have your own pace, your own breaks, your own growth - and as long as you believe that you’re on the right track, you’ll be fine.
yes, people do care for you. they are willing to listen to your problems and help you get through them. they are willing to love you, even when you don’t feel like they are. don’t be afraid to open up.
do something reckless. something powerful. something surprising. feel the adrenaline rush running through your body. feel the breathtakingly beautiful sensation that you’re alive, and living.
be more honest with yourself, in everything that you do. don’t try to change who you are just to please someone else - you’re interesting enough. they want to talk to some sort of ideal, they want to talk to you.
remember that you are allowed to make mistakes. realising that you have done something wrong doesn’t make you a bad person, much rather does it make you a better one than before. don’t put too much pressure on yourself. imperfection is natural.
work on your discipline. go to bed early. finish off your tasks. create healthy habits that will improve every aspect of your life. your mind and body will thank you for it.
do that thing you’ve always been meaning to do. no one will do it for you; don’t spend too much time waiting for a sign. it’s time to take matters into your own hands.
see how much you’ve grown. look back at where you were two, three months ago, and how much things have changed since then. be aware of your personal development, even after such a short period of time, and look forward to what is yet to come.
you can get better. you will get better. but first, you have to really want to. you have to stop yourself from falling further down into the rabbit hole of self-destruction. you have to stop telling yourself that there’s no point, that there’s nothing you can do to get better. then, you can really start to get better. and before you know it, it doesn’t feel so pointless after all.