„El kellett hinnem, egyszerűen el kellett hitetnem magammal, hogy neki jó lesz ott, nekem pedig itt. Nélküle. Tudni kell néha nem magunkat nézni, hanem a másikat, hogy neki adott helyzetben mi lenne a jobb. Én is tudatában voltam annak, hogy mennyire rossz és fájdalmas lesz nekem nélküle. Imádságaimban inkább vállaltam az ő hiányából adódó keserű lelki fájdalmat és egy életen át tartó szomorúságot, mint sem, hogy az Ő szenvedését, betegségéből eredendő naponta megélt fájdalmait meghosszabbítsam. Nem tehettem ezt. Most már csak annyit tehetek, hogy hiszek. Hiszem, hogy azon a csoda számban menő helyen már jól van, boldog, vigyáz rám, segít engem és hallja amit mondok… Hisz, itt van a közelemben, egészen közel…
Summary: Bucky was having trouble sleeping, so she came a long and helped him.
“Do my dark undereye circles and unwashed hair turn you on?”
It was her late tradition. Something she would do every day at night, but after Steve had bought Bucky in the family, she had found some nights her tradition would be skipped.
“You can come.” His voice was scruffy, and laced with annoyance. She couldn’t tell if it was because of her or because of his nightmares. But he was annoyed, and that was for sure, so she didn’t want to further annoy him by just reverting back into the shadows of the hallways.
“Hey James,” She spoke awkwardly. Seeing as he didn’t even pick up his gaze from his cold coffee. His posture was very stiff, as was his breathing.
She had seen him many sleepless nights here, just as she would come down to grab her junk food for her movie night alone. But every time she finds James back sitting over the island, she would silently retreat back to her room to not annoy him by interrupting his privacy. "Why are you awake… drinking coffee, you know that keeps you awake longer, right James…?“ She stood opposite him, gathering bowls from under the island counter. He didn’t say anything, but kept quite.
"I know,” He grumbled, his words seemed shoved as if he was forced to answer her.
With his reply the young girl placed her popcorn in the microwave and walked around Bucky to go for the pantry, grabbing every chip bag that was open and sealed, she placed them together in a heap with the rest of her bowls that were filled with candy. “Does your coffee even taste good?” She mumbled, shaking her head as she went to open the popcorn bag and clean it into the empty bowl.
“No.” His reply was… needy. So she stopped midway of clearing her bag and stared at him. Of course his eyes were trained on the coffee mug that was steamless.
She walked around him and grabbed his cup from between his hands. The brim of the cup instantly met with her lips, and just as fast as it had seeped into the taste buds of her tong, it was sent right back into the mug. “James this is disgusting-”
“I don’t know how to use a coffee machine-”
“Your not even suppose to be drinking coffee if you have trouble sleeping.” She grumbled. Taking his mug and draining it in the sink, shivering from fear as she saw the cup was slowly seeping out all the coffee and sugar that were still at the bottom of the cup unstirred. “James, if you drank this you won’t sleep for a week.”
“Steve made it for me-”
She turned around to him instantly, shaking her head as she placed milk into a small kettle, letting it sit on the stove over medium heat as she went to sit beside him. She was staring at him, taking in his beauty. His baby blue eyes that shine brighter than a diamond, his uncontored slim nose, his champagne pink lips, his jawlin-
“Do my dark undereye circles and unwashed hair turn you on?” His voice brought her back to reality. She shook her head and silently giggled, getting up to see the pot, he didn’t need piping hot just somewhat warm.
“Your something else James…” She marveled. “You don’t want your milk hot-”
“Warm is fine.”
“Alright,” She whispered, wiping his mug clean and poring the milk in the mug. She carefully walked over to Bucky. Siding the mug under his gaze she went back to clean up the place. Silently taking note of Bucky’s sipping. Just as she cleaned the kettle and placed it back in the oven, she turned around and walked back to Bucky. “You know, your eyes are very beautiful, and your hair is so fine.” She collected his hair behind his back, “If you don’t mind, I want to braid it.”
She played around with the roots, and twisted his hair in many directions, she even pulled a little aggressively and had him spill some milk over his pants. She apologized, obviously. But finished it with giggles, while he noiselessly shook his head, but she saw the stretch of his cheek from the back of his head and knew he was enjoying his time with her. So just as she finished it to the tip, she let his hair down and watched as his hair became a big loose. Bending down to his head, she placed a soft kiss that had ignited heat spreading through his skull. He felt her chapped lips over the skin of his head.
“If you would like, my room is open. I’ll be watching some chick flick but if you decide to join, know we can change the film.” She snaked her arms around his chest. She felt him stiffen and stop moving. Hell, it almost sounded like he stopped breathing. “My room is just a few doors away from yours. I’m right next to Vis. Please, if you can’t sleep, just come. No one will judge you, alright jame-”
“You know the last time I had milk it was with Pirce.” He blurted, not wanting to keep this memory silent. He would always keep his memories silent with Steve, but with her it just slipped in a string from between his lips.
“I’m sorry, I’m here if you want to keep talking.” She tightened her hold on him, but after staying quite for a while, she nodded her head over his chest. “Remember, my door is open. I hardly lock it.” She kissed his back and retreated right after collecting all her junk food. She heard him screech his chair back and his heavy footsteps were following her before she even knew it. Turning around she found him taking long strides to match her pace.
“Chick flick is fine,” Bucky commented. Keeping his head low and following the dame with his tail between his legs.
They both rode the elevator, Bucky taking some of the bowls and chips from her hands. Passing a tired Steve who was too busy mumbling things to notice the couple walking together.
I have the I Made America theme as one of my alarms. When I got my new phone, I made my alarm and didn’t bother to check the volume. The next morning it went off and I walked up with a start because all I heard was “FRANKLIN, HAMILTON, JEFFERSON, MADISON, WASHINGTON, AND JOHN ADAMS *extremely loud guitar*”. I was freaking the freak out. It was so loud and scared the crap out of me. I was struggling to turn it off and when I did, I just laid there, panting. It was not a fun time.
Long distance for you and Sebastian wasn’t something you hadn’t dealt with. With time you learned how to help the time past faster and make it so much more less painful. Still you end up in a point where you just can’t handle it anymore. Being away from the person yu love so deeply your heart breaks every time you wake up and realizing their still not back in your arms.
Don’t focus on making the adjustments needed to maintain your balance. Focus instead on being receptive to the changes in your situation, understanding the forces at work; then the adjustments will make themselves. This is the basis of Sensitivity.
Today I’d like to discuss how to play MtG for less money for the rest of 2017. I’ve discussed this in the past but today is a great time to bring the topic back up as we’re at a
Today is the release of Iconic Masters which has a lot of reprints that people have been waiting for including Grove of the Burnwillows, Horizon Canopy and Flusterstorm to name a few.
Prices on these cards are falling quickly with Flustersorm, once an $80 card, possibly reaching as low as $25. I’m sure Iconic Masters will be fun to draft but if you’re looking for singles, I would pick those up instead. Is it as fun? No, but you can complete your decks for future fun. Remember, think of Masters sets as sales on the cards you need to pick up. This largest reductions last for about 45-60 days depending on how spread out the value is for the set so plan accordingly. Prices usually rise back to previous levels eventually so get those deals while you can!
What else is going on? Well, it’s the holiday season which is characterized by sales. C-c-combo! We often think of sales as coming from retailers - and there are plenty of those - but there are plenty of robust groups on Facebook for buying, selling and trading. People need money for the holidays so one of the first things they do is sell excess magic cards. This means you can pick them up for 10-20% off TCG Low! If Flusterstorm hits $25, that means you can get it for $20! If you do venture into Facebook groups, make sure you ask for references. If you’ve got any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask.
eBay is another way to get great deals right now. There are frequently $15 off of $75+ coupons or flash sales. Want to get your friends together for a CNS2 draft? You can end up getting the box for $65 with a coupon!
I hope this advice helps you finish off that deck you’ve been working on or just powers up your brew!