god's rottenest soldier
“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”
—
eatingwatersstuff
"Why aren't you trying?" fuck you, I'm fucking trying my best to not kill myself right now
how does everybody just live in the world? I can't seem to do it
I don’t feel anything anymore, I’m so exhausted. I just want to be gone.
“I had always been in love with him…He had been my almost, my might have been, and I did not want to leave him.”
— Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones
I want to die so badly. I’m so beyond tired, and I don’t know what to do anymore…nothing can be done, there’s nothing I can do, there is nothing anyone can do…I just don’t want to do this anymore..I don’t want to wake up anymore…I don’t want to do this anymore..I want to die so badly..I just can’t take it anymore my limit is tearing my insides apart..and I need it to stop..I need everything to stop..
i’m burned out, i’m tired, i’m falling apart. every day is the same but simultaneously gets worse.
“Sometimes people stop loving you. And that’s the kind of darkness that never gets fixed, no matter how many moons rise again.”
— Lauren Oliver, Vanishing Girls
UNIMPORTANT
No one cares about me
No one ever made an effort for me
And No one ever bothered to ask how I am.
People never choose me,
I’m always the one
trying to reach out to others,
I might be present
But people never notice me
I feel so invisible,
I feel so unimportant,
I feel so alone and
I feel so worthless
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
only good enough to be used and abandoned
// never loved, always treated like an object
I hate living so much, everyday is torture. Then why can’t I just end it once and for all. Why don’t I have the courage to kill myself. Why can’t the universe see how much I’m suffering and give this life to someone else. Why can’t I just go. Please just let me go. Please give me the courage to end it. Please. Please. Please.
I just want to die.
I’m worthless.
And useless.
And too broken.
To carry any of this anymore.
I just want to die.
I can’t do this anymore.