Hey there anon!
If you have reason to believe that you’re schizophrenic/on the psychosis spectrum, then I assume you have symptoms associated with those disorders.
It’s good that you have this much self insight! When I went to see a psychiatrist I was certain my only problems were anxiety and adhd. Knowing that something more is up is really helpful, because it’s not fun to have someone suddenly make you question everything you know.
I think it’s very valid to be worried about someone assuming you might be faking, unfortunately I can’t tell you “that never happens”, it is a real concern that some people struggle with. I’ve never figured out the exact science of what makes them question the validity of one person over that of another. But it probably has to do with falling within their “image” of someone with that disorder.
I said you were blessed with insight, but in this instance, it can also become a curse. The psych may expect that you are in denial or unable to be aware of your own psychosis. They have not yet entered the age of information; then don’t fully know how to handle patients who come fully equipped with the vocabulary to talk about their own experiences. Because we read about symptoms we might have online to see what those are, we take on the words for these experiences like “dissociation”, “intrusive thought”, “internal voices” etc.
Then when we speak to the psychs and tell them of our experiences we use the vocabulary that we have learned while doing our research, because it captures our experiences so succintly. This makes the psychs suspicious. They are always on the lookout for “psychology student syndrome”, and with the internet being what it is, these days anyone could “read themselves into thinking they have a disorder” - or they could even consciously choose to fake it! I don’t think this is a very valid concern. Why the fuck would anyone try to fake psychosis unless they were on trial for a violent crime? None the less it seems to be on many mh worker’s mind.
So my suggestion for how to avoid them thinking you’re faking - and this is not a surefire way, but it may help - is to explain your symptoms IN YOUR OWN WORDS. You may stumble, and feel silly bc the medical term is RIGHT THERE, but they want to be the ones doing the grouping of symptoms and finding of connections and making of diagnoses.
And since this is a psychologist, it’s also honestly a lot more helpful for the therapeutic work because every experience is different, and you want to be talking about YOUR experiences, not some generalized symptom or disorder.
I don’t know how it is in your country, but often psychologists focus less on diagnosing and more on treatment of specific symptoms, so don’t be disappointed if they don’t give you any sort of diagnosis (if that’s what you’re looking for).
If you’re going in for a diagnosis I urge you to keep and open but critical mind to their thoughts and suggestions.
I hope everything works out wonderfully for you, and that you get the help you need!