I'm finally doing it!
A while ago I reached my goal of 50/50 poems written (and right now I'm actually at 53!) for my manuscript. Due to recommendations, it was going to originally be centered around love/military/relationships, but it has branched a bit beyond that. I'm not sure yet if I will stick with that center theme or not yet, but I am FINALLY en route to editing and revising them. I have 3 friends who are willing to sit down and critique with me and help me become a better writer, reader, and editor. So once I really crack down on editing and revising, I will have a much better idea of what the focus will be.
This is huge for me. I have always been extremely self-conscious about my writing. They say you're your own worst critic, right? When I was in school and read in front of people at the student reading my stomach was in my throat and it felt like my insides were exploding, I was so nervous. And I'm incredibly nervous about this. These people have read my work before and helped, but sitting down as a group and really discussing it all is going to be both nerve-racking and relieving for me.
I guess the point is I'm just really excited that I've finally forced myself to suck it up and take a (big) step forward. c: