What Might Have Been - Chapter 14: Want
Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Chapter 10 - Chapter 11 - Chapter 12 - Chapter 13 - Chapter 14 - Chapter 15 - [ AO3 ] CW throughout: swearing, Mature rating
💚 Side B Chapter 💚
Continues immediately from the end of Chapter 13: Love ...
CW / Content Warning: Implied past self harm, minor burn, shouting Songs for This Chapter: Save Me by Queen Love of My Life by Queen [I'll] love you 'til I die Save me, save me, save me I can't face this life alone -----
As Remus stepped down the staircase, he could hear quiet murmuring in the kitchen. He tried not to listen, but Janus' voice rumbling, "Are you sure about this, my dear? We don't have to -" cut right through. As Remus approached the entrance to the kitchen, he cleared his throat so he wouldn't sneak up on them or overhear anything else not meant for his ears.
When Remus entered, Janus stood with his back to the doorway, head bent down and resting on Roman's shoulder. Their arms were wrapped around each other. Roman's eyes were squeezed shut. "Um, hey ...," Remus began, voice unsteady. He had been to hospitals with a more light-hearted energy. Fuck, I've been to funerals that didn't feel this dark. "Are you two ok? Did something happen?"
Janus shook his head as he broke away from Roman's embrace. "No, nothing has happened, Remus. We're -" Janus took a deep breath, met Roman's eyes and nodded. "We're fine." Roman nodded back, and Janus passed Remus as he left the room. He gripped his shoulder as he did, giving Remus a tiny, tight smile. "I ... I've got to get ready," before scurrying out of the kitchen and up the stairs.
"What's up with him?," Remus asked Roman, walking toward the coffee maker to pour a cup. Unable to ignore the silent, Roman-shaped elephant in the room any longer, he added "And what's up with you?"
"Why don't you sit down, Re?" Remus felt his stomach sink. There's no way this was going to be a good conversation.