shoutout to the mlm who aren’t yearning pining aching or even interested in a romantic relationship. it’s okay to have a low (or no) romantic drive. you’re still mlm and welcome in the community. shoutout to the mlm who are ace and/or aro and feel alienated from the community for it. you can be mlm and not in a relationship. you can be mlm and uninterested in having a relationship. your identity as mlm isn’t tied to your desire for a relationship and you deserve to be seen and heard within the mlm community. not all mlm are interested in lovecore and yearning and daydreaming etc. despite what tumblr seems to say. it’s okay and normal and healthy to focus on you. your identity isn’t tied to anybody but yourself.
Y’all ever think about John finding Arthur’s little boxy camera in his satchel after he dies? It’s broken and unusable now, the lense cracked and wood scuffed, but he still takes it to get the photos developed, more curiosity than anything else. And when he gets them back and goes through them his heart clenches and chest aches, and before long tears begin to fall. Because they’re all photos of Arthur’s horse, beautiful shots of the countryside, and the gang, still all alive, together and happy. Javier sitting by the campfire, guitar in lap. Hosea at one of the camp tables as he leans back in his chair and reads the paper, steaming cup of coffee on the table next to him. Charles fletching arrows. Jack playing with Cain. Even him, cleaning a saddle in his lap at the camp poker table.
Because apparently seeing one post by @armoredsuperheavy about fanfiction bookbinding got the worm in my head to wiggle in excitement and now I want to preserve all those wonderful stories I read forever.
A little rant coming, but the thoughts about guerrilla publishing works that wouldn’t be deemed as “good enough” for “real published literature” (as if those weren’t just fancy words with little meaning) struck me. Because while it might be a ridiculous idea, who’s to say that the databases with our favourite works won’t just get hit by a meteor? Or that for whatever reason we would one day loose all the online databases? Where would all those stories, tales of characters and the people behind them, where would they be? In our memory for a while, and then gone, and we would never get that back.
So yeah. If I can save those works, these little pieces of human souls, I will try. (I even had a conversation with my mom about this philosophy and she approved and supported this decision, which is a wonderful feeling)
Now, without further ado: the book!
I though I should probably start with something short and simple, try not to overcomplicate life for myself.
I ended up binding the fantastic ‘hunting toward heartstill’ by @blackkatmagic
A Star Wars rare pair, it has 45 chapters and ended up just around 700 pages. Oh well. I tried.
The process itself was fun. For my sewing frame, I used an old chair (which I didn’t take a photo of… Sigh). I also didn’t make a book press, because I had a simpler solution actually at hand. Behold:
Two boards and four big strong clamps! It was surprisingly easy to use once I figured out how and it held the book in place like it never wanted to let go. Which allowed me to end up with this!
The book! I followed the tutorial by DAS Bookbinding on leather half-bound library bind (loosely… As I do with most tutorials).
I had spare leather that was this humble brown, so why not? I decided to use just simple brown colours and make it look regular, up until you’d start to read.
Given that it was my first project, I also learned a lot of things: namely, that leather sucks.
It’s fun to work with in a way, but if you don’t have the right tools (like me) it can get quite tedious. I also didn’t quite manage to get a very straight cut so the paper fit funnily (the back side of the book is something that I will never show to anyone…)
But I also learned things in the positive sense! For example, I found that it’s a lot of fun to sew the head and tail bands myself. And they look rather neat!
Seen along with how thick this book is, I just love that I got the gold and purple thread to match.
I also think the corners that I made look very neat and I will definitely keep using them.
All in all, it was very fun and I can’t wait to bind more fics—catch me already working on another one!