Anonymous asked:
bpd culture is getting nauseous when they start talking to you less because it feels like you definitely did something wrong this time and you’re going to be abandoned again any second now and not know why
** not everyone with NPD relates to "supply", important to note that! Also important to note that "supply" has been reclaimed, as it's often used against pwNPD.
Okay that's all I've got to say about that!
I really, really want to work on redefining NPD symptoms to describe how we experience them rather than how other people experience them! This is what I've got! If anyone else with NPD wants to add anything go ahead!
Oh and one more thing, no symptoms are inherently abusive. But, some people do still insist on using them as an excuse to hurt others. If you hurt someone using your symptoms then you must apologize, you mustn't use them as an excuse, and you must take responsibility.
Anonymous asked:
Cluster b culture is taking full offense when jokes at my expense are not funny TO ME. I'm just going to assume that the other person hates me and wants me to laugh it off. They're gonna have a lot of passive aggression incoming.
Anonymous asked:
npd culture is finding the idea of someone wanting you dead more appealing than the idea that a person just doesn't find you interesting
I would like to genuinely apologize for every single part of my personality
Jk actually I changed my mind I’m not sorry at all and every shitty part about myself makes me hotter sorry not sorry
Anonymous asked:
Cluster B culture is the endless work of trying to want what you are supposed to. Trying to want to be normal.
Being narcissistic is constantly thinking that the only way through is via intensity and violence. But not too intensely or violently or you’ll make a scene and people will perceive you negatively. But also you should make a scene and sort out those who can’t handle it as unworthy. But if there are too many of those who are unworthy you might become the one misunderstood. But being misunderstood is good because it makes you seem mysterious. But if you’re too mysterious they will stop idealizing you. They will stop giving you attention. You’re not here for attention. You’re here solely for attention. Is your value a sum of all pleasing interactions you have received? You’re above it. No, you’re the lousiest worm. You’re perpetually misunderstood. You have to perform. Performance roots in intensity and violence-
Anonymous asked:
BPD culture is hating people but being scared to express it bcs you might die if they hate you back (I think)
Anonymous asked:
bpd culture is feeling like maybe you're finally normal and then breaking down over nothing as soon as you're alone
Anonymous asked:
cluster b culture is pretending you're cold and heartless when you self isolate but you're waiting for them to text and check up on you
your advocacy for people with low empathy means nothing if you only focus on those who have high sympathy and compassion and are good at helping people and throw low empathy people who struggle a lot with those things under the bus
“my low empathy makes it so I can listen to all of my friends’ vents and sorrows without being upset and do everything I can to help them feel better!” my low empathy made me convinced I was hyper empathetic because people being in distress around me made me so deeply uncomfortable and irritated I thought it was cause I was “absorbing their emotions” and not because I was just overwhelmed and annoyed at them being upset
Anonymous asked:
npd culture is obsessively checking the note counts on your submissions here to feel the peer approval (but also, im better than everyone so of course people like my submission!)
Anonymous asked:
bpd culture is id prefer if you were physically violent to me than hurt me emotionally. at least if you beat me up i could enjoy that [i am a normal and well adjusted person with rational and normal thoughts and f33lings about pain]
Please I just want to feel fucking safe and looked after I’m so sick of being terrified
Call these mood swings coping mechanisms they way i be bouncing back from a breakdown on the way to work while still on the way to work
Interviewer: where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Me: I used escapist fantasies as a coping mechanism to get through years of trauma and therefore never learned how to plan for a real life future
That moment when it just hits you that you’re not particularly good at anything and you’re not particularly interested in anything and you’re not super close to anyone and you don’t have any plans or passions or personality and you’re literally just…. There
I spend so much time trying to be small. Trying to make my emotions fit into tiny boxes so that they'll be palatable to other people. Never saying how I truly feel because I'm scared it will make people uncomfortable. Never telling anyone my needs because I'm scared I'm demanding too much. Never asking for help even though I so desperately need me because im scared I'm not worth it.
I let people walk right over me. I put up with abuse because I'm scared they'll leave me.
I can't fucking do this anymore. When did I become so fucked up?
‘Splitting’, which is an apt term that describes what happens when someone with BPD is ‘triggered’ (which is a term that people roll their eyes at now which sucks but it’s the most effective adjective), is the part of this illness that makes me feel most alone. If someone does something wrong or says something hurtful I have the most intense reaction to it and I crack like an egg. I feel like I’ve never really been close to a person and that my entire life is comprised of layers upon layers of delusion and the people I love are truly out to harm me. This also sucks because the people I used to love were actually out to harm me. So yeah I’m not doing so great right now but I’m going to keep crocheting and sketching for my project. Fuck.