Guess what ✨baby✨, I'M SIXTEEN MONTHS ON TESTOSTERONE AND I'M TURNING 21 IN 9 DAYS!!!
Also!! I've been on TESTOSTERONE shots this whole time and I've decided to switch to patches to make it easier!! :)
In other news for updates! Still hairy. Sweatier than I thought, my palms mostly, I don't like it, makes video games less fun because of comfort. Facial hair is SLOWLY coming in now! The thin, invisible peach fuzz is growing longer and a few more are starting to grow darker.
At planned parenthood, where I get my T, they said my hemoglobin went down! (Hemoglobin is how many blood cells are in your blood) mine was a little high last time but now it's back to normal levels! So that's nice!
OH! I have an STP device and I used a public urinal for the first time on trans visibility day! So that was awesome!
Bad news: I'm getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow. I'll live but I'm not excited. 🥲
i was born a girl but i really wanna be a fucking boy, but i also wanna stay a girl even though i hate it, but id much rather be a boy , its alot but, what does that make me ? or am i just rambling on nothing ?
When I first realized I was trans, I was like well, I'm not very masculine at all and that sort of made me feel like identifying as a man would force me into masculinity that I did not do at all.
But then I realized that just like cis men can be GNC (gender non-conforming), like Harry Styles wearing a dress that one time, or Lil Nas X's ethereal looks in his MONTERO video. And I was like yep that's me, a Boytoy in a dress!
So really, I can't tell you what it makes you. But I can suggest how you find out for yourself. Use male pronouns and a male name in places you feel safe doing so, like online, wear baggy clothes to minimize your chest.
@all my Transmasc followers, please share your wisdom!!
I'm really sorry this response was so long, but I am so proud of you for opening up with these questions! Boy or girl or anything in between or none of the above, I love you and I send all the hugs and gentle hair kisses in the world!!
quick fyi to the general (cisgender) public about portraying trans people
hi! i'm a trans man. and i'm a little tired of the way some cis people portray us. here's some things you might not have known, but should take into consideration.
PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING BEFORE COMMENTING.
-trans people (nonbinary, transmasc, agender, transfem, ect) can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance, and you still have to respect them.
-a lot of trans masc people are curvy, testosterone or not. we cannot change how wide our hips are. it's okay for a trans masc person to have curves; in fact, a lot of us like seeing that representation. you don't have to draw every trans masc person as this thin, stick-straight, curly haired little twink who passes perfectly. transmasc people can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance, and you still have to respect them.
-CISGENDER people drawing transmasc people in dresses, having us appear super feminine (makeup, shaving, looking like fucking bambi) or making smut about a trans man showing off his chest is incredibly not cool.
-a lot of trans women can't change how deep their voices are. they might have a more stereo-typically masculine build. they might have body hair. they may have short hair or deep voices and wear jeans and not like makeup and whatever. transfem people can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance and you still have to respect them.
-CISGENDER people portraying TRANSFEM people in a way that fetishizes certain features of theirs is WRONG. i myself am not a transfem person, so i don't feel super qualified to talk about what transfem people are/are not okay with, but transfem people feel free to add on.
-TRANS PEOPLE CAN PORTRAY TRANS PEOPLE HOW THEY WANT. STRAIGHT PEOPLE CAN'T SAY THE F-SLUR, AND IN THE SAME RESPECT, CIS PEOPLE CANNOT PORTRAY TRANS PEOPLE IN SUCH A WAY THAT MIGHT MAKE TRANS PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE.
-TRANS PEOPLE ARE ALLOWED TO LOOK HOWEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT. THIS DOES NOT MAKE THEM ANY LESS VALID.
-however, cisgender people FETISHIZING trans people being feminine/masculine (calling attention to a transfem's persons masculine features, for example) is fucked up.
-trans people can portray trans people HOWEVER feels truest to them. cisgender people can't.
-CISGENDER PEOPLE, however, FETISHIZING TRANS WOMEN BEING MASCULINE (OR FETISHIZING TRANS PEOPLE IN GENERAL) IS WRONG. CIS PEOPLE AREN'T ALLOWED TO DO THIS. I DON'T CARE IF YOU HAVE A TRANS RELATIVE. YOU. AREN'T. ALLOWED.
-TRANS PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE TO CONFORM TO CISGENDER NORMS.
-but, again, if a trans man wants to draw a trans man in a sports bra, so be it. can it make other people uncomfortable? yes. should discretion when publishing such material be used? also yes.
-but what isn't cool is trans people trying to make other trans people be more okay with being feminized/being more masculine, or vice-versa. it also isn't okay to shove content (for example) like a trans man in a sports bra toward trans men who don't like that. just use common sense and respect other people.
-it also isn't cool for trans people to shame other trans people for making such content. it isn't okay to invalidate a trans person over such content. trans people can portray and enjoy their own bodies however they see fit. saying anything otherwise is transphobic.
i probably didn't say everything but feel free to add on, and i'll just delete stupid comments. constructive criticism is fine (i'm fifteen, and have only been out for four years, so if you want to respectfully tell me i got something wrong, feel free. i'm still learning.)
Kiddah! My name is Manpreet, and my pronouns are he/him/they/them. I’m a 26 year old Queer Punjabi Sikh, and I’m living on Ohlone land (San Francisco Bay Area). I’ve known about my Queer identity since I was a child.
I’m an author, poet, illustrator, and activist. I use my art to speak about the injustices that terrorize marginalized communities. I graduated with a Bachelor’s in ethnic studies, specializing in genders and sexualities in communities of color, at California State University: East Bay (2019). I’m continuing my education while working on a few projects: a book of essays, a second poetry book, and a mixtape. There are more projects that are under wraps and won’t be spoken about until they’ve been finalized.
I appreciate everybody who continues to support my journey and holds unconditional love for me. Thank you for being here and for seeing me. You can cop my first poetry book “Singh is Queer” directly from me or from Amazon (kindle + paperback). Check out my website for all my work singhisqueer.com 🌈
Do y’all ever look back and be like, “How did I not realize I was trans sooner?”
Case in point: I literally did not think I was going to go through female puberty. Like I knew what it was, and I knew everyone thought it was going to happen to me, I just thought they were all wrong. Like once a bunch of kids were speculating that this teacher who didn’t have kids never got her period (bc apparently the only reason someone wouldn’t have kids is because they couldn’t/sarcastic), and I just immediately assumed that that was what was gonna happen to me. Everyone else was all excited about their chests growing and curves coming and I was just like, “yeah no, not happening to me.”
What are some of your queer childhood stories?