I just rewatched the prequel trilogy for the first time in YEARS and I have to say, they were nowhere near as bad as I remembered.
I mean, yeah, the direction was shit and made the actors seem like they’re awful (which they aren’t, most of the cast is made of very decent actors) and the writing was kind of ridiculous but the story? The story is amazing.
And it really just reminded me how horribly everyone in Anakin’s life failed him, with the exception of Padmé.
Obi-Wan did love Anakin like family but he should have fought harder to keep Anakin more distanced from the Jedi and from the Senate when it became abdundantly clear that he was too unstable to handle it. But he, and the rest of the Council, just saw this unbelievably powerful young man and they used that power.
Most of all, they (and Padmé) should have opened their eyes and seen that he was being manipulated by Palpatine. But instead, they encouraged him to get closer and closer to Palpatine to spy on him and report back.
And they left him in the clutches of Palpatine who gave him everything he wanted - someone who believed in him, who didn’t exclude him without reason, who didn’t discount his feelings. They failed Anakin in exactly the same ways that Ben was failed so much later.
Watching the prequels again also really cemented why I hated how the sequel trilogy ended. Anakin’s life was nothing but pain, loss, failure, and disappointment. He never had a chance against everything that happened to him.
Anakin’s tragedy continued through the original trilogy where we see him truly stripped of his humanity, always abused by his Sith master.
And despite that, we see Anakin redeemed at the end, but only through death. At the very least though, his death is genuinely mourned. His loss is felt deeply by his son who, despite it all, still loved him. Anakin is forgiven and he is allowed to come back as a Force ghost. And he comes back as Anakin, not Vader. The young, vibrant man he once was who died as soon as Vader was truly born.
And therein lies one of the many ways that the sequel trilogy was so incredibly unjust to Ben Solo. Like Anakin, he was tormented his entire life. He was manipulated and abused. Everyone who should have protected him failed to do so and Ben was lost, giving rise to Kylo Ren.
But, unlike Anakin’s change into Vader caused Anakin to die, Ben was simply lost behind Kylo Ren. He was torn between the two sides rather than entirely lost to the dark side. He was more primed for redemption than Anakin could have been.
Kylo Ren actually tried to shake loose the things that kept him bound to the light, unlike Anakin who had everything ripped away from him. And despite Kylo Ren’s efforts to sever the light that was causing him so much pain, he was NEVER able to succumb completely.
So strong were his innate ties to light and goodness that he could not give in even if he tried. He wore a mask trying to convince the world and himself that he was solidly evil, but it was a facade that no one entirely believed.
Palpatine was able to fairly easily bring Anakin into the darkness. But even with all his efforts, all his desire to possess this last Skywalker, he could never own Ben Solo.
So strong were his ties to the light that he could never bring himself to harm Rey. He didn’t even kill Finn when he easily could have - why? Was it his innate goodness? Was it that he knew killing Finn would hurt Rey deeply?
His lightsaber was the perfect way to express his anguished personality. Unstable, over heated, unusual. Always shimmering with a passion and energy not typical for a lightsaber, whether it was a Sith saber or a Jedi saber.
Like Rey, he was neither a creature purely of light or darkness. Both were perfect mixtures of grey.
And then, we lose Ben Solo.
It is beautiful because he saves the woman he loves so much.
It is also abrupt, unexpected, and unceremonious.
He is not mourned.
He is not remembered.
He is just gone.
He was made to be mourned and remembered less than even the most evil characters we see. His loss is treated with less concern than anyone ever gave to a red shirt in Star Trek.
His life and his death are both devoid of meaning.
The boy, lost and broken, who was failed by everyone who should have protected him. The boy who crawled from the pit of death to answer the call of the light. The boy who so desperately wanted to be free of pain that he was willing to break his own heart.
The Skywalkers - all of them - deserved better. But especially Ben Solo. His life was reduced to nothing. His death was reduced to nothing. His redemption was reduced to nothing.
And that is my biggest beef with the end of the sequel trilogy. I loved the prequel trilogy because it humanized Anakin in preparation for his redemption. The sequel trilogy humanized Ben Solo in preparation for … nothing. Just an unceremonious death and to be forgotten by everyone.
Anakin: whoever’s closest. Rex has gotten very good at dodging. obi-wan isn’t always so lucky.
Ahsoka: Anakin, unless he’s busy. Which he usually is. She’ll substitute with Rex in a pinch, but his armor makes a shitty pillow and he keeps waking her up by firing his blaster and yelling “CONSTANT VIGILANCE”
Obi-wan: Cody. Cody has taken to duct-taping a small pillow onto his shoulder. he glares at anyone who talks about it.
Rex: also cody. but one time he chased anakin down, put him in a grappling hold, and yelled “DON’T DISTURB ME SIR I NED MY REST” before purposefully falling asleep on him to force anakin to take a break.
Cody: cody doesn’t sleep on anyone. cody doesn’t sleep at all. one time, cody had been standing stock-still on the bridge for four hours and obi-wan carefully took his helmet off, and cody didn’t react at all, didn’t even blink when obi-wan waved his hand in front of his face. obi-wan is starting to worry about cody’s caf intake
Fives: Echo. After Echo dies, he switches to Rex, and Rex (long-sufferingly) indulges him, but is secretly glad when Tup comes along and he can offload Fives to him, because he loves his little brother and hates to see him grieving but fives snores
Dogma: Tup, but he’ll never admit it. One time he fell asleep on Tup and woke up being smothered by Fives, who had joined them in the middle of the night, and Dogma has honestly never been more terrified of anything in his life
Wolffe: Wolffe doesn’t care who he sleeps on, but he is gonna sleep on someone (he hates sleeping alone, ever since the malevolence). when he’s tired, he goes stalking down the hallways of plo’s ship, and he’ll grab the first squishy-looking trooper he comes across, and that poor trooper is just going to have to deal with being the Commander’s pillow for the next few hours.
Bly: three guesses who. he once woke up with his face awkwardly buried in her bosom and to this day he’s honestly not sure if he survived the experience
Aayla: she’s very chill and is honestly willing to fall asleep on anyone, but Bly’s puppy eyes get her every time. seriously it’s like a jedi mind trick how is he doing that
Commander Fox: listen. listen. fox has a very stressful job. he is very tired. he has an entire planet’s worth of miles-deep city to patrol, and people keep bombing it and kidnapping senators, AND he has to escort the Supreme Chancellor all over the place to keep him safe, and ok maybe one time he drifted off in the back of a speeder and ended up napping on palpatine’s shoulder and he might have drooled just a little bit on the chancellor’s stupid fancy velvet sleeve poofs, but if he did then both of them have silently agreed to never mention it ever at all to anyone
Being an anakin/vader fan is just switching back and forth from making jokes about how dumb or dramatic he is to crying over the absolute tragedy and emotional mess that his story is and then switching back to mimicking “I don’t like sand” in the same breath.
Ahsoka Tano Username: snippy_tano - Got her account first because she’s the unofficial “Gen Z” kid - Her first videos are her learning TikToc dances - She convinced a bunch of the other padawans to do a group dance video in the temple - Had a video of her touring the Resolute, but Rex and Anakin made her take it down because her account is public - Got Anakin into TikToc (after some convincing. Anakin: It’s just not the same as Vine though.”) - Has a series on her account where she pranks Anakin - She is on Part 48 and Anakin still falls for the pranks - Made a video trying to teach the 501st the renegade
Anakin Skywalker Username: thechosen_one - Was reluctant to get an account because he preferred Vine - Ahsoka finally convinced him and he actually loves it - Posts workout videos and that’s where he gets most of his followers - Receives a ton of thirst comments on those videos - Padme created a fake account just to comment on his videos, she doesn’t tell Anakin though - Somehow his account became more popular than Ahsokas - She is very bitter about it - Tried to prank Ahsoka but she never fell for them so he gave up - Does videos where he explains what he’s repairing on his droids or ships - Created an account for R2 like how people create accounts for their pets
Obi-Wan Kenobi Username: obiwankenobi2 - Downloaded it so he could try and relate to Anakin and Ahsoka - Was confused and disappointed when someone already took his actual name so he had to put “2″ after it - Has a video where it’s just him looking into the camera trying different filters - Wants to delete it but no one will tell him how to delete videos - After awhile he gets the hang of it - Most of his videos are just him dueting and reacting to the stupid videos on Anakin and Ahsoka’s accounts - His fyp is full of cute animal videos -Get’s cyber bullied by Maul
Captain Rex Username: captain_rex - Got TikToc after Ahsoka taught the 501st the renegade - He still can’t do the dance right - Has a series on his account where he records all of Anakins dumb ideas and plans - He lost count on what part he was on - Created the offical_501st account - Him and his brothers in the 501st do dumb challenges on that account during their downtime - officail_501st has a rivalry between the offical_212th account - Each account tries to outdo each others challenges and get the most followers
Fives Username: itsfivesmyguys - Conspiracy channel - Started the rumor that their General was up to something with the Senator from Naboo - He has a lot of proof - Hardcase and him are the only ones who mastered the renegade - Did the tidepod challenge - Ended up in the medbay with a very dissapointed Kix
Padme Amidala Username: senetor_amidala - Uses her account to spread social justice issues - Also a way to show off her amazing clothes - Has the best hair tutorials - Collabs with Ahsoka to make fun of clothes when they go shopping - Does TikToc dances with her handmaidens - Her fake account username is simpforskywalker - Uses it solely to put anonymous thirst comments on Anakin’s post to mess with him - Doesn’t tell him it’s her (Even though she uses obvious clues, but he never catches on)
Plo Koon Username: master_plo - Ahsoka helped set up his account - Only got it to make Ahsoka happy - His posts are just videos of random things with the weirdest audios - The Wolfpack and Ahsoka tried to show him how to use it but he just doesn’t understand - Doesn’t understand the humor of it all - But when Ahsoka shows him a TikToc she finds funny he will fake a laugh
I love how you can just still see a few hints of Anakin in there even though he’s in the full Darth Vader outfit, from his height to his slow mannerisms.
How he finds Ahsoka’s saber years later on the moon, rusted and frosted over, recognizing it as he ignites it, looking up at the convor in the sky, probably Morai as it circles around him. Giving us a shot of him holding the blue lightsaber, a heartbreaking reminder of the life and eventual tragedy that was bestowed upon this man.
Believing that the last remnants of his past has officially ended, he simply walks away, taking the saber with him as the snow continues to bury the old tatterd helmets (still having Ahsoka’s markings), symbolizing the end of the Republic and the Clone Wars and the rise of the Empire as we see Vader walking away in the visors cracked reflection.
Sometimes I think people forget how smart this man actually is 👇🏻
I did a lot of research on him and what exactly he could do regarding his brain skills, and here’s what I found:
-he was an expert in mathematics, engineering, piloting, and pod racing by the time he was 9 years old
-Watto recognized Anakin’s “gift for taking things apart and putting them back together and making them work better than they had before”
-Built a working fucking robot (C3P0) before he even hit double digits, to HELP HIS MOTHER WITH HER SLAVE WORK 🥺🥺🥺
-When building C-3PO, he smuggled him to his hovel piece by piece so Watto wouldn’t find out and built him to help his mother with chores and alien translation. (He added the 3 to his name because he considered him a third part of the Skywalker family 🥺)
-this genius motherfucker had built an INTELLIGENCE AND COMMUNICATIONS SYSTEM IN A WEEK for C3P0. A WEEK. And he had a feeling that he was a kind soul so he built him to have a kind personality im crying—
-Watto trusted him to barter with the Jawas on his behalf, and he’d record them so later he could use C3PO to catch their “unguarded remarks”.
-Fluent in Huttese (and who knows… he’s surrounded by so many different species he must have picked up a bit of other languages)
-studied the controls of spaceships by practicing on derelict cockpits he found in the junkyard, that’s how he learned how to fly
-built his own fucking pod racer when he was seven. SEVEN. And he knew Watto would try to take it if he saw that it was valuable so this SMART COOKIE kept it under a tarp in seemingly different states of disrepair so he wouldn’t take it 😭😭
-In his room at the Jedi temple, he installed a workbench and made droids that would fulfill little tasks he made them do. The temple had no use for droids, but Anakins creations were just running around the temple and I think that’s so cute
-He’s got a mechanical arm that he would tinker with and upgrade himself. How cool is that. It even has touch receptors.
-He also added stuff to his glove, like he made it so that it could be super sealed onto his arm so nothing could get in.
-Not to mention he was a general in a full ass war by the time he was 19-20 years old, they say he was a master of combat (not that Rex would agree).
I’m sorry but a man who can use his brain just hits different 🤓🤤
Would you do one for Anakin where Padmé decides she wants to put eyeliner on the reader and while the reader isn’t all for it they go through with it anyway to make Padmé happy? And as the reader is going to wash it off, she runs into Anakin and tries hiding it but he eventually notices and thinks it’s gorgeous? (Cheek kisses too pls?)
I did my best! I haven’t taken a request in a long time. Sorry for the wait!
“I don’t know about this …is this not against the rules?”
“Rules, you mean laws? As a lawmaker myself, I can say honestly, that there is no such rule against this.” Padme’s words were as graceful as her hands as she swiped the pink pigment across your cheek. You cringed at the sight of your reflection.
Your face looked more pink than usual, in time with the Naboo trend of blush. It looked as if you had spent too much time out in the meadows surrounding the palace. The ones with the flowers with pastel petals that fluttered like an insect’s wings in the breeze. You closed your eyes at the thought and savored the faux sunshine against your skin.
“Alright,” Padme sighed and you opened your eyes. The queen was leaned back in her chair, brown eyes scanning over every detail of your face. Her features held the same tension, with the slightly furrowed brow and pursed lips, as they did in Senate meetings. Something was not quite right with what she had done.
“What is it?” Padme let out a soft hum before she leaned back in.
“You’re missing something,” she mused with pursed lips. One of her slender hands reached up and traced the lines of your face in the air. The movement stirred a little breeze against your skin, a barely-there comfort as Padme looked at you.
Your heart was pounding as she hummed in thought. “I do truly think I look presentable. I-”
“One moment, Y/N,” Padme stood from the chair and walked towards her elaborate vanity. As she rummaged through her many drawers, you shifted your weight in the seat you had taken. You had been sitting for close to two hours now. At least since Padme had gotten her makeup done and now yourself. You could only imagine how the faces of the other handmaids would look if they saw you. How they would scowl at you, jealousy and rage written plainly across their features. The thought alone was enough to make you shudder in fear. But this was for Padme.
She had chosen you to accompany her to the briefing, an honor you would not pass up. Although the idea of seeing Anakin Skywalker again made you faint. Padme had told you about his presence, how the Jedi Council had selected him as a representative for the meeting. She had also mentioned how the Jedi had asked about you when he last ran into the Senator.
The thought made you giddy then when you didn’t think you would be seeing him for a long time. Now, it terrified you.
“Here we go,” Padme said as she took her seat back in front of you. In her hand, she held a black tube of makeup and you cringed at the sight. “It won’t hurt you.”
“I know, I only think that-” you met Padme’s eyes which glinted with joy. You couldn’t take that away from her. “I need my eyes, to help you.”
Padme laughed lightly and shook her head. “I’ll be careful, Y/N. I’ve had my makeup done since I was sixteen years old. I know what I’m doing.”
“You were also a Queen at sixteen, so I like to think that your mind was on policies rather than makeup.” You gave Padme a wary glance and saw that she was smiling.
“You need a little more faith, Y/N,” she fired back. You stifled the spike of laughter that threatened to shake your form. Padme’s hand was already lifted, holding the applicator of what you knew to be eyeliner. “And you need to hold still.”
And you did. As Padme carefully dragged the tip of the black ink along the lid of your eye, you stayed still. You didn’t dare think of Anakin or his kind face. Never did you entertain the image of his stunning blue eyes. You also swallowed the nerves that bubbled up in your stomach at the thought of seeing him again. It was hard, but somehow, you were still.
“There,” Padme sighed as she leaned back.
“Time for the other eye,” she breathed in reply as she leaned back in. You groaned and Padme laughed. “Almost done.”
“I know that first impressions are important,” you began as Padme worked on your other eye. “However, I will not be speaking.”
“You’re right,” Padme said softly, her attention still focused on the application of the eyeliner. “You will not be speaking in the meeting, but after….”
“After?” She leaned back and studied her work as you asked.
“That looks good, you look good.” You gave her a skeptical look and Padme sighed. She reached to grab a hand mirror on the side table and handed it to you. Slowly, nervously, you brought the mirror up towards your face.
To give credit to Padme, you didn’t look bad. The makeup application was not what made you recoil. No, it was just the foreign sight of your face decorated in differing pigments. You looked strange, perhaps of a different species from a different planet in a different system.
“You don’t like it.”
“No it’s not that, but simp-”
“Y/N,” Padme raised a hand, “it’s alright.”
“Padme,” you began but a chirping holochip cut you off. Padme glanced at its display and dismissed the message before you could ask about it.
“You can wash it off if you desire,” Padme sighed, “I know Naboo’s beauty culture is intense. It’s not for everyone.”
“Thank you,” you said and you stood on your shaking legs.
“Meet with me in the garden, the other representatives have arrived.” You turned and gave her a fearful look.
“All of the other representatives?” You raised your brows, knowing that she would read between the lines. Padme’s lips pressed into a line, one that read of something serious. Yet her eyes were bright with a merry you saw only on rare occasions.
“All of them.” You bit back a groan and walked out of her chambers. Of course, Anakin was here already. It had surprised you he hadn’t stopped by Padme’s chambers earlier. They were close, although Padme had assured you that there was nothing going on. While you walked you thought of every instance you had run into Anakin. Despite your slightly lower status, he had always been sweet to you.
“Jedi don’t see lines between others, only what connects us together,” he had said. You had marveled at his compassion, his willingness to step in front of you and Padme to take a blaster bolt to the arm. He was brave and kind and-
“Y/N?” You stopped mid-step and your foot hit the ground numbly. Every fiber of your being screamed at you to keep walking; to pretend that you didn’t hear him. Yet you were fixed to the spot, unable to move. Don’t turn around, don’t turn around.
“Are you alright, Y/N?”
Footsteps. Oh, by the Maker, he was walking towards you! You reached a hand up to rub your face but stopped. You didn’t want to smudge Padme’s work. Padme’s work. Pure, unadulterated heat ran through your veins.
“Y/N?” Heat dulled the moment his voice reached your ears for the third time. Only a linger, soft-around-the-edges type of warmth remained and it was enough to get you to turn around.
When you met Anakin’s blue eyes, the panic felt before faded away. It was just Anakin, the man you had gotten to know and grown affections for. Then, when Anakin’s eyes widened a second later, the panic returned. How ridiculous you must look him, a Jedi Knight on a diplomatic mission and you, a handmaid wearing makeup more expensive than your own home.
“I…hi,” Anakin began, his gaze glued to your features. Normally, you would have reveled in his attention and smiled as bright as Tatooine’s twin suns. Now, you only felt regret.
“Hello, Master Skywalker.” You dipped your head and Anakin sighed.
“Y/N, we don’t have a need for formalities.” Despite his relaxed tone, there was something in Anakin’s eyes that set you on edge.
“Y-yes,” you stammered, “although this meeting would grant such…formalities.” You lingered on the word, watched how as it fell from your lips Anakin seemed to move closer to you.
“Is that why you’ve dressed for the occasion?” Anakin raised a brow at you and cocked his head to the side. You wanted to be angry at him for teasing you; you wanted to scowl and walk off to wipe the makeup from your face. Yet you stayed there looking up at him and his smug smile that, somehow, retained some sort of sweetness.
“Perhaps I wish to…to make a good impression on the viceroys and senators, hmm?” You leaned towards him in a faux challenge, “did you ever think of that?”
Your confidence would soon ebb, that much you were sure of. You had been totally caught off guard. Makeup on your face, eyeliner that drew all attention to your gaze and then Anakin. He was staring at you, reading your every micro reaction. You could not let him see just how anxious you were; or how nervous he made you.
“You make a good impression,” Anakin leaned even closer as he spoke, “without the makeup.” You let yourself be swallowed by the blue of his eyes and it took all you had not to melt into him. “But, I think you look gorgeous.”
“Well I-” Anakin’s lips pecked your cheek and your words died on your tongue. There was no fighting the smile that spread on your lips as Anakin pulled away.
“As much as I would love to stay in the hallway and chat, I think we are needed elsewhere.” Anakin’s voice was low and, if it weren’t for the seriousness of his tone, you would have been too lost in his flirtatious gaze to actually hear what he had said.
“Perhaps…after the meeting is done we can continue this….chat…” Anakin smiled and, despite knowing that the Jedi before you knew he had you to himself, you smiled too. You could let him win. This time, at least.
“Yes, perhaps,” he agreed as a group of guards passed you in the hall. “Then you can tell me how you got this new look.”
You only nodded in reply. It was enough; you and Anakin didn’t need many words. Whatever your relationship was, there was no need to talk over the other.
“After then,” you said and Anakin leaned down one last time.
You watched as the Jedi strode off down the hall, lost in wonder. How would this work, what was between you and Anakin Skywalker? In the moment, you didn’t care to think. All you felt was affection and the urge to thank Padme for your make over.