this stupid baka life isn't going according to keikaku

If people were too mean to you when you were growing up, a newborn animal will materialize inside your brain and it’s so so scared and shivering and it will stay there for years. Decades, even. And whenever you say something kind of weird but true to your heart the animal will tell you “Noo! You can’t say that! If you say that, everyone will hate you!”. The animal means well. It’s so so small and everything is so scary for them and it’s just trying to protect you. But listen to me. Listen to me. Whenever this happens, you can’t do what the animal says. You can’t. If you do, you’ll become as scared as the animal. You have to keep saying weird shit. You have to keep doing things the animal wouldn’t approve of. If you do enough things that scare the animal, maybe one day it’ll go to sleep.

I just wanted to make this post to warn yall about it, I am not a tech genius but I wanted to get a vpn and surfshark was one I knew about so i subscribed to them because it seemed ok, that was where I fucked up.

fast forward a year and now I am trying to cancel my yearly auto-renewing subscription which costs 70 fuckin bucks, didnt find much use in surfshark as it was too laggy when using its vpn services so i go to billing and try to cancel.

there was no cancel button so that was odd, and you cant turn off auto-renew so i figure ill just get rid of my card info so it cant charge me.

i cant or at least i cant figure out how.

I go to help and find the cancellation area after scrolling past why you should keep the subscription and it tells me to contact their live support to cancel, It requires my name and gmail, I know for a fact my gmail is correct but it says its wrong and that my name is wrong no matter how many ways I enter it and I cant find a possible username anywhere on the site i could use. Its for all practical reasons impossible for me to cancel, not just the fact I cant even talk to customer support, but the people on reddit that do, talk to a bot and then the agents take months to actually turn off the subscription so it charges again and there is no refunds.

dont use surfshark VPN

Important!

Related to the previous tags, BetterHelp’s founder and president has worked directly with the IOF.

DO NOT use BetterHelp. Shitty therapy service anyways.

look at this SPECIMEN

my beautiful wet son Corn Cob

FOUND family??? you think i just found them like this??? babes this is FORGED family. Me & the bros were scrap metal in a junkyard (very valuable, very sharp, very dangerous, uncared for) and we GOT IN THE FUCKING FIRE TOGETHER. WE did this. we said I AM NOT LEAVING YOU and melted into each other for better or for worse (it’s for better) and we are A FUNCTIONAL UNIT now. DO NOT SEPARATE. BATTERIES FUCKING INCLUDED. FOUND family my ass, we built this non-nuclear family unit from the ground up, don’t devalue this!!! it was is and will be a labour of love!!!

Sometimes when I sit quietly with my deer in headlights autism gaze I'm actually listening very intently. Sometimes I'm paying no attention whatsoever. You won't know the difference so beware. Be very aware of me I might be aware of you possibly

I keep seeing this in my notes and forgetting what I said so for a moment I'm like why did I talk about sitting with my deer I don't have any deer I've never sat with a deer

weed isnt real and you cant smoke it

If a worker who isn't the owner says ANYTHING similar to "I'm not really supposed to do this but-" and then does something that helps you, under no circumstances inform the business, including through reviews. You tell them that the worker was polite, professional, the very model of customer service and why you like to go there. You do not breathe a word of the rulebreaking.

Employee-customer solidarity

Even if they don't- Your review can be the thing that wrecks someone up accidentally;

"Janie was so helpful when I wanted to buy a new washing machine on Friday, she stayed with me for half an hour and wasn't pushy at all, we had a good laugh about our cats' silly antics and she got Adam and Suzy to carry it to the car for me- 10/10 excellent service, I'd come back any day!"

-But Management has a policy that workers should spend no more than 10 focused minutes on any customer at a time, and that they should always try to upsell the insurance and the higher price model, so Janie was breaking policy.

-And they aren't supposed to have their phones on the sales floor, so now Janie is going to be quizzed on whether she was showing photos of her cat to a customer.

-Adam is a warehouse worker and shouldn't have been in the front-of-house at all, Suzy is a porter, and store policy is both to use a trolley to move heavy items, and that only the porters should do it, so now Janie is in trouble for pulling Adam off-task, Adam is in trouble for walking through the shop floor, and Suzy is in trouble for poor handling procedure. Maybe the store even has a paid delivery service that Janie was supposed to upsell as soon as you said "I can't put this in my car without help", so this was all against policy.

Your review should always be as bland as possible, "10/10, five star service, will shop here again, thank you to Janie at the Town Street branch" You NEVER know what was technically a rule-break, capitalism is not your friend, the review process is part of the panopticon.

FIVE STARS, TEN OUT OF TEN, VERY GOOD, NOTHING MORE.

As someone who's been through this very process and gotten in trouble for helping customers despite corporate bullshit, I have to say this is all very true and without exaggeration.

Back in my day all you needed to be a cannibal was a chainsaw, blackout curtains, and a dream. Not like nowadays when everyone expects you to wear a ten thousand dollar Armani suit and deliver epic monologues about the nature of humanity. We made the best damn sausage and chili in the county and that's how we liked it. It's gettin' so you can't even afford abandoned houses in an isolated back road anymore, I tell you what. We shoulda known something was up the first time they started serving people with wine. Now look at us, they gentrified cannibalism is what happened.

a lot of little things….

he’s got that previously neglected shelter dog rizz. he looks like he wants to quietly sit next to you on the couch while you watch TV

he looks like he lets out a pathetic sad little sigh sometimes for no reason

hey i've been like pretty low on money the last few months, which has generally been surprisingly fine (though definitely stressful) but i'm now at a point where it's potentially about to get difficult. while im excited to finally about to be debt free i currently also have an open bill for legal fees im late on that's almost an entire months worth of my current regular income (which is only around 800-1000 USD).

any donations on my ko-fi (and especially monthly subscriptions) would help me tremendously with getting over this hump next month and allow for me to continue and expand my work (the big article im working is already like 3 months of work by two people and over a hundred dollars in expenses).

I can’t let motherfuckers know I got desires or they’ll think I suck

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

I mean if you wanna just loom in the corner like some kinda creature that's cool, we just don't want you getting left out

toulouse-lautrec farcille 🕯

it’s also fucked up that fat people literally fear going to the doctor for anything because they know the first thing out of their dr’s mouth no matter what their ailment is, is gonna be “lose weight lol” broken leg? lose weight. rash? lose weight. whooping cough? lose weight binch!!!!! like we get it. but can you just write my prescription you bitch so i can go eat a salad and not call you again until im about to die of the plague????

I would not be surprised if someone did a study and found an increase in misdiagnosis of fat patients due to doctors focusing solely on weight loss as a panacea and ignoring other vital issues

You mean like this article from the NY Times (from September of 2016) talking about how doctors refuse to consider non weight related issues until they absolutely have to?

Why Do Obese Patients Get Worse Care? Many Doctors Don’t See Past the Fat

Or this study showing that even though the bias is often unintentional it greatly changes patient care?

Impact of weight bias and stigma on quality of care and outcomes for patients with obesity

Or this study that showed that maternity providers have a bias towards obese women and often provide subpar care or push elective procedures?

Weight stigma in maternity care: women’s experiences and care providers’ attitudes

Fat Shaming Tied to Increased Risk of Metabolic Problems this one that says that obese people who are made to feel bad about their weight are 41% more likely to have medical complications as a result of the internalized stress (high cholesterol, high sugars, high blood pressure- or need meds to treat those conditions), versus people who don’t feel stigmatized. 

‘People First’ – Ending Weight Bias in Diabetes Care “ Evidence also indicates that doctors may spend less time in appointments, provide less health education, build less rapport, have lower expectations for medication adherence, and have less desire to help patients with obesity compared with thinner patients. “

I think about this every time I see something saying that obesity is a high risk factor for any other illness.

you can't oppression olympics your way out of how your trauma affected you.

"other people had it worse" bitch! I don't care! just from looking at you it's plain and obvious that you've had a time of it! a person can drown in six inches of water, it doesn't matter if someone else is drowning in ten feet! you're both still fucking drowning! show yourself a little bit of compassion before I come over there and do it for you. this is a threat