Ok idk if i ever talked about this on here, but since its mother’s day i guess it fits.
So like, a couple of months ago i had a dream that the world had ended, (idk how i knew cuz in the dream i didnt go outside) but i was in my house, in the living room, laying down on a futon. And i was the only one in the house, well me and a baby,, i think he was almost a year old? But he was resting his head on my arm and my other are was wrapped around him,, it was one of those quiet moments when the baby is chillin and he was just studying my face lol,, he had these huge dark brown eyes and jet black hair,, and i knew this was my son? I just kept on thinking “i love my baby so much, ill do anything to protect you.” And felt this love and warmth ive never felt before,, so we were just laying there listening to the birds chirp outside and watching the dust dance in the light that pooled in from the window,,
It felt so real that when i woke up i was thinking “oh its morning, i should feed my baby :)” and i looked around and i realized… i dont have a baby, and i felt this overwhelming loss and sadness,, and when i think about my baby i still feel it,, so idk what that dream was but i think i got a sneak peek on what it feels like to have a baby,,