Lights On

Paring: Female Reader x Tom

Song promt : Lights on by Shawn Mendes.

Summary : Tom is in love w/ reader and is to afraid to tell her. Until he’s faced between loosing her or telling her how he feels. ( also I realize this simply has nothing to do w/ the song but I loved it and this is the idea that came when I listened to it so enjoy. Ps I apologize that it’s so short)

There she walked in. In his chalk white shirt. She was to adorable, practically drowning in his clothes. The shirt was buttoned up and stopped right below her knees, showing her underwear clearly. Y/n walks over to the kitchen and opened fridge. Tom smiles at how she hadn’t noticed him looking at her yet or so he thought. Just then she turns around and look right at Tom “ hey you’re like out of everything you should go grocery shopping soon” She says and pours the milk onto the cereals. She grabs the bowl of cereal and sits down next to him. Tom and Y/n are best friends and have been for as long as they can remember. They met in grammar school. They would always force their mothers for playdates and mini sleepovers. Then they eventually grew up and went their separate ways. Y/n ended up at a collage in Washington majoring in creative writing. Tom went to Juliard school of performing arts majoring in acting and even filmmaking. Somehow they managed to find their way back to one another.

“ what are we watching doucheface “ she jokes still holding the bowl of cereal in her hand. Tom shrugs “ I just put something on” Tom shrugs leaving Y/n to roll her eyes at him. Tom continued to watch her as she brings the spoon to her mouth, the way her eyelashes flutters as she laughes. “ you’re doing it again” she said. Bringing her fingers to her ear so she can place the stroke of hair behind it. She keeps her eyes at the screen. Tom looks away embarrassing that he was caught watching her. If it isn’t already clear Tom likes y/n. He was going to tell her, he was going to but just then she started dating the asshole from east. Some guy who doesn’t know how to treat her right. He would never go away. Always showing up wherever they hung out. By the diner, Tom’s flat , he was always there. But that stopped when Y/n caught him cheating and left him for good. That had been just a week ago.

It has been a little bit over a week since she found him cheating. A little bit over a week since she got her heart broken. Y/n stayed at Tom’s place after everything. She couldn’t stand the thought of being in that apartment where she got her heart broken. So Tom took her in and out of respect Tom put off telling her for a little while longer. Yet here he was starring at the TV screen trying his hardest not to kiss her. “ you were just starring at me” She turns to face him. Tom shalwar his head. “ no I wasn’t” a simpler reply couldn’t be spoken.

“ okay, is it something a have on my face” She asks. Tom keeps quiet. If he opens his mouth and speaks he know that he might tell her. He might blurt the last thing she needed to know. “ no you don’t, I was just frozen that’s all.” He forced himself to say. She finally gives in and takes a bother sooon full of cereal.

A couple episodes (of whatever it was that you guys where watching ) later Y/n puts her empty bowl down on the small table beside the sofa. Her breathing quicken and she stands up. She had put this conversation long enough “ Hey um” she starts and grabs Toms attention.

“ I um- wow I didn’t know how dumb this is going to sound” she says. Tom begins to grow equally as nervous.

“ I have decided to talk things out with Darien. I might’ve agreed to move back in with him”

She tells him. Tom felt his heart sink. The weight of losing her one more time to that scumbag was unbearable. He couldn’t move ”w-what? But why? Y/n don’t please” He tries. He knew that if he didn’t tell her now he might not ever tell her. If she went back to him then he might ever get her back. Without thinking Tom grabs her by the waist and kisses her softly. He hadn’t planned any of it. He wasn’t going to tell her today.

“ Tom I” but Tom didn’t want to waist any more time. How could he? He’s been waiting for years to tell her and now he finally can. All it took was for her to slip far enough and suddenly he had the courage to kiss her.

Their lips move in unison and the bittersweet aftertaste from the cereal was exploding in his mouth. His hand helped her lay down. Y/n didn’t know exactly how to feel. She was kissing her best friend while in somewhat way going to go see her ex. To many things where going on in her mind. She wrapped her legs around his waist and held onto him. The sunlight beaming through the white curtains. He wasn’t going to tell her, He hadn’t planned on telling her. He had planned on waiting, planned on making a big deal out of it. He was going to take her to their favorite place and reenact one of her favorite scenes from Pretty in pink.

Now he was kissing her like he’d never kissed anyone before. Tom traces the outlines of her body, his fingers are trembling because of the nerves.

He loved everything about her body. Every stretch mark and every flaw. The light were guiding him as he traces his lips down her stomach.

“ Thomas” she pushes him off of her.

“ I can’t do this, I simply can’t do this” they both sit up.

“ Why? Why can’t we just..” y/n cuts him off

“ Tom you know I love you, you’re my absolute best friend and I appreciate what you have done for me I really do. But..” she really didn’t have to finish, Tom did it for her.

“ you still love him” It was already to late. Tom thought that a singel kiss would change everything, he’d finally get the girl.

She doesn’t answer his statement. She simply just grabs her phone and walks out the room. Only to reappear a couple moments later fully clothed and ready to head out the door. Just as she’s about to leave she turns her head and looks at Tom” Look, maybe in another world you and I would be. Maybe if I wasn’t such an idiot to choose him over you I won’t get my heart broken again. I promise you this Tom i Will never ever bother you again. I don’t want you break your heart like he broke mine” she walks over and plants a kiss on his forehead.

Just as the door closes Tom utters “ What if my hearts already broken?”

She left, leaving nothing but the lights on.

For Soph: @hollandroos