I’m leaving my entire life behind….
Hello everyone. I hope you have enjoyed the posts so far! I am currently sitting at my gate at the JFK airport after a full dat of pre-staging in Philadelphia. We finished all of our briefing sessions and prep. I met all of my fellow Peace Corps Volunteers in my cohort “Guyana 31” and I am proud to be a part of such an awesome group who I will come to be good friends with over the course of the coming weeks. The staff has been super welcoming and helpful so far in getting us ready to depart to Guyana in about an hour. But I would like to take some time to let you guys inside my head tell you what I’ve been feeling lately.
So I have been in the process of applying, interviewing, going through medical clearances, legal clearances, new passport application, visa application, immunizations, dental exams, and much, much more all in preparation of serving. I won’t go too deep into how this all began except for saying that I have been itching for an opportunity like this for over a year now. I applied once before last May of 2017 and got denied. Then I applied again in September 2017 (Thank you to someone special for some inspiration)
So here I am…
Right now, a flurry of thoughts are running rampant through my mind. I’ll be leaving my entire life behind. I have said my final goodbyes to the people I love most. Things will change while I am gone. I will return both the same guy as before, but at the same time, I will have a new outlook on the world. I will have experienced things that I can’t even conceive of at the time of this posting.
I am the most scared now that I have ever been.
It is perfectly okay though. This is natural. This is normal. This is a new challenge. This isn’t about being fearless, it’s about having your fear, acknowledging it, and doing what you want to do in spite of it. It’s not everyday you leave the entire life you have known for 23 years to serve those in a developing country. It would be wrong if I wasn’t afraid. The good thing is that my excitement overwhelms my reservations twentyfold. I refuse to let my fear decide my fate. I am going to continue to follow my feet and trust that the path that they lead me on will make me a better person and ultimately lead me back to the people I owe all of my success and opportunity to.
I love all of you.
I love my family. I love my friends. I love my coaches and mentors. I love all of the people I have coached and coached with over the years. I love my soon-to-be host families in Guyana and the community of people in my new home. I love my fellow Peace Corps Trainees in Guyana Group 31.
I love you, Tiff.
I love you, Mama.
I’ll be back soon.
Everything will be alright.
“Rain ah fall ah roof yuh put barrel fuh ketch am.” -Guyanese Proverb
(There is an opportunity for everyone and you must try to grasp it.)